Why has activity on this site screeched to a halt?
First time posting in a long time...
Last year when I was still obsessing about iboga, I wondered the exact same thing. I would say the key members of this forum that kept it alive are now gone or not posting regularly and creating the community spirit that kept this forum thriving from about 2010-2014 where you could log in everyday and check a new message. I could name names but those who were on would know the regulars. I was one of them and one of the most unruly and erratic posters that caused a lot of dissension.
Something had to give and I quit cold turkey by stop reading iboga forums. I may have lurked a few times last year, but I think this guy summed up why I should quit iboga. Read
Farewell DMT and replace the DMT with iboga. And the funny thing is that I'm still not able to stay off the drug forums by not lurking.
And you know to get over this, I would replace this whole online community with a real life community like Alcoholic Anonymous or Sex & Love Addicts which is a 12 step support group. Actually I have been going to both groups almost every day for the past two months and am amazed how much it's affected me just from working the first 5 steps (don't have a sponsor, accountability, or done inventory yet).
What I found in AA that relates to iboga is that I have an "alcoholic mind" with iboga. Last time I did a flood was back in 2009. I've microdosed a few times during those years, but year after year, I kept on reading flood reports, every online iboga forum, kept up with every new post, done online activism to preserve iboga sustainability, talked to people casually about iboga.
While iboga isn't addictive as alcohol where you need a drink every day to function, the way the Big Book describes the "mental obsession" is what I've experienced with iboga. I way way to obsessed to seek iboga as detoxing my mental patterns, wondering if I did another flood dose things would change, seeking that catharsis that many report after a flood.
Well after going to AA I didn't realize that there is the hard work of actually doing the steps. You don't need a controlling spirit in a 3 day ordeal to show you all your faults and character defects, but can work with a sponsor over the process of working the steps and when you get to Step 9, you make amends to those you have caused harm. There hasn't been anything like that on here, just people posting anecdotal experiences and talking about what supplements they changed or what spiritual practice they are doing. You don't get to see people on a day to day basis and have accountability.
Facebook?
I've quit posting cold turkey for a year which was hard going through withdrawals by lurking multiple times a day. These days I don't read any iboga forums other than checking here once in a while. This was one of the best forums to discuss iboga back in the day compared to Mindvox or the FB forums which was just a lot of banter.
Has the demand for anonymous iboga discussion totally dropped?
I don't know, but I do know that a lot of psychedelic talk has gone over to reddit. I'm still not over iboga and psychedelics because of the new trend of microdosing that started in 2015 and is getting more popular today. I've tried that this year after replacing an SSRI and it worked quite well. And now I'm trying to quit because I'm using the tools of sobriety of AA and the positive changes of general diet and exercise, and most importantly talking to God and having a daily relationship with Him which I haven't made a regular practice.
Mostly the talk is about microdosing mushrooms/LSD, but I did notice that there was people seeking iboga microdosing information.
Does it matter? Do we care?
Great questions, I've been wondering the same thing. I'll start caring after I get to the 9th step and start doing inventory and making amends by posting here if this forum is still around something along the lines of changing my life controlling issues after being an iboga addict for 10 years or something.
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