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Compost Pile / Forum activity at an all time low?
« on: January 04, 2014, 02:41:47 PM »
I've been noticing this with this forum and with other ones like this.  I don't post on DMT-Nexus, but I quickly checked and can't tell if there more posting activity as I just lurk there once in a while.  Although I read a message of a bunch of new subscribers coming.

My guess is that these days we have lots more lurkers (people who read but don't post).  Even in the non-health related forums such as music forums that I frequent I see forum activity at a low.

I'm not so interested in taking these substances anymore, but more into the awareness of media reports as this article has been posted on ibogaine

My Interview With The World’s Youngest Ibogaine Provider
DEC. 26, 2013
By KRISTY ANN MUNIZ   
http://thoughtcatalog.com/kristy-ann-muniz/2013/12/my-interview-with-the-worlds-youngest-ibogaine-provider/

is a viral posting as I've seen it posted by people on Facebook that normally wouldn't seem interested in such a topic.  Which shows....



Source: Viral News Chart

And on Ayahuasca, if you search it on Google you will hit Taylor Marie's video on the front page which I posted a thread on her ibogaine experience and links.

So apparently there seems to be more interest but less discussion, meaning we could be having an influx of lurkers out there.

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Taylor Marie is a young girl living in the UK that puts out an excellent video log on her experiences with plant medicines.  Her popularity has led her to do a lot of activism and general education, so she has my high regards. 

http://www.youtube.com/user/bombshellspacefriend

Recently she experienced ibogaine (with an extract) done with her boyfriend with a guidance of a provider.  She describes her vivid experiences of being taken straight to Africa, seeing marvelous landscapes, and going through intense purging.  She reports her boyfriend who was a heavy cigarette smoker of many years quitting during his ceremony something he didn't intend to do.

So she's on her way to Peru to start up a retreat and is soliciting funds for her endeavors and already has two retreat centers to work with there.  She want to do iboga / ayahuasca ceremonies and looks like she has support of other healers down there.  Anyways I compiled my favorite videos from her channel.  Enjoy. :)

Ibogaine Trip Report & 1st Lucid Dreaming Experience (Oct 11, 2013)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q28dVOZelrw

Ayahuasca: 1st Life-Changing Experience Explained (Jun 3, 2012)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vxdm4WBAgg4

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CAUTION:

~ Trees of the Evil Eagle ~

Floripondio ~Borrachero ~ Toé ~ Tree Datura ~ Angel Trumpet
Brugmansia sp.
Family Solanaceae

Brugmansia (Datura) suaveolens, B. candida, B. aurea, B. insignis, B. sanguinea, B. arborea, B. dolichocarpa, B. vulcanicola and other cultivated varieties.

All living forms of Brugmansia are considered to be cultivars or mutated clones indicating its great antiquity in human knowledge and use. Brugmansia is not known from the wild.

Common Names in Perú
Toé; Floripondio; Misha; Maricahua; Campana; Borachero; Toa; Maikoa (Jivaro); Chuchupanda (Amahuaca); Aiipa (Amarakaeri); Haiiapa (Huachipaeri); Saaro (Machiquenga); Gayapa y Kanachijero (Piro-Yine); Kanachiari (Shipibo-Conibo).

In the Amazon, Brugmansia is used in magical practices for visionary journeys, shape-shifting, divination, clairvoyance, love magic, aphrodisiac, amulets, and incense. Scopolamine is responsible for the visionary effects and is the alkaloid occurring in highest concentration. The use of Toé for magical purposes is the province of master curanderos (healers) and brujos (witches). Curanderos respect it as very powerful plant and use it cautiously and sparingly.  On the other hand, Brujos, individuals engaged in the practice of black magic, may use Toé frequently with little discrimination or integrity in its applications.

http://www.biopark.org/peru/toe.html

Toe´/Brugmansia/Datura/Scopolamine - My Experience With A Strong Deliriant (Dec 12, 2012)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SdqNUJZ8GbQ

Toé Story - Describing My Experience With Toé/Brugmansia/Datura/Scopolamine (Jan 10, 2013)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dmNnhvnUI3Q

Ayahuasca Ceremony on December 21, 2012!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eypmiBE2rYg

6 Nights Of Tobacco: A Physical, Psychological & Spiritual Detox (Mar 31, 2013)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zlhQqxaylE

So you want to go to Peru to drink Ayahuasca... (Aug 20, 2013)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0hrwl9z9smw

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The Muse / Life can be short
« on: October 03, 2013, 01:44:08 AM »
I don't know where to post this, but I'll do it here in memory of JackTripper who left us so suddenly.  I never met him or corresponded with him, I didn't even know he was a moderator or how he became one.  Anyways this will be my journal and it's not eboka related, maybe some of it is. 

I'm cutting this short because I'm not in the mood to write a long piece about myself.  I keep on deleting and revising what I wrote, but basically I have no friends outside of this message forum.  If I were to die, nobody here would probably know.  I am seeking another doctor that is more on the cutting edge of what I'm going through.   Don't want to disclose this problem yet.

So when I'm in the mood to write, I'll update here.

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Compost Pile / Getting off focus of thread
« on: September 20, 2013, 04:19:30 PM »
[purged comment]

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General Discussion / 2nd kambo preparation
« on: July 29, 2012, 06:12:56 AM »
Hi all,

It's been a difficult month for me dealing with a lot of depression, feelings of anxiety/hopelessness over 2012 and the current state of world events, dealing with my ill father, the alcholic doctor that has been supporting me financially but now cut me off and am living with him getting room/board, so out of desperation last week not knowing what kind of job to look for so I walked in and met a business owner who gave me manual work jobs and tipped me off to a moving job (furniture/boxes) which I will start in 3 weeks.  This weekend I've did a rue/mimosa/chaliponga ceremony and processed a lot of general faults, being a dick overall, screwups that's been flashing all weekend, so I'd like to apologize to certain people Johnny B Goode, KIAP...and Cal thanks for reaching out to me, I got a big thank you message for you.  A lot of you have shared selfessly and given back your time/knowledge to this community.

Recently my friend who I shall refer to as TripforLove (TPL) in a vision quest due to dehydration ( has passed away, we used to do ceremonies together so that last two, our host has laid out cups for for him.  He helped me adminster kambo which he videotaped.  I did 4 dots on my left arm and he did 2 big dots using a lot of my medicine.  I fasted 3 days/ did ceremony/ 4 dots and only felt warm energy from feet to heart...so this time I'm going to do another 4 dots and wait and maybe do more dots to really feel the kambo medicine.  I'll be eating normally today, maybe light for tonight and taking it Monday morning as a DIY treatment, so if anyone feels called to do a little phone support PM me.

thanks,
skinny

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General Discussion / Mixing ayahuasca with iboga can be hazardous
« on: January 20, 2012, 04:36:39 PM »
WARNING:  Mixing ayahuasca with iboga can be hazardous to your health, but y'all probably already knew that.  Posted on ISC.

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Dear people of the Sacred Plants,

With this last newsletter of 2011 I want to inform you about some good things and about some bad things as well. At the moment I am in Africa and enjoying very much the peace, the nature, the sun and the easy way of living.

Fortunately I am on line every day and so I am still in contact with a lot of people. I recently have received the happy news that Peter Aziz will be released out of prison on the 28th of this month. So he will be united with his family and he shall start with his workshops and trainings again (of course without ayahuasca). He has already made a program for the coming months, but all his classes will be in England. Unfortunately I can not invite him to come to the Netherlands, since he is not allowed to travel till the end of the court case.

I will start with ceremonies around April 2012. Nanki Nantipia, a shaman from Ecuador is coming in April for ayahuasca-ceremonies and in May is coming Santiago Andrade, my favorite san pedro shaman. He likes to come for a couple of Red Path ceremonies in the tipi. I am also in contact with Javier Arevalo from the Shahanua tribe from Peru to visit us somewhere in Summer time.

And now, here comes the bad news. I am very shocked by the news, that a good friend of mine, a lady that is already many years on the shamanic path became totally psychotic after a week of ayahuasca and iboga. I can tell you that this lady was completely normal. She is married, she has a son, she was a very good healer and she had her own healing practice. She also organizes many shamanic courses and trainings with a lot of success. She has been drinking medicine many, many times in my ceremonies and she has been to Peru as well. She was in one word very experienced.

But she made this terrible mistake to do a week of ayahuasca and iboga with somebody who was not a qualified shaman. Besides that I also heard that ayahuasca and iboga should never be taken short after each other. Anyway, she is in such a bad condition that she has been taken into a mental hospital and it looks like she has to stay there for quite a long time. She is deeply psychotic.

I am telling you this, because this is not the only case that I know of. On my website: www.ayahuasca-ceremonies.org I warn thoroughly for this danger and I receive a lot of reactions from people that need help after a ceremony with an unqualified shaman.They are out of balance, they feel possessed by something bad, some are psychotic like my friend, it is all terrible what I hear. And than they ask me for help and the only thing I can do is send them to Santo Daime Church or to a very good shaman like Miguel Chiriap or Peter Aziz who can take the demonic energies out of them and restore the balance.

There are many therapists and healers that seem to think that they can use ayahuasca and iboga in a psychotherapeutic way and I can tell you no, that is not the way. These medicine plants come out of shamanic traditions and should be used in this way. These self made shamans have usually no idea from the spiritual realms and from the negative demonic energies that they have to deal with. It often goes wrong, maybe not in the first time but in the longer term. And many times these therapists have no idea what damage they cause.



Please take my advice, only drink medicine with a well trained shaman who has the protection from his tradition, who knows the songs, the prayers, who has the help of his ancestor spirits. And if this shaman is not available, than simply don’t do it. I want to take Iboga already for a long time, but I only want to it with a well trained Iboga shaman from the Bwiti in Gabon. And I have never met such a shaman till now, so I don’t do it. I know the dangers to well, so I am not going to take it such a powerful brew without proper guidance.

The only way to experience the healing powers of these plants is with a well trained shaman from an original tradition or with Santo daime church. Here in Gambia I do many small Santo Daime ceremonies for myself and my friends and they are absolutely wonderful, full of healing and light, with total guidance from my angels. I have an enormous respect for this tradition as well.

Unfortunately more bad news has come to me when I heard that Almasta, the spiritual leader of Friends of the Forest, who has been serving medicine for a long time, has had a terrible motor accident and died on the 13th of December after having been in coma for three weeks. I want to send my prayers for him and his family.

For me, it is clear that we are going through a very intense time and that specially people who are serving the Light and are trying to raise the human consciousness can be seriously attacked by the Dark Forces. The battle between Light and Dark is on its heights now and we are not on the winning side yet.

So my message for you for 2012 is;

Please take care of yourself. Don’t take too many risks, the energies are very intense right now, take time to relax, meditate and pray. Further, do not underestimate the power of prayer, it can be stronger than any medicine-ceremony.

Therefore as a Christmas present I send you all the prayers that I have received from Isabel Barse, from Santo Daime Church in Mapia, Brasil. These are channeled prayers with the help of the Santo Daime. There are different prayers for the Archangels, for Ascended Masters, Jesus Christ, the Light etc. They are very powerful and they can give you a lot of healing. Just choose a few that you feel really attached to and do them regularly to keep you in contact with these Higher Forces. They can help you moving during these intense shifts. .

Here under you will find some prayers. You will find more in the attachment.

With this I wish you many beautiful blessings for your ascension in 2012,

Much love from H.

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skinny

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Diet & Recipes / Traditional Ayahuaca healing
« on: July 22, 2011, 03:59:14 AM »
New bonds of friendship will be formed through shared shamanic experiences, challenges, insights, healing, joy and celebration of life. Some of these friendships may well last a lifetime. Work with Ayahuasca, the great holistic medicine of the Amazon, may be challenging and provocative in many ways. Ayahuasca is, for most people, a deeply penetrating and sometimes cathartic holistic workout, opening you on all levels for healing, renewal, and new dimensions in your life.
 
You will likely encounter some challenging moments in your work with Ayahuasca. Most everyone does. At some point you may ask yourself why you ever took on such a difficult therapeutic process. Your intention will be the answer. Those thoughts will pass, and you'll stay the course to realize blessings of deep enduring healing and transformation that will unfold in your life for a long time to come.
 
An important aspect of the shamanic path is to keep things moving in your life. The Ayahuasca ceremonial experience is somewhat like a microcosm of the human life experience, with each encounter revealing different aspects of ourselves and our relationships with all beings, mother earth, the universal spirit... and ourselves.
 
Bring a positive and cheerful attitude. Positivity has great power. Insecurity, fear and negativity can be an obstacle and they are not needed here. Bring a serious intention for your life and for this work, but don't be heavy or grim about it. Bring an attitude of joy and confidence that you can and will attain everything you seek through this work. If that is truly your intention and commitment then you will.
 
Don't dwell on pre-conceived expectations, whatever they may be. Ayahuasca experiences rarely conform to one's "expectation" and even less to one's demands. Remember above all else that Ayahuasca is a powerful and multifaceted HOLISTIC MEDICINE. It is not a drug. Every experience with Ayahuasca is uniquely and deeply personal and distinctive in many aspects. Your experiences will not be "like" those of anyone else, although there may be shared aspects. The greatest similarity will be in the positive RESULTS rather than the content of the intensive experiences. It is very important not to let what you've read or heard about the experiences of others color or influence your expectations or instill unnecessary anxiety.
 
VISIONS
Although visions are the most widely discussed aspect of the Ayahuasca experience, they actually are not the greatest gift of the medicine or the most important aspect of your work. Visions are a medium of spiritual and metaphysical communication. True visions are NOT hallucinations because they have deeper metaphoric or literal meaning and are not illusory. Ayahuasca does not automatically induce visions in every individual at the same time or pace. They are a visual means by which a mystical consciousness greater than our own communicates with us beyond the ordinary limitations of the intellect. Ayahuasca is a holistic medicine which communicates far more through the opening of the heart than through the mind.
 
Some of you may have powerful, vivid and dramatic experiences right away, although the amplitude, content, and intensity will certainly vary from ceremony to ceremony. Others of you may have less intensive visionary experiences or none at all. If this is the case be patient and don't jump to premature conclusions about anything. This is simply the nature of Ayahuasca and reflects it's unique interaction with each individual's personality, biochemistry, and collective life experience. This is an aspect of Ayahuasca that is difficult to explain, but is rooted in it's unique ability to penetrate the psyche and soul of each person in the manner most appropriate for their needs. Ayahuasca is not a drug, and it does not induce... it reveals. The more one is able to set aside western paradigm and conventional "logic", and fully surrender the control mandate to a higher power, the sooner one realizes a deep and powerful connection with the Great Consciousness of which we are all a part.
 
INTENTION
Serious work with Ayahuasca begins with the formulation and cultivation of a sincere personal intention. Ideally one's intention should be far-reaching and results-oriented rather than merely experience-centered and goal-oriented. Experience is a means to an end, and so is Ayahuasca. The enduring blessings one brings into their lives through this work can indeed change one's life forever for the better.
 
That is certainly our earnest desire for each of you. Deep lasting holistic healing and personal spiritual realization happens in many different ways, and these are the greatest gifts of Ayahuasca. Ayahuasca is for many the gift that keeps on giving, and I trust that you all will realize this as well.
So, bring your best to this work ... your integrity, your commitment, a bit of courage, a dash of faith, and most importantly ... love and compassion for yourself and others. Universal love is the foundation of core shamanic principle and practice at it's highest levels. If you do this, then you'll realize blessings of deep holistic cleansing, healing, transformation and empowerment in the most personal of ways ... remarkably exactly what you need.
 
THE PURGE
Purging may occur physically through vomiting, mentally and emotionally through confrontation and catharsis, and spiritually through deep personal realization. Physical purging may be vigorous or it may not occur at all. Don't fear it ... go with it ... it's one of the reasons you are coming to this work. So let go of everything you don't need anymore, lighten your load, and prepare to move forward in your life with strength and vigor. It's easier than you think, and once cleansed you'll have a new sense of baseline normalcy in your life. Some of you may purge strongly and others little or not at all. When the cleansing is done it subsides. Ayahuasca is not an emetic. It doesn't automatically induce vomiting. The degree and extent to which one physically purges is usually a reflection of the personal detoxification or emotional catharsis needed to initiate healing in the individual. It is a holistic cleansing, and as one is cleansed, the purging usually subsides in later ceremonies. Understanding the nature of the "purge" to be a cleansing process and not "sickness" is helpful in moving through it gracefully and smoothly. And you'll feel great afterwards!
 
You will engage the medicines and shamanic spiritual consciousness on many levels... through the intellect, through the senses, through transpersonal communication ... but most of all ... through the Heart and Soul. You'll explore what is known and you'll explore what isn't. You will engage the Great Mystery. You'll move beyond the limitations of modern science and western intellectual rationalism to enter a sacred supernatural reality known by the ancients since before recorded human history. You will gain an understanding of the reality of universal core shamanism and it's potential applications in your own life. We invite you to open your heart and mind to spiritual reality beyond ordinary life experience, yet intrinsically interwoven with it.
 
The potential rewards are deep and lasting healing, spiritual self-realization, ecstatic joy, and unconditional universal love. The Ayahuasca Odyssey is in many ways an archaic revival of timeless shamanic spiritual consciousness so desperately needed in this day and time. You'll realize anew that what you seek and need the most has been with you all along and will be with you forever.
 
As you realize deep cleansing and healing, you will reaffirm your harmonious relationship with nature, Spirit, all creation, fellow humans ... and with yourself.
 
THE DIET
Observing the traditional vegetalista diet, we recommend you greatly reduce or abstain alcohol, pork, red meat, salt, refined sugar, fats, saturated oils, and hot spices from two days before the Ayahuasca ceremony, and a day afterwards. Though posing no special risks (except possibly alcohol), these additives may inhibit your uptake and receptivity to the Ayahuasca medicine to some degree. Reduction or abstinence of these substances has the benefit of cleansing and purifying the system, and will hasten and strengthen your connection with the medicine. Sexual activity and thoughts should be abstained during this time as well. Sexual abstinence conserves essential energy which is better invested in the rigors of your work with Ayahuasca, and will help guide your mental and spiritual focus in more esoteric realms. You may find your natural libido enhanced along with all your other functions following your work with Ayahuasca.
 
Longer periods of dieting may yield additional benefits but the choice is yours. Alcohol and pork should be avoided for a week before and after work with Ayahuasca. They are the only substances one need abstain for more than a few days before and after the ceremonies.
 
Ayahuasca is physically, emotionally, and energetically demanding. Mental, emotional, spiritual and physical stamina is needed to complete a cycle of work.
A more liberal healing diet consists of grilled fish, vegetable or chicken soup, rice or quinoa, boiled, browned, or mashed potatoes, yuca (cassava), heart of palm (chonta), eggs, and a variety of vegetables and fruits raw, boiled, or lightly stir-fried. Light seasoning is optional in the liberal diet.
 
We recommend that coffee not be consumed the day of ceremony or the morning after. Caffeine is not the issue, since some widely-used Ayahuasca admixture plants, such as guayusa, contain high amounts of caffeine. Mild reactions from drinking coffee have been noted in a few people, so it's best to avoid it within twelve hours of taking Ayahuasca. Teas containing caffeine and the Brazilian plant stimulant guarana do not produce any adverse effects that we've noted. Honey may be used as sweetener if desired.
 
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See also: All About Aya ? (via ms_manic_minxx)


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Announcements, News & Events / Entheogen news roundup...
« on: April 06, 2011, 12:08:30 PM »
Just dumping a bunch of links, feel free to repost memes at appropriate channels...

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The Effects of Psychoactive Cactus Juice - By Chris Kilham
Published April 06, 2011
http://www.foxnews.com/health/2011/04/06/health-benefits-psychoactive-cactus-juice/

John Stossel - Medical Marijuana
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BC2-DuMzoQ

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Montel Williams and John Stossel discuss the medical efficacy of marijuana and the stance of the DEA.
"The U.S. Government owns the patent for Marijuana" ~ Montel Williams (@3:00) U.S. Patent #6630507- Cannabinoids as Antioxidants and Neuroprotectants
(via The Psychedelic Apocalypse)

Health Benefits of Cactus
http://video.foxnews.com/v/4627926/health-benefits-of-cactus?playlist_id=86906

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The Medicine Hunter and Dr. Manny visit Toloache in New York City to find out how eating a prickly plant can boost your health and wellness

Heroin vs. Häagen-Dazs: What Food Addiction Looks Like in the Brain
http://healthland.time.com/2011/04/04/heroin-vs-haagen-dazs-what-food-addiction-looks-like-in-the-brain/

Psychedelic Healing: The Promise of Entheogens for Psychotherapy and Spiritual Development [Paperback]
Neal M. Goldsmith Ph.D.
http://www.amazon.com/Psychedelic-Healing-Entheogens-Psychotherapy-Development/dp/1594772509

The Exile Nation Project
http://exilenation.org/


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A film by Charles Shaw
The Land of the Free punishes or imprisons more of its citizens than any other country. This collection of testimonials from criminal offenders, family members, and experts on America's criminal justice system puts a human face on the millions of Americans subjugated by the US Government's 40 year, one trillion dollar social catastrophe: The War on Drugs; a failed policy underscored by fear, politics, racial prejudice and intolerance in a public atmosphere of "out of sight, out of mind."

Boost Your Sexual Mojo With Amazon Herbs - By Chris Kilham
Published March 29, 2011
http://www.foxnews.com/health/2011/03/28/boost-sexual-mojo-amazon-herbs/

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"...use of catuaba and muirapuama together to increase libido and improve sexual function...barks of two trees, catuaba Erthyroxylum catuaba and muirapuama Ptychopetalum olacoides. Both have been widely used by natives and non-natives for centuries, to increase libido and improve sexual potency...
In addition to the natural lift imparted by guarana–fortified shakes, many customers who frequent guarana stands also seek sexual stimulation. Every stand offers an herbal “super sex drink"

Paul Stamets on “What would you do to help heal the Japanese landscape around the failing nuclear reactors?”
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The Nuclear Forest Recovery Zone
 
Myco-remediation of the Japanese Landscape After Radioactive Fallout
 
Many people have written me and asked more or less the same question: “What would you do to help heal the Japanese landscape around the failing nuclear reactors?”
 
The enormity and unprecedented nature of this combined natural and human-made disaster will require a massive and completely novel approach to management and remediation. And with this comes a never before seen opportunity for collaboration, research and wisdom.
 
The nuclear fallout will make continued human habitation in close proximity to the reactors untenable. The earthquake and tsunami created enormous debris fields near the nuclear reactors. Since much of this debris is wood, and many fungi useful in mycoremediation are wood decomposers and build the foundation of forest ecosystems, I have the following suggestions:
 
1) Evacuate the region around the reactors.
2) Establish a high-level, diversified remediation team including foresters, mycologists, nuclear and radiation experts, government officials, and citizens.
3) Establish a fenced off Nuclear Forest Recovery Zone.
4) Chip the wood debris from the destroyed buildings and trees and spread throughout areas suffering from high levels of radioactive contamination.
5) Mulch the landscape with the chipped wood debris to a minimum depth of 12-24 inches.
6) Plant native deciduous and conifer trees, along with hyper-accumulating mycorrhizal mushrooms, particularly Gomphidius glutinosus, Craterellus tubaeformis, and Laccaria amethystina (all native to pines). G. glutinosus has been reported to absorb – via the mycelium – and concentrate radioactive Cesium 137 more than 10,000-fold over ambient background levels. Many other mycorrhizal mushroom species also hyper-accumulate.
7) Wait until mushrooms form and then harvest them under Radioactive HAZMAT protocols.
8 ) Continuously remove the mushrooms, which have now concentrated the radioactivity, particularly Cesium 137, to an incinerator. Burning the mushroom will result in radioactive ash. This ash can be further refined and the resulting concentrates vitrified (placed into glass) or stored using other state-of-the-art storage technologies.

http://coalitionforpositivechange.com/stamets-fallout-mycoremediation.pdf

The End of Heroin
http://www.talkingdrugs.org/the-end-of-heroin

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The UNODC has announced that a fungus is killing the Afghan opium crop. Maria Antonio Costas has said that the fungus is infecting about a half of the Afghani  opium crop, an economic disaster for Afghan farmers. The area’s most affected are those were the insurgency against NATO is strongest.

Could Afghan Poppies Be Painkillers for the Poor?
http://www.nytimes.com/2007/10/14/weekinreview/14mcneil.html?_r=1&src=tptw

Banana peel can purify water, say scientists
http://positivetv.tv/news/banana-peel-can-purify-water-say-scientists/

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[MONTEVIDEO] Banana peels can be used to purify drinking water contaminated with toxic heavy metals such as copper and lead, according to a study.

Researchers from the Bioscience Institute at Botucatu, Brazil, said that the skins can outperform even conventional purifiers such as aluminium oxide, cellulose and silica. These have potentially toxic side effects and are expensive.

The team’s method follows previous work that showed that plant parts, such as apple and sugar cane wastes, coconut fibres and peanut shells, can remove toxins from water.

These natural materials contain chemicals that have an affinity for metals.

“I was at home eating bananas when I had the idea: ‘Why not make something with this?’” Gustavo Rocha de Castro, a researcher at the institute and co-author of this study, told SciDev.Net.

De Castro and colleagues dried the peels in the sun for a week, ground them and added them to river water containing known concentrations of copper and lead. They found that the peels absorbed 97 per cent of the metals after just one hour.

Bananas: The Miracle Fruit
http://www.foxnews.com/health/2011/03/16/bananas-miracle-fruit/?cmpid=cmty_fb_Gigya_Bananas%3A_The_Miracle_Fruit

How Bananas and Herbs May Prevent the Transmission of HIV
http://www.foxnews.com/health/2011/01/11/bananas-herbs-prevent-transmission-hiv/

Chemical in Bananas Identified as Potent Inhibitor of HIV Infection
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2010/03/100315091303.htm

Salvia Divinorum Love Bomb - a trip report
http://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=1105

Quinoa’s Global Success Creates Quandary at Home
http://www.nytimes.com/2011/03/20/world/americas/20bolivia.html

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LA PAZ, Bolivia — When NASA scientists were searching decades ago for an ideal food for long-term human space missions, they came across an Andean plant called quinoa. With an exceptional balance of amino acids, quinoa, they declared, is virtually unrivaled in the plant or animal kingdom for its life-sustaining nutrients.
But while Bolivians have lived off it for centuries, quinoa remained little more than a curiosity outside the Andes for years, found in health food shops and studied by researchers — until recently.

Now demand for quinoa (pronounced KEE-no-ah) is soaring in rich countries, as American and European consumers discover the “lost crop” of the Incas. The surge has helped raise farmers’ incomes here in one of the hemisphere’s poorest countries. But there has been a notable trade-off: Fewer Bolivians can now afford it, hastening their embrace of cheaper, processed foods and raising fears of malnutrition in a country that has long struggled with it.

Heroic Doses of LSD, Psilocybin, or DMT
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9v3UDO0kCyo

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Working with a Heroic Dose of LSD, Psilocybin, or DMT. By http://www.NeuroSoup.com

Ron Paul: Hemp for Victory
http://motherjones.com/politics/2011/03/ron-paul-hemp-legalization

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Mother Jones: Hemp is a natural, eco-friendly fiber with a wide range of industrial uses, none of which involve getting high. So why has Congress been treating it like an illegal drug?

Ron Paul: Because they don't have any common sense and they don't know what they are talking about and it's sort of an hysterical reaction to the drug war. If they had any sense at all they would just legalize it like it was for most of our history. So it is rather bizarre.

Medical marijuana for ADD and it's good for kids!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yj72e5q61Fs

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MSNBC's Keith Olbermann interviews a bold and honest physician/pediatrician from the University of Southern California who explains how medical cannabis can be used to treat ADD in children

New! DMT - The Spirit Molecule 1/5
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DIY Backyard Beekeeping: A Guide for Beginners
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The Muse / We are all shamans-in-training by Paul Levy
« on: March 22, 2011, 11:35:12 AM »
WE ARE ALL SHAMANS-IN-TRAINING
by Paul Levy

In 1981 I spontaneously went into such an ecstatic state that I was hospitalized by what I call the “anti-bliss patrol.” The authorities had become alerted because I was simply unable to restrain my enthusiasm at the “good news” that was beginning to reveal itself to me about the nature of reality. Stepping out of my usual way of trying to control my experience, during that next year I was thrown in mental hospitals a number of times and (mis)diagnosed as having manic-depressive (bi-polar) illness. I was told that I had a chemical imbalance and would have to go on medication and learn to live with my “illness” for the rest of my life. Little did the doctors realize that although my experience looked like a typical nervous breakdown, I had actually gotten “drafted” into a deeper psycho-spiritual process of an entirely different order – a spiritual awakening/shamanic initiation - that was blowing my mind as it was simultaneously revealing it.

My inner process had spilled outside of my skull and just like a dream was synchronistically expressing itself through events in the seemingly outer world. Finding myself in a meaning-filled, meaningful, and enchanted universe, the world had become animated by spirit, as if it was a living oracle, a continually unfolding revelation that was speaking symbolically. It became glaringly apparent to me that there was an intimate correlation and synchronistic correspondence between what was going on in the internal landscape of my psyche and the seemingly outer world. The boundary between inner and outer was dissolving.  It was as if something deep inside of me was expressing itself through the medium of the outside world, and was able to extend itself into the outside world and configure events so as to in-form and give shape to itself.

According to consensus reality, I was “certifiable,” and I was in full agreement, in that I had certifiably stepped out of my self-entrancing, self-limiting, and self-binding conceptual, cognitive mind into a much more expansive “space.” As if snapping out of a trance, I found myself not out of my mind, in the sense that I was crazy, but rather, inside of my mind, which was now discovered to be everywhere, in that I was beginning to realize that I was dreaming.

My parents bought into the psychiatrist’s diagnosis that their only child had a mental illness, as in my parents’ world doctors were genuine authority figures who knew what they were talking about. In the words of the late psychiatrist R. D. Laing, “Attempts to wake before our time are often punished, especially by those who love us most. Because they, bless them, are asleep. They think anyone who wakes up, or who, still asleep, realizes that what is taken to be real is a ‘dream’ is going crazy.” Tragically, with the support and blessing of the psychiatric community, both of my parents passed away convinced their son was crazy. 

When we begin to spiritually awaken, our personality structure and sense of who we are can melt down and dis-integrate, as our inner “constitution” is being rewritten. This process can convincingly appear to others as if we are having a nervous breakdown or a psychotic break.

Stepping out of my normal, conditioned, repressed and domesticated self as if breaking out of a prison, I felt on the cutting edge of the big bang itself. It was as if I was becoming attuned to and a receptive vehicle for a deeper, more authentic, less self-conscious and much more unfettered, creative and ecstatic part of myself to freely in-form my experience and give shape to itself. My experience was so mind-blowing that I had trouble “keeping it together,” particularly because previous to the hospitalizations I wasn’t in a safe container but was unrestrained, out in a world that did not understand the value of such experiences. My situation was actually quite dangerous, as during the beginning stages of my awakening I was not able to mediate and channel the transpersonal energies that were activated within me in a way that was acceptable to the culture at large.

The dissolution and breakdown of the old structures of the psyche can become a breakthrough, however, depending on how it is contained and related to by the surrounding community and unfolded. The dis-integration can be the beginning of a coming together at a more coherent, and unified level of consciousness.

Our species and its civilization are currently in the throes of a collective (nervous) breakdown. If what we, as a species, are doing to ourselves (destroying the biosphere, the very life-support system of the planet, to use one example) isn’t collective madness, then what in the world is? Our underlying institutionalized and incorporated structures that are helping to keep us asleep are breaking down and coming apart. Just as with an individual’s psyche, only writ large en masse on the world stage, we are going through a collective shamanic initiation process, a genuine “death/rebirth” experience. The false, illusory separate self, which experiences ourselves as alien from one another is “dying” as the fundamental framework by which we relate to each other and the world, as we incarnate and give “birth” to a truer sense of who we are, realizing our deep interconnection and interdependence with each other and all living beings. 

The shamanic personality is very sensitive to the unconscious, both in themselves and in others. The shaman has very permeable boundaries between their conscious mind and the unconscious, as if they’ve created a bridge which allows contents between the two to easily pass through and intermingle with and reciprocally co-inform each other. The shaman’s collaborative, creative interplay between the conscious and unconscious creates a synthesis, which is a “third thing,” a new birth, a further evolution in the incarnation of a more all-embracing, integrated and expansive consciousness.

The figure of the shaman is related to both the figures of the artist (see my article “The Artist as Healer of the World”) and the wounded healer – (see my article “The Wounded Healer,” Part 1 and Part 2). The archetypal figure of the shaman is the primordial medicine person and carrier of healing. The figure of the shaman (arche)typically takes on the illness that is in the community into themselves and literally becomes sick, as if they have “caught” the disease of who they are trying to heal. This process can become animated through the choice of a seasoned shaman, or it can happen spontaneously and unintentionally in a budding shaman who is unusually sensitive to the underlying contradictions and spiritual illness that pervade the social and cultural fabric which connects us and in which we are embedded. A fully cooked shaman, in internalizing the illness in the field, allows the sickness to fluidly move through them without getting stuck in them, which is the mark that distinguishes an accomplished shaman from a novice.

By embracing, assimilating, and metabolizing what has gotten triggered in them, however, the shaman is able to heal themselves and in so doing non-locally sends healing to the whole “community.” In our current moment in time, as interdependent members of an ever-more interconnected global village, our “community” is the entire planet. The shaman is operating in the realm of the collective unconscious, a “no-place” where information travels in “no-time,” faster than the speed of light. There is no part of the universe that is separate from the whole, which is to say that a change in any part of the universe is resonantly registered in no time whatsoever throughout the whole universe. Though the healing effects of the shaman’s process manifests “over time,” the shaman’s self-healing, transcending the seeming limitations of space and time, instantaneously insinuates its in-form-ation and informing influence faster than the twinkling of an eye throughout the entire universe in ways that can only be imagined. 


OUR MENTAL HEALTH SYSTEM IS CRAZY-MAKING

I tried telling the doctors that I wasn’t manic-depressive, but rather was having a shamanic initiation and spiritual awakening (as this couldn’t have been more obvious to me); but this only confirmed their diagnosis in a diabolically self-perpetuating feedback loop. In essence, the more I authentically expressed my experience, the more I was convincing the doctors that I was crazy. It was like I had stepped through the looking glass and found myself in a dimension of existence that was truly bewitched, as if I had entered a domain which felt, qualitatively speaking, under a curse of black magicians. It felt like I had shamanically journeyed into the underworld and wound up in some sort of weird, perverse hell realm where reality was inverted in a way which was get-me-out-of-here crazy. Little did I realize at the time, however, that this was all part of the deeper awakening process through which I was going.

What the psychiatrists were doing was truly maddening. By myopically seeing people’s behavior as being pathological, the psychiatrists literally drew out the pathology in the person, which only further confirmed to them the correctness of their diagnosis in a self-fulfilling prophecy, as if they were both under a spell and casting one at the same time. To again quote Laing, “Anyone in this transitional state is likely to be confused. To indicate that this confusion is a sign of illness, is a quick way to create psychosis. ..A psychiatrist who professes to be a healer of souls, but who keeps people asleep, treats them for waking up and drugs them asleep again…helps to drive them crazy.” To the extent they are projecting their own madness outside of themselves, the psychiatrists are unknowingly complicit in evoking the very madness they are hoping to cure, which is nothing other than an expression of the psychiatrists’ madness. Representative authorities of “the academy,” the doctors’ madness was a reflection of the madness which has become normalized, institutionalized, imprinted, and incorporated throughout our modern world. The doctor’s madness was the personalized signature of our collective madness. 


TRAUMA AS A PATH TO AWAKENING

I tried to explain to the psychiatrists that I WAS sick, however, but just not in the way they were imagining. I had a creative, psychological illness, which is to say that my seeming madness was an expression of my creative self, alchemically transforming an underlying perturbance in the field of consciousness so as to heal itself. I wasn’t manic-depressive; rather, I was “perturbed,” in that my “emotions” were “disturbed” due to being the recipient of over-the-top abuse at the hands of a desperately sick, sociopathic father. I was suffering from a shamanic illness, as I was in trauma from the malevolent, mind-numbing abuse to which he had introduced me. My shock was due to the transmission I had received from my father, who by unwittingly and compulsively acting out his unresolved abuse, connected me as a link in a chain to an unbroken lineage of violence and abuse extending far back in time and throughout space. Like countless other recipients of abuse, I had been directly introduced to the dark side.

Shattered by the experience, it was like I had become broken. Dropping down into the darkness of the unconscious underworld, a part of me had died. Imprinted by the trauma, I would never be the same, as from that moment on the trauma had altered and reconfigured both my psyche and my destiny, simultaneously severing and initiating a connection to a deeper part of myself.

Trauma is a normal, healthy response to an insane and intolerable situation. If we put too much pressure on a bone and the bone breaks, the bone is not pathological. Paradoxically, trauma is a form of madness which is an expression of sanity. “Shock” is our healthy response to experiencing an event that is awe-full. The shamanic archetype becomes catalyzed in us by a severe emotional and spiritual crisis, oftentimes organically growing out of unresolved abuse issues from childhood – this was certainly true for me.

There is an intimate correlation between being traumatized, abused, and wounded, and having a shamanic initiation/spiritual awakening. Trauma is an experience that is overwhelming to the ego, in that it can’t be assimilated by the ego in the typical way. The trauma initiates and catalyzes the deeper process of the archetype of the shaman to begin to form-ulate and crystallize itself in the unconscious of the future shaman. This precipitates a deeper part of the psyche to become mobilized, as the shaman journeys deep inside themselves, flying on the wings of their creative imagination to address and become acquainted with what has gotten activated within them.

The shaman’s descent into the darkness can be agonizing, a veritable crucifixion. Part of the (arche)typical shamanic experience is to become dis-membered, which is a cooking and smelting of psychic contents that have become rigidified, ossified, and have outlived their usefulness. To quote Jung, “The shaman’s experience of sickness, torture, death and regeneration implies, at a higher level, the idea of being made whole through sacrifice, of being changed by transubstantiation and exalted to the pneumatic man – in a word, apotheosis (elevated from an ordinary person to a “God”).” The goal of the shaman’s death and dismemberment experience is to “re-member” themselves, which like true soul retrieval, brings all of their dissociated parts back together into a more integrated synthesis.


TRAUMA ON STEROIDS

An accomplished shaman, which I certainly am not, allows themselves to be “dreamed up” by whatever the situation in the field requires so as to help the field to get back into balance and harmonize. An accomplished shaman has developed a “container,” both within themselves and in the seemingly outer world around them, in which to process what has become animated within them. I certainly hadn’t developed this container when I was committed, as I was a novice, and quite young (in my mid-twenties). By being so out of control and over-the-top enthusiastic (“en theos” means to be filled with spirit) about what was being revealed to me, I had let go of control and was unwittingly expressing and giving shape to the spirit of madness which was non-locally enfolded throughout the greater field of consciousness, which is to say inside of all of us. I had a ways to go, however, to learn how to integrate, contain and more skillfully and artfully express what I was realizing so as to not freak people out so much. 

Because they allow themselves to be dreamed up by the field, an accomplished shaman can embody and incarnate in crystallized form the unconscious madness in the field so that it becomes clarified and brought into consciousness. A shaman can reflect back the madness to the madness itself by taking over the madness and allowing themselves to creatively express it such that it is revealed in a new light. From the point of view of the collective madness in the field, when the would-be shaman acts out the madness that is in the field, the would-be shaman themselves are seen by the collective as being the ones who are mad. This is a potentially dangerous situation when the collective madness controls the levers of power, whether the psychiatric system or our current administration (please see the first chapter in my book, “The Madness of George W. Bush: A Reflection of our Collective Psychosis”).

Being “institutionalized,” I had fallen into a situation where the psychiatric community had power over me. They were in a position to unconsciously enact the “will to power” of the archetypal shadow through their own unconscious, unresolved power issues, with me as one of their guinea pigs. Being unaccomplished in shamanism and very vulnerable, I was eaten alive by the darker forces that I had unwittingly evoked in the psychiatric community. For example, once my lucidity was violently shut down, I began feeling depressed, which was a “normal” thing to feel under such horrible circumstances. My feeling depressed inspired the psychiatrists, however, to solidify their diagnosis of me as manic-depressive, and they then prescribed an anti-depressant to “help” my depression, adding to the anti-psychotic and lithium they already had me on. It was like I had re-created my family-of-origin trauma, only this time on steroids. Enacting a timeless, mythical process, I had gotten swallowed up by the darkness, and my task was to transform the darkness from within the darkness itself.

The experience was so traumatic that after my last hospitalization, in 1982, I couldn’t work for a year and had to go on disability and live with my parents, the original agents of my traumatization. I was living a nightmare. After the “care” of the mental health system, I had become truly “sick.” My illness was like a particularized, acute “break-out” of an underlying, more fundamental systemic illness, which pervaded both my family system as well as the field of consciousness itself. I had become the “identified patient,” the scapegoat who was carrying the family’s, and now the mental health community’s projected, unconscious shadow and madness.

My saving grace was never falling into and “buying” the viewpoint of the doctors that was literally being “sold” to me as it was forced down my throat. It couldn’t have been more obvious from my vantage point inside myself that I was having a spiritual awakening/shamanic initiation; fortunately I never lost sight of this, even during the darkest of times, which allowed me to trust the process through which I was going. 

I was one of the lucky ones, however, as I was able to extricate myself from the stone-age horrors of the mental health (sic) community as soon as I was able. Tragically, many others are not as fortunate, and their potential spiritual awakening/shamanic initiation process becomes aborted as they become bound and captive to the psychiatric establishment. The psychiatric system and the pharmaceutical companies (Big Pharma) are co-dependently intertwined with each other in a genuinely pathological, mutually profitable, and crazy-making relationship. This is not to say that there aren’t many good, well-meaning people who work in the psychiatric system, only to point out that the underlying system has become corrupted. In essence, the sick part of the psychiatric system/Big Pharma is in the business of “making crazies” so as to support its pathology, which is to be guilty of genuine “mal-practice.” To people who have fallen into the black hole and become caught in the double-bind of the psychiatric/Big Pharma “field-of-force,” it is a very dangerous situation, as if an insect had gotten too entangled in a spider’s web to extricate itself. I was lucky to escape with my sanity intact.

Fortunately, soon after getting out of the last hospital I began meeting my spiritual teachers, some of the greatest living Buddhist masters from Tibet and Burma, who, unlike the psychiatrists, helped to evoke the healthy part of me. When I described to them what I was subjectively experiencing, instead of being pathologized, they reflected back to me that I was beginning to remember what in Buddhism is called our “true nature.” In finding my teachers, I had dreamed up the part of me that was seeing and relating to the part of me that WAS awakening. Having someone else bear witness and reflect back the healthy part of me created a bridge that helped me to see it, too. It was as if my teachers became engaged with me in an intimate relationship which helped me to not get stuck in the trauma of it all, to not get caught in being “sick.” By simply relating to the healthy part of me, which was an expression of their own level of health and wholeness, they helped me to step into and incarnate the part of me that was well. My teachers and I had instinctively created a supportive, nourishing container between us which cultivated healing. As if figures in a fairy tale, they had gotten dreamed up to help me learn how to “dis-spell” and transmute the darker forces with which I had been wrestling.


THE PSYCHIATRISTS ARE THE CRAZY PART OF MYSELF

The would-be shaman has to pass through the experience of madness without getting stuck in it. In the experience of madness the shaman descends into the underworld of the unconscious, where they have to come to terms with the darker parts of their being. My confrontation with the psychiatric community was a projection into real time and space of a darker part of me that “pathologizes” myself, as if my inner process was playing itself out in the seemingly outer world. Like “dream characters,” the “pathologizing psychiatrists” were the part of me that I had dreamed up into materialization who judged me and saw me as “sick,” who thought there’s something wrong with me that needed to be fixed.

Seeing the psychiatrists as characters in my dream, which is to say embodied reflections of aspects of myself, is to recognize these animated, living figures existing within myself as aspects of my mind. Recognizing that the psychiatrists were symbolically re-presenting, in full-bodied form the part of me that both pathologizes and is pathological helps me to see my own complicity in my experience with them, and to step out of feeling victimized by the psychiatrists and blaming them. Recognizing the psychiatrists as a part of myself enables me to forgive them, as well as myself.

Not only was the boundary dissolving between inner and outer, and between dreaming and waking, but the boundary was dissolving between self and other. I became aware that in the most deeply fundamental way I did not exist separately, in isolation from the psychiatrists, but rather in co-relation with them. Being each other’s dream characters, we were both reciprocally “dreaming each other up” to pick up and play out roles in each other’s unconscious process. We were interconnected parts of one another, intimately bound together in destiny. We did not exist “apart” from each other, but were “a part” of a greater, unified and unifying being that was becoming revealed through our interplay. 

With the psychiatrists, I had synchronistically dreamed up a novel form of the very essence of the abuse which precipitated my awakening in the first place. Something was being revealed to me, however, through the analogous reiteration of my inner process fractally explicating itself in multiple arenas of my life, be it with my family or the psychiatric community. What was this recurring pattern, like a recurring dream, an expression of inside of me?

The psychiatrists were acting out an unconscious shadow aspect of the human psyche that projects itself outside of itself to avoid relationship with itself. Projecting the shadow is a universal, archetypal dynamic that exists deep within the collective unconscious of humanity. This unconscious shadow dynamic of projecting the shadow is a pattern which is playing out in all of our lives, both inwardly and outwardly in relationship with others, in a multiplicity of guises. To the extent the doctors reflex-ively and non-negotiably refused to self-reflect and insisted on projecting out their shadow was the degree to which they were abusing their position of power and rank simply because they could, which is a morally indefensible act. By projecting the shadow outside of themselves and then being in denial about doing this, the psychiatrists became possessed by the very shadow they were projecting. They then unconsciously and destructively acted out the shadow in a self-reinforcing, crazy-making ritual – a genuine abuse drama - which created “dis-ease” for everyone concerned. 

To the extent that the psychiatrists were not in conscious relationship with their own madness, it was as though they had entranced themselves into thinking that the madness they were projecting outside of themselves was “objectively” true, located in their patients, since in their patients’ illnesses they had all the evidence they needed to prove the correctness of their diagnosis. By projecting the shadow, the psychiatrists were unwittingly creating a self-fulfilling prophecy which perfectly served to hide from them their role in helping to create the very situation they imagined was outside of themselves. The insanity of what the psychiatric system was unconsciously playing out was itself a crystallization of the more fundamental pathology that pervades the underlying field of human consciousness.  Through my interaction with the mental health community, the mental health, or lack thereof, of our human community was revealing itself for all who have eyes to see.

In seeing the deeper, unconscious shadow that was animating the psychiatrist’s behavior, I recognized it as a process I know all too well. Seeing it out there as embodied by the psychiatrists helped me to see by reflection this same abusive behavior of projecting my own shadow outside of myself in myself. If this is a dream, I was dreaming up the psychiatrists to play out this unconscious part of me so that I could see and potentially integrate this asleep, crazy-making, abusive, and mad part of myself.


WE ARE NATURAL BORN SHAMANS

The shamanic archetype is one of the major processes that is becoming animated in the collective psyche of our species. We’d have to be truly “disturbed” if our emotions aren’t disturbed by what is playing out currently in our world. And yet, the darkness is a “disturber of the peace” in order to (potentially) create a higher-order integration of the psyche and its contents. Just as dreams are the unconscious’ way of balancing a one-sidedness in an individual’s psyche, the shamanic archetype is the dynamically evolving pattern of healing that is being constellated in the collective unconscious as a compensatory response to the trauma that is playing itself out on the world stage.

We are truly a species in trauma. Traumatized, we traumatize each other as we re-traumatize ourselves, collaboratively re-enacting the repetition compulsion of the traumatized soul on the world stage. Seized by something greater than ourselves, we are possessed by our compulsion to re-create our trauma, as we perform a holy liturgy en masse, structuring and ritualizing our experience as a way of potentially transforming it. And just like trauma, where the re-solution is hidden in encoded form in the very pathology, we are collectively re-creating our trauma in the world theater as if we are participating in a sacred mass in the holiest of temples, so as to potentially awaken ourselves. The madness of trauma is its own revelation, and how it manifests depends upon whether or not we recognize what is being revealed to us through what we are compulsively and unconsciously acting out as history. 

Having the shamanic archetype activated in the collective unconscious means that we can re-contextualize our problems, our trauma, and our own madness. It’s been very helpful for me as I continually deepen my own healing to remember that my experience of trauma in myself is simultaneously a microcosmic, personalized fractal reflecting the greater trauma resonating throughout the collective field. This realization allows me to not personalize the moment of feeling the trauma, or concretize myself as being traumatized, but allows me to give myself over to and embrace my experience.

We all have a part of us that is mad to the extent that we are not fully, totally awake, and who among us can truly claim this degree of enlightenment? Thinking that we are not mad is an expression of our madness. How can we not have a mad part of us, as we are not separate from the world, which has clearly gone mad? (see my article “Diagnosis: Psychic Epidemic”). The world’s madness is a reflection of our own; we have all collaboratively dreamed up the world’s madness. Instead of pathologizing ourselves because of our madness, which is a mad thing to do, we can embrace and own it but not identify with it nor judge it. In a truly radical act, we can interpret our madness in a way that is sane.

Recognizing that we are picking up the madness that is in the field which resonates with, is an expression of, and constellates the madness within ourselves, is to step out of personalizing our experience, and step into the point of view of identifying ourselves as would-be shamans. We then can envision ourselves from this more expansive point of view to have, like a shaman, the intention to take into ourselves the madness in the field, which ultimately is our own madness, so as to creatively assimilate it into our wholeness in our own unique manner as a way to help serve the field. Recognizing the part of us that is a natural-born shaman is the very act that calls forth and manifests, as if by magic, the part of us that truly IS a shaman.

Recognizing that the madness within us is both ours while simultaneously being an expression of the field is to snap out of our self-limiting and self-alienating identity of being separate from the universe. Instead, we can recognize our deep intimacy with the universe, which is to say ourselves. This very recognition allows us to embrace our mad part as an aspect of our vast wholeness, our monstrous totality, thereby snapping us out of the infinite regression and self-generating feedback loop of acting out our madness as an unconscious reaction against looking at our madness. Crazy as it seems, embracing our madness is the very act which helps to actualize and make real our basic sanity. Compassion spontaneously arises as both a cause and effect of this realization.

We are being invited by the universe to step into our shamanic “garments” and consciously participate in our own evolution. Instead of our ritual implements being drums and rattles, however, as “modern-day shamans” our accessories might be something like the keyboard of a computer or the tools of multi-media, as we work to inspire change in the underlying consciousness of the field by a simple keystroke or the creative use of a video camera or website.

The formless bodhisattvic archetype of shaman/healer is thirsting for instruments to express and actualize itself in embodied form. Recognizing, and assenting, saying “Yes,” to the deeper shamanic calling that is pulsating through our veins inspires us to breathe life into and incarnate the living figure of the shaman within us. Following our calling with religious devotion, we sacrifice ourselves as we offer ourselves in service to a power greater than ourselves. Co-operating with our deeper shamanic calling constellates the universe to support us in our endeavor, as the universe itself is the sponsor of our calling. Like shamans in training, we are each being called to connect with the spirit which animates our being, a process that can only take place within the psyche, mediated by the human heart and fueled by the power of love. 

A pioneer in the field of spiritual emergence, Paul Levy is a healer in private practice, assisting others who are also awakening to the dreamlike nature of reality. Paul is also a visionary artist and a spiritually-informed political activist. He is the author of The Madness of George Bush: A Reflection of Our Collective Psychosis,which is available on his website www.awakeninthedream.com. (See the first chapter, The Madness of George W. Bush: A Reflection of our Collective Psychosis). Please feel free to pass this article along to a friend if you feel so inspired. You can contact Paul at paul@awakeninthedream.com; he looks forward to your reflections. © Copyright 2009

http://www.shamanswell.org/shaman/we-are-all-shamans-shamanic-archetype
http://www.awakeninthedream.com/artis/we%20are%20all%20shamans.htm

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Announcements, News & Events / Al Jazeera broadcasting Egypt uprising now
« on: January 30, 2011, 09:09:08 AM »
Government has cut off internet, Twitter...but mobile phones, some Twit tools are still accessible.

Al Jazeera English: Live Stream
http://english.aljazeera.net/watch_now/

(broadcasting now military jets flying low in Tahrir Square in Egypts Capital Cairo, people are chanting WHERE IS THE MEDIA)

EPIC!

How does this relate to iboga?  It's having a domino effect on neighboring countries, could go worldwide.  We don't need your stinkin' gov't.  We can govern ourselves.

Free Market anarchism FTW!

Please share this with friends, loved ones on appropriate channels - email, Facebook, Twitter, etc.

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One of my favorite pieces of writing.  Shared it on FB and with the resurgence of psychedelics in the mainstream news today, it's time science does research on sex n psychedelics. ;D

http://www.maps.org/news-letters/v12n1/12109spr.html

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http://www.shamanism-101.com/Shamanic_Integrity.html

Interesting link I found via Shaman's Well.  You can add them on FB.

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General Discussion / Need vendor recommendations
« on: December 01, 2010, 07:48:09 PM »
Hey, I'm mostly interested in getting the b. caapi vine and associated admixtures and Maya Ethnobotanicals seems to be the best, but they are overseas and was wondering if there was a good US vendor.  Also looking for kratom and JWH vendors.

thanks
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General Discussion / Some fun events in NYC
« on: November 24, 2010, 02:58:39 PM »

I've complained to myself that there was nothing to do in a small town, so booring, well with a multicultural big city I found out some interesting things to check out recently.

Adam Elenbaas hosted his own event called Donation Astrology held at a yoga studio.  I didn't care for astrology as it all seems like bullshit, but his experience with ayahuasca.  Fortunately he did talk a little of his bio and the book and how it led him to put out his concept of donation based astrology.  On the aya, he said it turned his life inside out.  He reconciled his past of christian fundamentalism and his tensions with his father, a liberal preacher, and moved on from his drug and sex phase of his life.  So Fishers of Men was published and it looks interesting.  Been trying to find it on the shelf.

So after his talk, he read birth charts.  DOB and time.  Why time?  How is one second off going to affect your chart?  So despite my skepticism I pushed my skepticism aside and listened.  Adam calls astrology a science and art.  Anyways he got to read about a dozen of people's charts and comment them for 5 minutes.  After the event I didn't meet anyone to talk except the lady that said she did 'angel work' and sounded woo-woo said I was going to be a healer.

Light & Shadow: Exploring Personal & Cultural Transformation with Charles Shaw and Michael Garfield.  I've been a sorta fan of Shaw after he wrote his ibogaine experience.  Then he released some chapters of his book Exile Nation, a very telling autobiography.  He spent a dreary 10 years as a "crackhead" (his word) and heard about the use of extasy as treatment for PTSD.  He got busted one day for carrying MDMA pills and spreading the gospel like John the Baptist and was charged and sent to prison.  He talked about his time there and all the waste of the prison industrial complex, and the aftermath of trying to find a job when contacts in the industry (writing) didn't want to associate with him.  The most interesting part was when he talked about his ayahuasca experience which changed his life.  At least for me my favorite part is when people start talking about there visionary trips.  It was the experience that convinced him to not commit suicide.  He also did ibogaine which is a fantastic read on RealitySandwich.

I normally don't read much but I found the excerpts of his Exile Nation an interesting read.  So the cultural transformion talk part, he talked about problems but didn't have a solution other than getting people more enlightened, getting the word out, social networking like Evolver.

So Micheal Garfield didn't say much apart from some storytelling.  The last story was about some alien encounter he had.  It sounded more comical than serious.  He's a good guitarist and singer and played some tunes on where he had some rig to enhances effects.  One song was composed of looping live samples.  Sounded great.

Evolver NYC: Visionary Culture Spore with Get Your Dance On - This was by far the funnest event.  I didn't know it was going on for a year, I think monthly events at the same yoga studio.  This was a $20 event that featured talks by Pinchbeck (I didn't think he appeared), local health food vendors, a DJ room with fun spotty lazer lights, a shower/sauna room, a room for some dance instruction, didgeridoo and meditation.

The event was lively with people chatting.  The juice bar was great.  You could sample different kombucha from the company.  Speaking of which looks like there's surge of popularity of this drink.  It's fizzy and slightly alcoholic but packs beneficial organisms.  I remember getting a K mother pancake and making my own tea years ago.  I heard a lot of anecdotal stories about healing ailments, so I just did it because it sounded healthy.  This other juice was turmeric w/ginger, cayenne.  The lady said it was taken from the root and has all the beneficial properties.  I've asked her if it had black pepper (increases bioavaility very significantly) and she said (no) the cayenne pepper had the same effect. Whole foods sponsored the food of apples and other munchies, lots of free chocolate and fruit/nut bars.

The best part was the drum circle.  It went on for hours it seemed with no breaks, but I was in and out the room for some smoke breaks.  Eventually I got to talk to some people.  One guy recently came back from Peru and talked about his ayahuasca experiences, so I asked him about them and they sound very similar to the effects of ibogaine.  What people say: both have a cleansing power (repressed emotions, stuck negativity), puking aspect, fantastic dreamlike visions.  He rated the whole experience as not regretting doing it although some experiences were difficult.  Another spazzy lady I met we ended up talking about ibogaine which she was fascinated of.  She was from Holland and was amazed that there was a healer (Sara Glatt) working with this medicine which she promptly asked me for more info.  Well looks like I evangelized one person hehe.

At the end of the event, people hung out and the Green Bus showed up.  A dreaded guy Charlie the GEO hung out promoting this afterparty, didn't seem like many people where interested and I balked at the $20 cover.  I didn't think it was worth it but it was described as tribal party, so I hopped on.  The bus was lively with people from the drum circle gathering and some beats on the side of the bus broke out and it turned out pretty awesome.  On the ride someone started humming Bohemian Rhapsody and it turn into an uproarious crescendo.  I was definitely amused.

So the afterparty wasn't too impressive, I ended paying $10.  But it did have some artists selling their stuff.  I saw Charles Shaw selling crafted jewelry and I introduced myself again.  But he wasn't Charles Shaw but looked so much like him.  Freaky.  Party is like a warehouse party typical in Brooklyn but it did have a place to donate to Free Taito. 

Now the Ayahuasa Monologues are coming soon, and it features Pinchbeck, Elenbaas, and others.  $20 entrance fee?  You can see previous talks on youtube.  Hmm I still try to go.  And a Tribal Thanksgiving pot luck dinner with a Sweat Lodge ceremony.  The Green Bus is going!  Ahh should be a fun, but looking to connect with some people.

So if things line up right, I'll be doing an aya/iboga psycho-spiritual session in Dec.  (yay)

skinny




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Introductions / 6 months after iboga TA treatment
« on: May 15, 2010, 04:57:30 AM »
Hi,

After doing much research on ibogaine I decided it was the thing to do in my lifetime.  I've been fascinated by psychedelics ever since reading Timothy Leary's autobiography Flashbacks, anecdotal reports of life changing experiences, and the many trip reports I read on Erowid.  I'm turning 35 this summer and ever since 21 finding treatment in the right set, setting, and obtaining it has always been very elusive for me.

Sorry for the long life story but it will tie in to my experience.   You can skim this part...

When I was young I was a bright kid.  I don't remember reading that much as a kid but by first grade I was ahead in the class learning vocabulary words faster than anyone else.  During elementary school I was place in gifted class and did well in school.  By third grade I was reading a book every day and returning it to the library.  My childhood was fairly normal, but as I got to high school I was extremely shy.  Religion took a huge role in my life since I grew up in a pentacostal christian background.  By the time I hit puberty I was going through a religious crisis and became a typical "on fire" teenager reading the bible, prosletyzing to friends and with street teams, speaking in tongues, etc.  I excelled in math and science but reading comprehension was a struggle for me.  I ended up getting good grades in high school.  I was pretty much repressed sexually because of my christian morals (lust was as equivalent to adultery) so I was pious, yet I was curious in learning, debating, and defending my faith.  I was the geek in high school and not very sociable although I did have friends.  To this day one of my best friends suggested that I have Aspergers Sydrome.  I've never been diagnosed but I guess I have a mild form of it.

Family background:   My dad was the type of man that suffered from migraine headaches all his life.  He was cantankerous, had an angry temper, and was very pious.  My mother was extremely submissive and took his verbal abuse.  I would always feel uncomfortable around him with because he was always belittling us and my brothers.  I'd say that now that I'm older he was a good father in that he took care of our physical needs considering the economic situation he grew up in.  He was abusive in our emotional needs - very passive aggressive, talking us down in front of relatives and people, blaming the devil for our misdeeds and telling us to pray and read the bible all the time.  But now at my age I see it as a symptom of the the negative effects of christianity and possibly his abusive father and all the grudges he carried over the years from getting screwed over, failed businesses, regrets in life. 

I don't know much about his life other than what he shared with me.  Growing up my grandmother used to tell me stories how as a kid he had to work to support his family.  My dad's side of the family were poor immigrants from Ukraine and lived in a farm in south america.  My dad was a go-getter , so he learned to be a business man.  He's very shrewd and sort of like a cross of Uncle Scrooge and Archie Bunker always talking about money and how many deals he got.  He immigrated here after a failed jewelry business and worked at home as a watchmaker.  My mother was a home maker and nanny.  Overall my brothers and I had a good upbringing in that opportunities for education and acheiving the American Dream, but all of us have had a hard time with my dad.  My older brother seems the most affected by him because he tried to be close to my dad emotionally and ended up being the most messed up by it.  I think he's always felt entitled to have things provided to him by my dad while my younger brother and I just asked my dad for help at the last resort.

Growing up I had been sheltered from the outside world no watching movies, not doing much extracurricular stuff other than service organization clubs and playing outside with neighborhood kids.  Since religion was a huge part of our lives, church and church activities were mostly my social life.  By the time I graduated high school, I was ready to escape living with my parents.  My dad always pressured us to make money, work hard, not have fun and games.  But I felt emotionally abused so I had to leave at all costs.

I ended going out of home to live on campus and study for computer engineering.  My motivation was high because I knew that in order to succeed in life I had to make my own money and not be dependent on my father.  My younger brother and I felt the same way.  We both avoided confrontation with father and tended to be absorbed in school and computers.  College life was a bit of a culture shock because I was out of my christian shell.  I didn't party or do the typical wild stuff college kids do, but I spent my most of my time studying for class.  My leisure time was spending time listening to lots of music, reading newsgroups on religion, christian debate, philosophical issues, and watching movies.  Talking to girls didn't cross my mind much because of religious conflicts.

I studied hard until my junior year when I had a crisis of faith.  I ended up losing my faith in christianity and this led to a big depression.  All my family and relatives were christian so coming out of the closet could have a big ostracizing impact on me.  My dad could cut funds to college, I could no longer fake being a christian.  Well I did eventually come out to my family which caused a lot of problems.  I became more interested in defending my views because of the constant religious pressure to conform, so my grades suffered and I dropped out.  I stayed with my family for a semester until deciding that I better suck it up and finish or else I won't get anywhere in life.

So in 98 I did although I felt I barely made it but it was a good time in the job market with the dot com boom.  So during this time my interests widely ranged from: life extension, health, nutrition, juicing, fasting, philosophy, debating, freethought activism, music...but no sex, drugs, partying.  All my interests made it difficult for me to concentrate on my field.  It was like either I had to be a total geek in engineering or have a well rounded life with other interests.  I chose to not be a total geek considering that after graduating I was lonely for the first time in my life.  Never went out on dates, never had the social development to develop something other than an android personality.

I had three good years in my field, but I felt I was missing out in life.  My first experience with drugs were noortropics or so-called smart drugs.  I was always looking for ways to upgrade my brain, concentration, mental processing so I could be competent at work but also be a socially developed person.  It wasn't until one of my co-workers told me his drug experiences with LSD and pot that it intrigued me to try them.  I was most interested in acid since my friend said he could see the internal processes of his mind and understand logic better.  (See Wired article LSD the geek's wonder drug for more anecdotes).  He was an excellent programmer that it came to him naturally.  I was curious if this could help me get through my mental blocks and be a smarter person.  This would help me have a social life since work was very brute force for me.

Well I didn't dabble much at all but a couple years later I did try pot and eventually learned how to use it correctly.  It was helpful in toning down my geek nature and a social lubricant.  Alcohol didn't do much for me.  Other drugs never had an appeal but the hallucinogens did because of the some of the most successful businessmen and academics like Leary had life changing experiences.

After the dot com crash, I was laid off twice  During this time I had a hard time getting jobs mainly because I wasn't a good bullshitter in the corporate world.  I was a very honest and meek person that didn't talk the game to get the job.  Well eventually after 6 months I hit another crisis and got afflicted with a condition called Irritable Bowel Syndrome.  This devastated my life.  No job, feeling shitty, lost most of my savings, and dreaded moving back with my parents.  But I had to, and this lead to years of my life of misery.   My IBS was bad where I couldn't concentrate on job hunting, going back to school, or even having a normal social life.  My mid 20s I spent most of my time figuring out what the heck was wrong with me.  Fortunately with the internet there were support groups, message boards, better ways to dealing with an incurable condition that doctors had little clues what caused it.

My dad during this time blamed me turning away from christianity and got constant criticism how he wasted money by sending me to college.  At this time I was an out atheist and spent time supporting lots of humanist groups, but I could no longer have a normal life.  I was a prisoner to my own bowels!  I read stories of how people messed up their lives with drugs, but I was messed up internally.  Always in discomfort and it was always in the foreground of my mind.  So most of my 20s was spent on low wage jobs, trying self-employment...trying to get ahead but I never recovered and got a good paying job again.  It was a huge blow to my self-esteem, ego.

Well by lots of trial and error I eventually went into remission by dumb luck.  I tried a brain nutrient formula (acetyl-l-cartinine arginate, rhodiola rosea, et. al) and within a week was having normal bowel movements.   I got my life back!  During this time I was taking some business classes going back to school, but all the years of IBS left me with mental baggage.  I spent most of my time on the internet and with music living recluse.  I smoked pot off and on and it helped with being a socially fun guy.

Later on I started developing sexually.  I was interested in sex, girls, guys.  I ended up liking guys although I was mostly straight (10% gay on the Kinsey scale).  I met a bipolar stripper girl at a gay bar and from there I eventually went into the sex industry.  Long story short:  I worked in stripping, escorting, bdsm, activism.  During this time I did a lot of studying politics, economics, new world order

I was always interested in truth, freedom, fighting for liberties, being a freethinker.  Too much to say about this but I guess I had a messiah complex developed over the years from the people who I saw as heroes:  Charles Darwin, Dr. Jack Kevorkian, Carl Sagan, Bill Faloon from Life Extension Foundation, Ron Paul, and too many more to mention.

By the time I was interested in ibogaine, I was living in NYC living in an open relationship with a girl.  I was trying to get out of the sex industry but the economy was such in bad shape and my career in IT was gone, that I needed a life changing experience to have a stable good paying career again.  But all my life experiences dragged me down into a rut.

What intruged me most about ibogaine was the whole 30 years of therapy in 3 days, declutting your mind, removal of emotional blockage, etc.

After much research I ended up contacting Sara Glatt who invited me to come to her house, so with all the good things I read about her it was the perfect opportunity.  The girl that I was living with eventually developed a bad coke habit on top of the adderall she was taking, so I sponsored her whole trip by spending a good chunk of my life savings on the both of us.

OK enough of all that, my ibogaine experience:

Expectations:  Tried to not expect any particular outcome, but I was obsessed about having a big life change.  I hoped it would defrag my brain much like a computer and I could gain a drive again to go back to school.

Health:  I was smoking a lot of pot, depressed because my life savings was almost gone during this Great Recession.  I had a bad breakup with an activist girl who was bipolar and flipped on me so I went through a turbulent time bouncing with the girl in NYC, stressed out of my mind because didn't have a place to stay.  I was skinny not eating much but in pretty good physical health.  I didn't know what to do with my life.  Two weeks before going to Saras, my IBS came back like it did the first time.  Awful!

Test dose:  Felt woozy and started getting emotional.

Flood dose:  My visions weren't spectacular but I did see landscapes, people faces, tapestries, morphing faces, children walking by.  Interesting auditory droning sound in left ear and a high pitched tinking sound in right ear.  No vomiting.  I felt pretty good during the visions waves of energy flowing down to body.  It looked like I could see with my eyes closed (x-ray vision) - saw outlines of objects in room.

Introspective phase: Was mostly thinking how my dad treated me all my life and whether it had an effect on my subconscious.  I knew I needed to go back to my family and end the relationship with the girl from NYC.  I was addicted to her even after it was all over.  She was charming but we were both using each other to get by in life.

Overall impression was that the iboga experience helped me separate me from her and go back to live with family.  We didn't talk for months but she eventually got her job back as a nurse.  I think she quit her substance abuse because she was already at wits end, but the whole time after iboga she was a total bitch and blamed me for dragging her out to Amsterdam.  I spent all that money and it drained me.  We both still miss each other, but that's about it.

Back home with family, I've been job hunting but with this terrible economy I'm at my wits end again.  I had a couple interviews that looked promising but now I can't land a job not even manual work.  I've been so emotionally messed up after setback after setback.  I'm cash broke and all I have left is my life savings in precious metals which I don't want to touch.  My parents are supporting with food and shelter.  I went through a grieving process of loss of relationships, money, but now that is over I'm stuck in a rut.  So now I figured out that I need to study for computer certifications to get a job.  All my studying now is self-discipline.  Reading books, computer based training...but I realized I have a problem:

I have an internet/news addiction.  After going on a week long fast, I know that i have a problem that it like a drug addiction.  It's been there for years.  All I can think of is doing another iboga session or if feasible an MDMA session with a therapist, psylocibin/lsd...

but ideally i would like to find someone close by in FL to do a session because I think it would address the obsessive-compulsive behavior I have with the internet.  Before in engineering school I would isolate myself in the library or lab to study, but now I can't because I have to do it from home.  All my life I could never work from home.  I know there's an answer, a solution.   I feel with the worldwide economic crisis going on, there's not much time left and I need to get my focus and drive back.  I know it's going to be painful for sometime as I forsee a worldwide depression, but I have a lot of hope.  I just don't want to be perpetually unemployed.  I'm a big fan of Ron Paul and his ideas of limited government, ending the overseas empire, going back to sound money, ending the drug war, free markets...are all starting to penetrated the mainstream.  Rick Doblin's MAPS work getting out to mainstream gives me great hope as well   

Well it's been 3.5 hrs of writing and I'm drained.  Just wanted to share my experience.  I don't regret taking iboga but want to take it again.

I wanted to write a well written comprehensive ibogaine experience after I got a job, but it's been too long now and just had to get this out.  I'd be a lot happier if I had SOMETHING to do to make a little money, but feel free to ask questions or comment.

skinny

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