Rux,
To preface, you are starting a topic that is very sensitive. Everyone has an opinion. You are obviously referring to bad habits, and if you mean opiates then "HELL NO!" Information will set you free Rux. Just enlighten yourself to all of the functions of the natural opiate system. It is a reward center that I would never ever want to mess with again now understanding all of the functions (i.e. pain relief during exercise, developing relationships, etc.) When you are sober, go for some exercise. If you had any morsel of pain before exercising, check yourself on the way to and while exercising. The pain may be reduced or gone completely because your wonderfully natural opiate system is kicking in telling you that exercising is good and needed! For me, it's refreshing being able to understand these things. It only reinforces the divine perfection. By the way, I was not at all spiritual (likely did not believe in G-d) before my 4th flood. That was last Christmas. Since then, I am happier then I have ever been! And I still have problems in life.....go figure. But when you understand that it all starts with a thought, and you start training yourself to think in a certain way, you will be able to tune into that addict brain taking control of your thoughts, like a demon! This becomes very useful in our recovery/rebirth because you will start blazing your trail once you have your priorities straight! I think I have addict circuitry, let's say I know, so I do not surround myself if anyone who is using. I avoid parties with "strangers" for the time being, and only celebrate with my close family and friends. That just makes no sense to me, exposing yourself to these situations when you are in recovery. I heard once that it will take 3 years to fully recover from substance abuse. How about the first year, or first 6 months at least, take some Rux time. This is your chance, grab it by the horns! You and I both have made the same mistake twice in thinking we are in control when we weren't. Learning the hard way was the previous model for me. "It's one thing to make the same mistake twice, and another to make it all of your life." You know deep down what you need to do.
Everyone is different. Everything starts with a thought (i.e. "I can
use on the weekends and not fully relapse"). This type of thinking is the real "issue." After a year of hardcore work with Iboga, and all of the integration into this new evolved me, I cannot imagine bearing the cognitive dissonance of taking opiates, or smoking cigs.
I have developed addictions to almost anything that I deem worthy in my life. Opiates are/were the worst....they were the only drug that I knew I had no ability to stop. I was powerless. Iboga saved my life as it has many others!
After 4 floods in a year span, I do still feel the addict circuitry. For example, I smoke ganja daily and would like to cut that in half. Guess what?!? In due time. Whatever I am doing is right for me, I am getting positive affirmations all the time. The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle, and understanding the seven levels of consciousness proposed by spiral dynamics allows me to care less about material items, and on behavior only! I am so glad, because behavior is ALL that matters! The Noopept has really helped in this transformation, allows me to focus better, learn faster, reduces fear somehow, and gives me the self confidence of a humble seeker of truth. When you are that organized upstairs, and you are manifesting with your mind, and you trust your internal radar, the confidence you have can be through the roof! Once you have healed yourself Rux, you will be living what I am speaking about now. I am living breathing beautiful proof!
In fact, this is such a powerful transformation for me that I have completely re-evaluated my approach towards life. One of these changes is the concept of paying it forward. If I can teach you how to gain inner peace, and you teach someone else, than we are really starting to live in the eyes of love.
I'll be here for ya Rux. If you want to keep ascending, the sky is the limit.
Blue
