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I have wondered that myself. I think a lot of people joined various Facebook groups as they are on FB a lot of the time anyway so they get one stop shopping as it were. I feel like when lalababa left it created a void and from what I can see, Cal has only posted once in the last 20 months - those two were very key members of this forum.

Kudos to you for all the input you've given - I think you've basically been "the voice of experience" for the last couple of years.

I used to be very active but have stopped using Iboga and am not sure if I'll take it again. I don't have anything like the sort of experience you have so I'm not sure I'd be much help to anyone. My focus now is Huachuma (San Pedro cactus) which is a lot cheaper, easier to get and a heck of a lot safer!!! I have had some amazing ceremonies with San Pedro and highly recommend it.

I also felt guilty taking something that was in danger of becoming extinct and I was frustrated that so many addicts were, in my opinion, abusing it.

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for sure - aya is in plentiful supply whereas iboga is not.

I think where you are going "wrong" is you're doing what 99% of the population does - approaching something spiritual with your head instead of your heart.

If you get out of your analytical mind and get out of your own way, the right thing to do will be apparent.

Welcome Paradoxical!

I'm sorry, I don't have time to give write as much as I'd like so I hope what I can will do for now.

I'm curious what other places you have researched to do your flood. I really really wouldn't go there given some of your concerns about this not working for you. There are many other good places.

I'm able to pay for Iboga House, but honestly don't even feel like I'm worth it.

The voice you should listen to is the one guiding you towards Iboga, not the one that is telling you that you are not worth it. You are, so this voice is a liar and a coward.

I feel as if it will be best for me to go into this experience with as few expectations as possible, clear intentions, and an attitude of complete surrender.  Yet I'm having a hard time shaking expectations.  I feel as if this is my last shot at being able to figure out this life.  My mind has been a terrible place to live.  I have ups and down.  The downs are much more frequent and unbearable.  I live in a constant stream of negative self talk, conscious and unconscious.  And I can't shake this or figure out how to reprogram it even when I'm doing good.  Good for me is pale in comparison of any normal human being.  I worry that if given a chance to leave the mortal shell, I would choose to go.  I wouldn't call myself suicidal per se, but I've been so tired and felt so hopeless for so long that I've openly welcomed the thought of being reunited with source for quite some time.  I truly worry about all the karmic debts I've accumulated this lifetime.

It's natural to have expectations particularly with your history. Simply acknowledge that you have those expectations but try not to hold onto them tightly. Remind yourself of your true intentions. Iboga is not going to care - the important thing is to be honest with yourself.

Take care!

300mg is as good a place to start as any. Pay close attention to whatever effects you experience as it does stack up.

I've never heard of concentrated RB. RB is RB with whatever concentration of iboga alkaloids happens to be present and there is considerable variability in the quality of RB out there. It really does vary from batch to batch even from the same supplier. It's only when you've done an extraction that it can be referred to as concentrated, like TA.

Don't think of it as only working in your sleep, you may have more intense dreams (particularly after a few days of micro dosing) but don't be surprised if you notice something happening in your waking life. Watch how you respond to yourself, other people and different situations. Ask iboga questions. This is harder to do in your sleep.

This is such a great thread! Important info being shared here.

I would also give a big thumbs up to doing cactus work. I would love to do a series of cactus ceremonies and then microdose iboga.

It feels kind of weird going so in depth about cactus on an Iboga forum, but........ that's what's happening. : )

That's what I love about these plants though - the synchronicities that occur. I heard about iboga at an aya retreat and the very thought of taking it scared the shit out of me and now I have such an appreciation of what it has taught me. If I hadn't been drawn to take aya, I would never have taken iboga or San Pedro for that matter.

Please, please, please take the time to find a sitter. You live in a country where iboga is not a controlled substance. Contact a clinic there and ask them for leads for sitters.

If you read through the iboga experiences forum, you'll find that a lot of people end up saying something along the lines of "I'll never do this again" even with a sitter present. While desperation may cause you to think that the experience can't be worse than how you currently feel, do not listen to that voice - it is not you. The real you is the one searching for the answer.

Take good care.

very cool lightswitchedon!

Care to elaborate what inspired this?