My consciousness was becoming incredibly lucid, defined, grounded, and powerful.
RhythmSpring,
Listen youngbuck

, you have ALWAYS struck me as this type of individual from what I have gleaned from your posts. I should let you know that when I read your flood report a while back I was BLOWN AWAY beyond words. You had some profound realizations and insights and there was so much raw feeling and emotion echoing through your words. I felt a connection to your spirit immediately and believe it or not I think your flood report was the first one that I had ever happened upon and it was on another site if I am not mistaken. It immediately caused me to have an attraction to Iboga that went beyond addiction interruption.
You said 'Something tells me the Iboga should come BEFORE the ayahuasca, not after.' For myself, I have intuited the opposite. I haven't been through a flood proper, but before I do so I plan to work with aya some and I have preceeded this with Kambo. Of course, it is different strokes for different folks.
I have got to ask, do you want to do the Iboga just because you want those feelings to come back, you know the peace, love and harmony stuff? Are you sure it ever left? You are allowed to have negative thoughts sneak in (yes, even thoughts of hatred...it happens sometimes to those of us who aren't fully enlightened). It is the identification with and guilt created by these thoughts that will cause me to spiral ooc, if anything. I have to let it go, because it is not who I am. IT IS NOT WHO YOU ARE, don't identify with it. It basically sounds like you would like to rush into a flood to escape the little bit of darkness that you have or may perceive within yourself. My opinion is that this would not be the way to go, especially considering your fast approaching excursion to Peru. It is so soon and I believe it could be highly productive for you to lean on the powerful teacher / healer that is innately within. You no doubt have this and no doubt are able to access it. Microdosing sessions are also very powerful as we both know.
I should note that when I read some of your posts there may be a little extra emtion evoked because my dad has RA. He has had it for 25 years and his rheumatologist at U of M hospital once said it is the worst case he has ever seen. The disease has certainly been a part of my life and its avoidance was one of several catalysts in my gravitation toward holistic health. Unlike my dad, you have both the youth and the high-level awareness within yourself to be able to overcome the disease or at least many aspects of it. Any healing energy that can be transmitted through the ether is in route brother. I am really glad you are around here.