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Eboka Chat / Re: Reliable ibogaine vendors
« on: January 06, 2016, 02:27:54 PM »
I have recently had problems with them also. I placed an order on the December 18th, today is January 6th, and no tracking number, no replies to my emails, and obviously no mail. As Cal knows, this has happened to me earlier last year, so I am over it. I want a refund, but they are not responding to my emails. Also, when I finally got my bark, it was INCREDIBLY weak. And some of it, I gave it a friend that never had it before, and it tasted bad and hardily had an effect. Neither one of us are drug dependent. I was trying to flood before school started, but too late for that. Anyone have any ideas, other than these guys? Pm me if anyone has any ideas, thanks. Also, what do I have for recourse? I never had a problem with them in the past, but this is the second time in the past year that I had issues that are not just a simple human error.

Eboka Talk / Re: Current Iboga Availability
« on: August 03, 2015, 09:30:43 AM »
I have had some issues with communication with Iworld recently. Don't want to get into specifics here, but I would like to find an alternative that has a similar arrangement for shipping here. Grateful, do you have any suggestions that you could p.m. me with?

General Discussion / Re: Ibogaine death! It happened to me!
« on: August 03, 2015, 01:20:59 AM »
This is really scary! How are you doing now? I have been reading all of your post for the past few years now, and the fact that it happened to you of all people, after you took such a high dose in the past, does it make you wonder if its more likely to happen after previous floods? Do you have anymore information to add on this matter?

$5,000?!?!? That sucks man, you could have took a bath in ibogaine crystals. I hope you didnt wipe out your savings. That is so much money to me. I could understand the appeal though. Back in 2005, I sought out an authentic Yogi from India after my mushroom break through, and for over a year, he was my personal Yogi, who cleansed my personal savings account. I learned a lot, but most of it was regurgitated Upanishads. I then learned Buddhism was much cheaper. I also learned that you don't need to seek advice from someone wearing some crazy costume. I met a guy that looks like a biker with tattoos and a pony tail that seemed more humble and mature than this yogi, he didnt ask for money, seemed much more artful in the meditation discipline, and helped me work through issues that this yogi said he couldn't touch. 

Eboka Journals / Re: No visions-Looking for advice
« on: October 12, 2013, 03:27:00 PM »
That is so great! Its always nice to read such a visceral reminder of the potential of these visionary plants. I too have been guided by this plant away from the trap that is depression. Never thought there was a chemical cure for a broken heart until recently. Do you have any spiritual inclinations now?

General Discussion / Re: Post-flood complications/still tripping?
« on: October 08, 2013, 12:03:37 AM »
Dear helpme,

      First off, i'm sorry to hear that your are experiencing complications, there is always that risk when tampering with your neurochemistry. Have you ever been prescribed anti psychotics? When problems like these arise, unfortunately, in our culture, we can either throw our full faith behind these visionary plants, seek support from the forums that specialize them, or deny their power and seek out a western Md. to "fix" things. You seem to be initiating the former, which I tend to think maybe more sensible at the moment. By all means, take this in with a grain of salt, and lean on your intuition. I am close to two months in from my introduction to this particular plant, and I am still experiencing similar effects as yours, especially the tracers, but quite the opposite, when I get refreshing sleep, and really bright lights tend to bring them out, sounds not so much, and I feel quite clear headed. I am not entirely convinced that this is "that" abnormal. Sure, maybe in this community, iboga may produce predictable results, but with psychedelics, a large factor of your results depend on the actual experience. So you should probably try to elaborate on the actual experience.

I had a similar experience as yours when I fasted for three days, made a syrian rue extract, and ate 7.2 grams of some mushrooms I grew. My best friend did the same thing. Initially, within the first 15 minutes, it seemed great, but at the 30 minute clock, it was obvious that it wasn't going to be the predictable "breakthrough" and it led to me doing really weird shit for 12 hours. My friend did the same kind of weird shit, basically acting possesed, nobody was home, but we were up and moving around, screaming the most weirdest things, and doing things completely unlike who we both were. 12 hours later, my friend woke up from his manic state, he and his baby sitter were seriously concerned that I was permanently brain damaged. I awoke from that experience, feeling only the negative experiences, ashamed of how the experience went, and how I mishandled things. For months afterwards, I was screwed up. Completely absent of the presence that I have been cultivating for the past six months prior. Felt so lonely and scared of everything. I was a wreck for a good six months to a year, maybe even longer.

My point is that sometimes these experiences can shift our perception in a way that really messes with our head, and maybe you just need time and meditation to recover? I can say with certainty, that meditation is what helped ground me, and restored my ability to perform complex thought processes to understand simple things, my math was back, and my understanding of language was at least back to baseline, if not better. I can see that you have waited this out, but keep talking, lets have this conversation. The reason why these drugs are so powerful is because they alter our perception, and we should never take that fact for granted. Our opinions and judgment of good and bad, every type of polar opposite you can think of, is altered in the process. So while you are experiencing strange side effects, it IS possible to be at peace with the whole process, and abandon despair and embrace joy. That is a choice that you will have to make. Typically our mood is dependent on external factors, again, good or bad. Also, keep in mind that if your living in the western hemisphere, the mystical experience is rather misunderstood, and your concept of God may conflict from what may be revealed to you.

Just a few ideas, I wish you the best, and you can pm me if you want.

General Discussion / Re: What do you think happens when we die?
« on: October 07, 2013, 09:46:01 PM »
     I like Eckhart Tolle's explanation. There is a youtube video where someone mentions that their friend was shot in the head, and it left him wondering this same question. A zen student asked his master, "what happens when you die?" Zen master responded "I don't know, I am a zen master, but not a dead zen master".
   Even if someone had the answer, and could clearly channel it into language in a linear order of events, I don't think the mind would buy into it. See, semantics really get weird in this realm, cause frankly, language and the ability to think in general (as we know it) tend to dissolve at the level of ego death, at least that is my experience.

     I guess its interesting to talk about, but imagine if you could say with confidence that you knew the answer. What a total reversal of the spiritual path would that be! Bah, maybe i'm projecting my own arrogance here. My issue with it, is that through various chemical doorways and various methods of meditation, I have been left feeling that the heart of the Tibetan Book of the Dead is a foregone conclusion, and so it is with my close friends who are on this path, but we all sometimes share the same fear, what if my experiences of seeing through the illusion of the most mystical visions are just another hallucination? What if the Tibetans are wrong? What a conundrum!

Perhaps the historical Buddha's response is more appropriate, and I am paraphrasing here, "sit down and find out for yourself".

Eboka Talk / Re: I want to take ibogaine every week
« on: September 10, 2013, 04:47:01 PM »
Allan Watts did sometimes come off as a little know-it-all, but I still think his books and lectures brought much understanding in my life that I otherwise would not have learned as soon as I did. He was an alcoholic, but then again, so was Chogyam Trungpa, but it doesn't diminish the effects of sharing their wisdom.

Pranayama and super consciousness (sold as transcendental meditation here in the west) are both great methods of establishing a sustained, grounded state following a flood. I did this after aya, mushrooms and dmt breakthroughs, and it worked rather well, but I took it for granted, overextended myself, and burned myself out. So, I am going to flood soon, in hopes that I can get a fresh slate to initiate an integration period that makes it easy to stay grounded while practicing meditation.

PM me if you want me to share the actual method of super consciousness, including the mantra and how to use it. I learned nsr, which uses a modified mantra based on neuroscience, and it works pretty well, its just all about commitment and discipline.


Eboka Talk / Ibogaine metabolism
« on: August 23, 2013, 12:59:33 PM »
Hey guys, first post here, Cal stole me from topia and after ten years of studying the effects in literature, I figured its time to take it further. For now, my first batch will be taken as recommended, without any alterations to the metabolism.

However, I like to do my research very much ahead of experimentation. That being said, I want to discuss maximizing the potency of this plant through enzymatic inhibition. So, from my limited sources on the matter of ibogaine metabolism, the general consensus is that the cytochrome p450-2d6 is responsible for breaking it down to noribogaine. Ive done some searching here, and I have seen a few threads mentioning inducing the p450-2d6 enzyme to speed up ibogaine to noribogaine conversion. Although I am aware of the clinical findings regarding the potency of noribogaine, it stands to reason that inhibiting ibogaine metabolism with something like cimetadine will both increase oral bio-availability and extend the effects of ibogaine WITHOUT degrading the experience or enjoyment (however you view it) of noribogaine when it is finally metabolized.

My question is, has anyone used cimetadine with the rootbark, if so, care to share your results?

Anyone have any comments on possible side effects or results? (excluding the obvious side effects of a high dosage without potentiation)

The reason why I mentioned cimetadine instead of any other natural plant is because the dosage is easy to be consistent with, and I have previous experience taking it a half hour before adderall when I was prescribed it for my overnight newspaper route, followed by a full time course load.

Other than that, I have spent a few days lurking and I very much like what I have read thus far and I appreciate Cal for directing me here. Oh, and no worries, I dont plan on any potentiation anytime soon, and I dont recommend it to anyone because it does seem like it can have disastrous results if not done right, just figured it would be nice to cut the cost down considering how expensive it can be.

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