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Suggestions & Comments / Re: Why is Eboka Dying?
« on: May 25, 2018, 09:37:21 PM »
It's just that the good ole' days seem gone.  At this point, I consider myself 2nd wave good ole' day old timer status, hehe.

This forum was a beautiful thing and was really there when I needed it, NO DOUBT!

Staying Clean / Re: Depression, Boredom and Lonliness
« on: August 28, 2014, 10:08:57 AM »
Wow atom, reviving an oldie but goodie!  This stuff is too often overlooked by people approaching iboga for addiction interruption, yet it is by far the most important thing!  Sadly, the majority of people just don't say "ok, I am clean, now how in God's name am i going to stay clean?"  Rather it is "hooray, I am clean... ibogaine is a godsend!"  Then gradually many people lapse back into the same unconscious patterns leading right back to substance abuse and ultimately full-blown addiction, and then the revolving door starts, whether it is multiple floods or a series of treatment center stays costing thousands of dollars, often of someone else's hard-earned money.  Addiction is one nasty devil.

I am not out to judge anyone who comes to iboga 4,5 or more times or has 10 treatment center stays under their belt.  I am not God and do not know the ultimate plan, so who am I to say.  It just seems that if addicts are finally serious about getting and staying clean then they will be willing to truly look at and address the underlying problems and also willing to ride out tough times without returning to their treacherous poison of choice.  I have been in total despair and felt unbearably alone, but I did not get high.  Part of it may be because the thought of being roped back into that dreadful cycle is the worst thing imaginable, so there is incentive to staying clean, obviously.

For me, it is quite simple.  Having come this far on the journey of staying clean and experiencing many modalities, I think it pretty much boils down to what you basically said - PASSION AND HEALTH, and a passion for health!  Passion can be in many different directions and I agree that the ultimate is sevice to others, but I am not sure about deliberate or intended service.  Rather, I believe, as passion develops along a certain line, people are attracted and your healing and embodying of postive energies and spiritual principles automatically and contagiously impacts others.  The universe will place those who need you and those who you need into your life for supportive, uplifting relationships.  It will also place people in our lives for harsh, brutal lessons!

That is how I believe it works.  And yes, eating well, exercising and taking care of oneself is also super important.

Flooding / Re: Messed up my flood dose
« on: August 15, 2014, 08:19:08 AM »
The most profound effects was that nature looked incredibly beautiful - I'd always wondered why people said nature was beautiful before now I realized my mind had categorized all the plants for efficiency so I hadn't noticed how awe-inspiring tall trees or hedges were or how pretty colorful petals were in the summer mornings (6 am). Nature really did look 14-20x more beautiful than normal I couldn't figure out WHY it seemed so much more beautiful at the time but it did. Now I've figured out the reason - colours "pop" (reach your attention) much more but also my emotional mind is connecting with nature the way it juts out into the sky and in 3d is AWE-inspiring whereas before it was just "normal".  Looking at nature now is even significantly better than looking at nature as a kid.

This is very profound if you ask me.

The Muse / Re: we're all made of gold
« on: August 15, 2014, 08:09:35 AM »
Thank you, DiamondHeart.

Energy, clarity and gratitude inspired it!  Kambo opening the gates to new frontiers inspired it!  Regaining perspective and beginning to see others as the innumerable and various manifestations of self who are at different points on boundless paths in a process of eternal creation, well that inspired it, really.

Forgive me, but I still think of Entheo when I see your screen name notwithstanding the fact that you DO indeed have a Diamond Heart.

The Muse / we're all made of gold
« on: August 14, 2014, 08:30:01 AM »
It was like someone turned on the lights and suddenly everyone could see the scared shaky being that had long been hiding behind false armor and shifting masks.  It was terror in every sense of the word and at some point the realization hit that there were only two options.  Transform and transcend it or crawl back into that dark, isolated chamber of doom and despair.  The latter seemed like a death sentence leaving one no other choice but to boldly face the light and begin to ascend.  Little did one know that the light was burning the darkness out of one’s being little by little as mysterious alchemical processes began to sift the decadent filth from ones psyche until the splendorous golden nuances, uniquely tailored to each being, were all that remained.  The long-lived Phoenix is alive once again.

Eboka Journals / Re: UnderWorld Initiation
« on: April 24, 2014, 08:45:26 AM »
Beautiful write-up Angelique.  I could feel the power and essence of the infinite spirit coming through in your words.  Seems you were well-prepared by life for this incredible transformation / awakening.  Thank you for sharing the details with us.

The Muse / Re: Drumming I did on my second flood
« on: October 10, 2013, 01:06:58 PM »
Shameful self-promotion ends here.

Yeah >:(, you ought to be ashamed of yourself.

No really though, this is fantastic!

Announcements, News & Events / Re: Jack Tripper
« on: October 03, 2013, 08:18:49 AM »
Lala, BT, Narina -

Very sorry for your loss; it is tragic and awful that this damn disease claimed the life another very good person, I am sure.

This shit is no joke, once we get clean (no matter by what means) we have to be watchful and on guard against this cunning, baffling and fatal monster known as addiction.  I have lost a dear one who went "back out" and it was sudden and unexpected, leaving us (his friends and fam) shocked and bewildered.  My heart goes out to you.

Eboka Talk / Re: Thinking about another Flood (Long Post)
« on: September 22, 2013, 09:30:38 PM »
My consciousness was becoming incredibly lucid, defined, grounded, and powerful.


Listen youngbuck ;), you have ALWAYS struck me as this type of individual from what I have gleaned from your posts.  I should let you know that when I read your flood report a while back I was BLOWN AWAY beyond words.  You had some profound realizations and insights and there was so much raw feeling and emotion echoing through your words.  I felt a connection to your spirit immediately and believe it or not I think your flood report was the first one that I had ever happened upon and it was on another site if I am not mistaken.  It immediately caused me to have an attraction to Iboga that went beyond addiction interruption.

You said 'Something tells me the Iboga should come BEFORE the ayahuasca, not after.'  For myself, I have intuited the opposite.  I haven't been through a flood proper, but before I do so I plan to work with aya some and I have preceeded this with Kambo.  Of course, it is different strokes for different folks.

I have got to ask, do you want to do the Iboga just because you want those feelings to come back, you know the peace, love and harmony stuff?  Are you sure it ever left?  You are allowed to have negative thoughts sneak in (yes, even thoughts of happens sometimes to those of us who aren't fully enlightened).  It is the identification with and guilt created by these thoughts that will cause me to spiral ooc, if anything.  I have to let it go, because it is not who I am.  IT IS NOT WHO YOU ARE, don't identify with it.  It basically sounds like you would like to rush into a flood to escape the little bit of darkness that you have or may perceive within yourself.  My opinion is that this would not be the way to go, especially considering your fast approaching excursion to Peru.  It is so soon and I believe it could be highly productive for you to lean on the powerful teacher / healer that is innately within.  You no doubt have this and no doubt are able to access it.  Microdosing sessions are also very powerful as we both know.

I should note that when I read some of your posts there may be a little extra emtion evoked because my dad has RA.  He has had it for 25 years and his rheumatologist at U of M hospital once said it is the worst case he has ever seen.  The disease has certainly been a part of my life and its avoidance was one of several catalysts in my gravitation toward holistic health.  Unlike my dad, you have both the youth and the high-level awareness within yourself to be able to overcome the disease or at least many aspects of it.  Any healing energy that can be transmitted through the ether is in route brother.  I am really glad you are around here. :)

The Muse / Re: Game Over -- Press Any Key to Reboot My Butt
« on: August 27, 2013, 09:09:40 PM »
Der Führer

Diet & Recipes / Ghost Pipe
« on: August 25, 2013, 09:20:26 AM »
So brother's wife recently found and gathered a bunch of this somewhat obscured fungus.  When I first saw it and she briefly described what she had read about it, there was an intuitive feeling that it holds some promise.  She is making a tincture and I am very much looking forward to sampling and reporting back findings.

Does anyone have experience with this plant?  Here are some 'ramblings' about it:

It certainly seems to pique some interest.

General Discussion / Re: What do you think happens when we die?
« on: August 20, 2013, 09:48:05 AM »
Why not rather ask what it means to be live.  Life and death are two sides of the same coin.  To know one should be to know the other.  Awareness, awareness, awareness....that is the key.

Like Kampum inferred - there is work to be done.  The holy instant of love and bliss is always there for us to bask in; it can be momentarily glimpsed quite effortlessly, but there is an obvious obstruction that prevents permanent residence.  The obstruction is myself.  My attachments, worries, envies, longings, desires.  Every false thing that lends credence to the idea that I am some separate, isolated being all alone on a unique island of suffering.

Fortunately there are tools to aid us in seeing and putting aside the insanity.  Iboga is one of many tools and it may be one of the greatest.  It should be approached with careful consideration and great reverence for the sacrament that it is.

Work on awareness for oneself and the answer for "what happens when we die" just may arise naturally.

Exercise & Hobbies / Re: Any Martial Artist here?
« on: August 12, 2013, 10:43:08 AM »
I learned the Chen-style 18 form last year and have continued to perform warm-up exercises and silk reeling in the morning.  I'd like to take some more classes, further develop and even get into the defensive aspects.

Aikido also looks interesting.  I am pretty sure that tai chi and aikido are where it's at for me. 

General Discussion / Re: Did kambo for the first time
« on: August 07, 2013, 02:55:42 PM »
At least for me the burn marks went away on Auriculotherapy (inner ear meridians) marks, also burn marks outside (san jiao meridian) my ears went away.  Burn marks around my ankle meridians have gone away slowly.  The ones on the shoulders are permanent.  So I guess where the skin is thin the burn marks go away. 

Actually, yeah.  That's also been my experience other than the san jiao meridian.  Haven't done that one.

General Discussion / Re: Did kambo for the first time
« on: August 07, 2013, 01:17:10 PM »
HURRAH Rintrah!

I don't think that a sitter is necessary for Kambo if you are able to d-i-y, which it sounds like you are.

I've also found intense vibratory effects in and around certain areas of the body to be part of the Kambo experience.  I know what you mean by similar to tai chi, since I also dabble.  Sometimes the vibration is so intense and incredible that it feels as if a scrubbing of the energy field is taking place in that region, at least ime.  The particular region where this takes place is something that can be tied to acupuncture meridians depending on where the medicine was applied.  That is a little too detailed and advanced to go into here though; check out the Kambo forum.

I've come to believe that vomitting is crucial to the experience.  One should take enough medicine to induce this purging.  Imagine all the toxins that are rounded up and ready to be released via bile / puke just ending up stuck and reintroduced into the system following an experience...this is not good and I've felt the effects of it.  You are purging toxins, so get 'em out!  7 dots should no doubt do the trick.

As for diet, it sounds like you did it by the book.  I don't make much a fuss about what I eat afterward, although I am overall a very health conscious (borderline health nut) individual.  I think what matters is leading up to the experience, i.e. fasting some and hydrating.

The burn marks may scar permanently.  Most of mine have, but they're not glaringly visible or anything.  Kampum (who originally turned me on to Kambo) suggested Sangre De Grado extract aka "Dragon's Blood".  Placing this resin on the burns aids in healing and reduces scarring.  The resin falls off naturally after about 9-days.

Good luck with your next Kambo appt.!  Mine is coming up in a few weeks.

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