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Flooding / Re: Feelings of love during/after the flood
« on: February 05, 2016, 07:33:24 AM »
Interesting post!  I was wondering about the same things and I look forward to some responses :)

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Eboka Chat / Re: Reliable ibogaine vendors
« on: January 18, 2016, 02:59:03 PM »
Hello Ryu,
Thanks for your input.  It is very helpful to hear of your personal experience with IW :D

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Eboka Chat / Re: Reliable ibogaine vendors
« on: January 14, 2016, 04:28:26 PM »
Can anyone update on this please.  I'm looking for RB or TA (good quality). Don't want to use IW as I need it by the end of the month. Please PM me if you know a reliable source that doesn't take too long to ship to UK. One option is reset.nu but I don't know the quality of their ground root bark,

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Staying Clean / Re: A Suggestion for Addiction After-Care
« on: May 28, 2015, 09:31:12 AM »
Hey, TS- I think at least one of the sponsors of this site (Maya Ethnobotanicals and Cerberus Extracts) carry Salvia leaves.

As for Ayahuasca, some people have the guts to *combine* Salvia and Ayahuasca, and claim that they work well together. I'm sure this is usually the case, but I like to keep them separated to really focus on the energy of one medicine. Personally, I wait a week after taking Ayahuasca to take Salvia, and 2-3 days after taking Salvia to take Ayahuasca. The oral/buccal Salvia experience can be a good cleanser as preparation for an Ayahuasca journey, potentially.

mudhen- Thanks! I'm appreciating your contributions to this site lately.

Thanks :)  I would prefer to keep them separate too.

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Staying Clean / Re: A Suggestion for Addiction After-Care
« on: May 28, 2015, 06:44:17 AM »
Hi RhythmSpring,

Thanks for the interesting and detailed write-up. I think it's great that, even though this is essentially an Iboga forum, we can discuss other entheogens as well.

I too heard lots of horror stories about smoked Salvia and always thought it would be something I would steer well clear of.  However, I have heard that it is much better to quid or make a tea with so I would like to try it in future.
It would be great if you could recommend a provider (by PM if necessary).

Also, how long after or before Ayahuasca would you need to wait before using Salvia?  I'm looking to find deeper insights and changing certain behaviour patterns.

Many thanks :)

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General Discussion / Re: Iboga and weight loss
« on: May 13, 2015, 06:26:24 AM »
Thank you for all the replies :)

RhythmSpring, the reason why I'm uncomfortable is that I was already slim but looked good when I was toned and fit.  But people who see me after a few months will always comment on my weight loss.  They ask me if I'm stressed or sick!  Also I have felt weak at times.  There was also an "amphetamine effect" in the sense that I would go to the toilet a lot and this also contributed to the weight loss. You are right about integration. I could microdose forever but if I don't attempt to apply the lessons or address the problems, then it's almost pointless.

Poonja, I have thought the same thing about becoming dependant on or addicted to Iboga and I think it is great that you have pointed it out again as I think I was trying to ignore this fact!  I am looking for a gym in my area and will join soon.  I remember in the past getting a really good feeling when I exercised while microdosing, but I have been to busy lately to do that.

yohimb223, "Different seasons, different life situations, different microdose."  Definitely this!  I was just taking it every day and enjoying the "buzz" and using it as a crutch to get me through the day in the end, instead of tailoring it to my needs during different periods.  It became like a course of anti-depressants where you just pop a pill every day without even thinking about it.

Yes, lalababa, Iboga is endangered and is something we should not forget, even if I have only been using tiny amounts.  I have used 5htp in the past with decent results and while it does not compare with Iboga, it is definitely an option for me to call upon.  "A year, I feel is far too long."  It IS far too long and I got carried away.  You use the word "abuse" and sadly I think that is what I have been doing.

In summary, I have not microdosed for 3 days now and I am looking to join a gym.  My wife and child are going away for a month so it is the perfect time for reflection and to try and address all the issues that Iboga has brought to the surface over the past few months.  I am going to use exercise and herbal remedies to deal with the anxiety issues.

 I think things like anger, regret, sadness, loneliness and feeling that I don't belong or fit in anywhere and feeling stuck are just some of the things that I can start with.  I have also always felt that I don't know who I am or what it is that will make me happy.  This is the hardest part because if I knew what would make me happy then I would know what to aim for.  I have also been afraid that I am incapable of feeling happiness.  I know that instead of constantly microdosing, I need to do a flood and perhaps this will give me the answers I am looking for.

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General Discussion / Iboga and weight loss
« on: May 09, 2015, 07:35:04 AM »
Hi everyone

I've microdosed on and off for the past year or so and I've lost about 5-6 kilos which is a lot for me as I'm already slim.  I take Iboga for anxiety and depression instead of anti-depressants and it's really helped me a lot.  Is anyone else affected by weight loss though and is there a way around this?
Is there anything else I could take that would help me to deal with anxiety and depression that doesn't affect me so much physically?
To be honest, I think I've become quite dependant on Iboga and if I don't take it for a few days then my anxiety returns.  I also want to do Aya ceremonies but would like to stop taking Iboga for at least a month before which seems quite difficult for me to do.

I want to see if I can start lifting weights at gym soon to see if I can put on more muscle even while I am microdosing.  I will let you know if it works :)

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General Discussion / Re: microdosing iboga before aya ceremony ok?
« on: May 09, 2015, 07:24:23 AM »
I had been microdosing (tiny amounts) for a few months before an Ayahuasca ceremony and although I stopped for almost a week before the Aya ceremony, I didn't get any visions. It could be for a different reason but I just wondered if the build up of those few months affected my Aya journey.
Some people say that the visions don't mean much but for me they do as I'm a visual learner and it's a big part of the journey for me personally.
From a safety point of view, I never had any problems though.

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I don't underestimate the skill involved at all and I have no doubt that there are some very skillful people out there running legitimate centres or Bwiti shamans (if you are lucky enough to know how to contact one).  If you read my post again, you will see that I wrote that people should do the research and that the sitter should be someone they trust not some cowboys in another country with a fancy website. If I was going to die in such a situation, then I would rather it be with someone who cared about me and not a bunch of people trying to make a quick buck and then cover it up when things went wrong.  That's me voicing my opinion on it and there will be others who have different opinions which they are entitled to. It's all hypothetical though and I did say that hindsight is a wonderful thing.


Sorry, you are misunderstanding my comment.  You wrote: " I always wonder why they didn't just find a sitter they trusted and do it themselves"  It's the "just" I was commenting on.  The "just" stuck out for me because in my view there is no "just" about that -- it is the key and the hardest part.

They did "find a sitter they trusted and do it themselves" as best as they knew at the time.


I think that if we take the word "just" too literally, then I can understand where my post may have been taken in the wrong sense.  It was just( ;D) my manner of speaking and in no way meant to trivialise the act of finding the right sitter.  I know from personal experience how hard it is.  I hope we don't have to get into a debate about semantics as I can see where you are coming from and hopefully I have made my position a bit clearer.
Sometimes it's hard to express your exact feelings over the internet :)

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When I read stories like this, I always wonder why they didn't just find a sitter they trusted and do it themselves.

I get the impression, maybe wrongly, you tell me, that you underestimate the skill involved in being a sitter.  You say 'find a sitter' as if it was much simpler and more straightforward than finding a 'center.'  BUt in my view they are kind of the same thing.  Sitters can vary wildly in understanding and deeply affect the outcome.  Finding a sitter, the right one, is pretty much 'it.'  Those 2 assholes were sitters, just very bad ones.

I don't underestimate the skill involved at all and I have no doubt that there are some very skillful people out there running legitimate centres or Bwiti shamans (if you are lucky enough to know how to contact one).  If you read my post again, you will see that I wrote that people should do the research and that the sitter should be someone they trust not some cowboys in another country with a fancy website. If I was going to die in such a situation, then I would rather it be with someone who cared about me and not a bunch of people trying to make a quick buck and then cover it up when things went wrong.  That's me voicing my opinion on it and there will be others who have different opinions which they are entitled to. It's all hypothetical though and I did say that hindsight is a wonderful thing. 

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When I read stories like this, I always wonder why they didn't just find a sitter they trusted and do it themselves.  Do the research and rent a bungalow or hotel room for a few days at a fraction of the cost of going to one of these mickey mouse "centres."
 
 Anyway, it's easy to say this in hindsight and my condolences go out to Brodie's friends and family.  I look forward to the day when I finally flood and have a lot of hope invested in Iboga.  I can imagine that Brodie and his girlfriend must have held the same hopes and it's a real tragedy that it ended the way it did :(

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General Discussion / Re: Postal strikes in SA/Iboga World delays
« on: October 19, 2014, 08:08:40 AM »
I panicked a bit because IW informed me that there would be delays and because I couldn't track my package, even up to the day it arrived.  In the end, it took 1 month and 1 day to arrive which is not that bad.  So hopefully you guys will receive your packages in a similar period.  In the past, I have received my orders from IWorld within 1-3 weeks (regular service).  I was informed a week or so  ago by IWorld that there is movement but that it is slow and a little bit at a time...so don't despair.

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General Discussion / Re: Postal strikes in SA/Iboga World delays
« on: October 17, 2014, 11:34:47 AM »
My package came in the post today :)  I tried to track it this morning with the registration number (no record of it).  I kept checking online for updates on the strike and it kept saying "ongoing."  Today it even said, "SA Post Office on brink of collapse"  so I am mightily relieved to get the parcel :D  especially as I am moving house in 2 weeks and didn't want it going to the old address.

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General Discussion / Re: Postal strikes in SA/Iboga World delays
« on: October 04, 2014, 06:36:43 AM »
Good for you Holybark :)  I still can't track my parcel as of this morning so it hasn't left Africa yet.  It's been 3 weeks now...hopefully there will be some movement next week.

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General Discussion / Re: Postal strikes in SA/Iboga World delays
« on: September 29, 2014, 10:49:32 AM »
Thanks for replying.  Hopefully it will be resolved soon.  I'll update if there are any new developments.

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