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It's just that the good ole' days seem gone.  At this point, I consider myself 2nd wave good ole' day old timer status, hehe.

This forum was a beautiful thing and was really there when I needed it, NO DOUBT!

The most profound effects was that nature looked incredibly beautiful - I'd always wondered why people said nature was beautiful before now I realized my mind had categorized all the plants for efficiency so I hadn't noticed how awe-inspiring tall trees or hedges were or how pretty colorful petals were in the summer mornings (6 am). Nature really did look 14-20x more beautiful than normal I couldn't figure out WHY it seemed so much more beautiful at the time but it did. Now I've figured out the reason - colours "pop" (reach your attention) much more but also my emotional mind is connecting with nature the way it juts out into the sky and in 3d is AWE-inspiring whereas before it was just "normal".  Looking at nature now is even significantly better than looking at nature as a kid.

This is very profound if you ask me.

It was like someone turned on the lights and suddenly everyone could see the scared shaky being that had long been hiding behind false armor and shifting masks.  It was terror in every sense of the word and at some point the realization hit that there were only two options.  Transform and transcend it or crawl back into that dark, isolated chamber of doom and despair.  The latter seemed like a death sentence leaving one no other choice but to boldly face the light and begin to ascend.  Little did one know that the light was burning the darkness out of one’s being little by little as mysterious alchemical processes began to sift the decadent filth from ones psyche until the splendorous golden nuances, uniquely tailored to each being, were all that remained.  The long-lived Phoenix is alive once again.

Shameful self-promotion ends here.

Yeah , you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

No really though, this is fantastic!

My consciousness was becoming incredibly lucid, defined, grounded, and powerful.

RhythmSpring,

Listen youngbuck , you have ALWAYS struck me as this type of individual from what I have gleaned from your posts.  I should let you know that when I read your flood report a while back I was BLOWN AWAY beyond words.  You had some profound realizations and insights and there was so much raw feeling and emotion echoing through your words.  I felt a connection to your spirit immediately and believe it or not I think your flood report was the first one that I had ever happened upon and it was on another site if I am not mistaken.  It immediately caused me to have an attraction to Iboga that went beyond addiction interruption.

You said 'Something tells me the Iboga should come BEFORE the ayahuasca, not after.'  For myself, I have intuited the opposite.  I haven't been through a flood proper, but before I do so I plan to work with aya some and I have preceeded this with Kambo.  Of course, it is different strokes for different folks.

I have got to ask, do you want to do the Iboga just because you want those feelings to come back, you know the peace, love and harmony stuff?  Are you sure it ever left?  You are allowed to have negative thoughts sneak in (yes, even thoughts of hatred...it happens sometimes to those of us who aren't fully enlightened).  It is the identification with and guilt created by these thoughts that will cause me to spiral ooc, if anything.  I have to let it go, because it is not who I am.  IT IS NOT WHO YOU ARE, don't identify with it.  It basically sounds like you would like to rush into a flood to escape the little bit of darkness that you have or may perceive within yourself.  My opinion is that this would not be the way to go, especially considering your fast approaching excursion to Peru.  It is so soon and I believe it could be highly productive for you to lean on the powerful teacher / healer that is innately within.  You no doubt have this and no doubt are able to access it.  Microdosing sessions are also very powerful as we both know.

I should note that when I read some of your posts there may be a little extra emtion evoked because my dad has RA.  He has had it for 25 years and his rheumatologist at U of M hospital once said it is the worst case he has ever seen.  The disease has certainly been a part of my life and its avoidance was one of several catalysts in my gravitation toward holistic health.  Unlike my dad, you have both the youth and the high-level awareness within yourself to be able to overcome the disease or at least many aspects of it.  Any healing energy that can be transmitted through the ether is in route brother.  I am really glad you are around here.

So brother's wife recently found and gathered a bunch of this somewhat obscured fungus.  When I first saw it and she briefly described what she had read about it, there was an intuitive feeling that it holds some promise.  She is making a tincture and I am very much looking forward to sampling and reporting back findings.

Does anyone have experience with this plant?  Here are some 'ramblings' about it:

http://greenmanramblings.blogspot.com/2010/07/ghost-pipe-monotropa-uniflora.html

It certainly seems to pique some interest.

I learned the Chen-style 18 form last year and have continued to perform warm-up exercises and silk reeling in the morning.  I'd like to take some more classes, further develop and even get into the defensive aspects.

Aikido also looks interesting.  I am pretty sure that tai chi and aikido are where it's at for me. 

HURRAH Rintrah!

I don't think that a sitter is necessary for Kambo if you are able to d-i-y, which it sounds like you are.

I've also found intense vibratory effects in and around certain areas of the body to be part of the Kambo experience.  I know what you mean by similar to tai chi, since I also dabble.  Sometimes the vibration is so intense and incredible that it feels as if a scrubbing of the energy field is taking place in that region, at least ime.  The particular region where this takes place is something that can be tied to acupuncture meridians depending on where the medicine was applied.  That is a little too detailed and advanced to go into here though; check out the Kambo forum.

I've come to believe that vomitting is crucial to the experience.  One should take enough medicine to induce this purging.  Imagine all the toxins that are rounded up and ready to be released via bile / puke just ending up stuck and reintroduced into the system following an experience...this is not good and I've felt the effects of it.  You are purging toxins, so get 'em out!  7 dots should no doubt do the trick.

As for diet, it sounds like you did it by the book.  I don't make much a fuss about what I eat afterward, although I am overall a very health conscious (borderline health nut) individual.  I think what matters is leading up to the experience, i.e. fasting some and hydrating.

The burn marks may scar permanently.  Most of mine have, but they're not glaringly visible or anything.  Kampum (who originally turned me on to Kambo) suggested Sangre De Grado extract aka "Dragon's Blood".  Placing this resin on the burns aids in healing and reduces scarring.  The resin falls off naturally after about 9-days.

Good luck with your next Kambo appt.!  Mine is coming up in a few weeks.