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The Muse / Re: In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts
« on: February 07, 2013, 06:48:46 AM »
Thank you PsilocybeChild for taking the time to share this information. It helps to understand why we become addicted.

Introductions / Re: Good To Meet You
« on: January 30, 2013, 08:05:27 AM »
Thanks a million for the encouragement & kind words Cal. Just a few days ago, I entered a new Suboxone program. Was told to STOP smoking herb or the FDA/DEA would "throw me in jail" because they can run up in there & look at patient records anytime. WHAT happened to dr.- patient confidentiality??? I WAS down to 2(occassionally 4)mgs of Sub, daily (on my own). He insists that his patients take the Sub 4x a day. Isn't that enforcing addictive behavior? The huge packet of patient rules & information was full of advice and directions to SNITCH on other patients(who sell Subs or go to bars) & also encouragement to SNITCH on doctors who we even suspect of over writing opiate 'scripts!!!! My anxiety's high & I have no appetite & not sleeping well without the herb. Doc suggests anti psychotic meds for anxiety, instead! I feel TRAPPED, paranoid and angry, now and I am the chump PAYING  this "doctor". It is voluntary probation, man. I was also told that it is an  amazing drug with NO WITHDRAWALS!!!!!(only psychological)I've been playing this Sub game too long to fall for that lie again. The Subs were almost 15 bucks a pop at the pharmacy. 10 bucks to get on my own. ... I could hear the pharmacist talking junk about addicts, sub programs and my dr (who just got outta jail himself). I cannot-will not live this way. So all around this ain't gonna work. I need to find sao's and a sitter and do an Ibo flood. Sorry for the bad attitude. I'm angry at myself and this situation. I am near Canada. I only need a sitter- have my own  hcl & t/a from reputable source. I've done plenty of psychedelics( in my younger days). But won't do Ibo alone. Hope I'm not saying stuff that I'm not supposed to say on here. I am not used to forums , at all. I also am not used to asking for help......I am desperate for REAL help. No faith at all for westernized medicine. Again apologies if, I posted this in wrong place or said anything wrong. I am grateful to have found this place with people who can relate to these issues. I swear if I could get past the ungodly sickness&PAWS that I would NEVER use opiates again. Thanks again for being here & hope you all are well.

General Discussion / Re: Xuan Xia for subutex / available again
« on: January 28, 2013, 09:26:49 AM »
 Hello all. I'm new here and this is my 1st post besides a short introduction. I've been reading info on Xuan Xia and feel the urge to try it. After, Oxycontin addiction, I went to Methadone (120mgs at highest dosing)then Subutex then Suboxone. I'm down to 2 to 4 mgs , daily. I've been at this low dose of Suboxone for 7 months . The withdrawals are still unbearable and seemingly everlasting when I try to stop. My problem is the PAWS feels as bad as the initial detox. I physically feel as if, I been hit by a truck. The emotional effects are near insanity from Suboxone detox. I had an Ibogaine provider down in Mexico all lined up. I've been planning an Ibogaine flood for a year now. After, knowing this provider for 2 years, I trusted and believed in him. Sadly, he and his wife were killed in a car accident less than 2 months ago. I have no one that I can trust to be a sitter & can't afford to go to a clinic. I'd like to try the Xuan Xia until I can make alternative plans for Ibogaine tx. I am hoping for some dosing advice on the Xuan Xia. Can this stuff really make the detox bearable and shorten the aftermath(PAWS)? Is there dosing recommendations included with remedy? I'd be glad to buy it, try it and share it's effects. I'd really appreciate any advice or insight on Xuan Xia. Also am curious as to what it's ingredients are. Tryed Kratom and Papaver pods with no success. Thanks in advance for any advice!

Introductions / Re: Good To Meet You
« on: January 19, 2013, 03:21:21 PM »
Thanks for the welcomes, advice and comments.  :) The people in my life don't understand why I want to try Ibogaine. Any of you, that KNOW the feeling after being on maintaining drugs  for years, know why. Finding a sitter & a (months supply) s.a.o. is something to work on. Tryed the papaver pods, kratom, passion flower...Just didn't help me. I remember  the Darvocet used to help, suprisingly. Took away a bit of the edge/ unbearable wds, anyway. Remember them? Can't get them anymore. I've looked thru the ibo centers sites. It must be amazing to go to a real clinic for  treatment. Trying to stay strong and keep moving forward. I look forward to reading and learning on here.

Introductions / Good To Meet You
« on: January 18, 2013, 11:23:07 AM »
 Hi all. I'm Tara & am considering ibogaine for a 15 year opiate addiction. Wanna get off Suboxone maintenence. Tryed weaning down but found it impossible. Considering ibogaine compared to staying on subs, forever.  :) Hoping to hear about other peoples experiences with ibogaine for opiate withdrawl. I've read some conflicting stories. Some people are saying that it only stops the accute withdrawl for around 10-20 hours then they went thru the normal, god awful withdrawl process. Read other accounts of people never feeling sick again after 1 flood of ibo.  Good to meet you all!

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