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General Discussion / loperamide and iboga
« on: March 11, 2012, 08:05:40 PM »
So I won't go too deep into the self shaming, but here I am again, after 5 floods and scores of microdoses back on the opium. I have a bit of TA on hand, but not nearly enough for a flood. I have been reading a great deal about using loperamide(immodium) to ease withdrawal and I was wondering if anyone has ever taken micro doses with this drug?

Eboka Talk / Flood number 5 this weekend
« on: April 08, 2011, 09:04:56 AM »
If I could get some positive intentions sent my way I would much appreciate it. This will be my 5th flood and I am confident it will stick better than the last ones did.

I remember when I first did ibogaine last February my provider shared with me that he had done it 5 times before he had stayed clean. I couldn't believe it, I was still under the impression that it was a 'magic bullet' and would only take me one time. Well, I have learned a great deal over this past year; detoxing, retoxing, staying clean, getting dirty. I will not repeat my same mistakes.

See you all in the center of the galaxy.

Eboka Talk / Dimitri busted in Seattle
« on: March 10, 2011, 09:18:50 AM »

I saw this posted on the shroomery earlier today. I can't say it's too shocking really, after staring in a feature length documentary all about the illegal activities he takes part in. Hopefully he can get it worked out without having to sit in jail.


Eboka Talk / strange cyclical synchronicity
« on: February 16, 2011, 07:17:40 AM »
So one year and six days ago, 2/10/10 I first took ibogaine. It fully ended a 10 year opiate run and gave me a completely new lease on life. My wife took it four days later 2/14/10, Valentines day, and we both stayed off opiates for about three months.

After three months we started chipping and eventually ended up as bad as we started in the fall. At that point we got more ibogaine and cleaned up again. We got 13g of TA, which kind of gave us the excuse to chip all this winter. We were only off opiates for a few weeks and then started going on and off, taking the TA to relieve symptoms and get better for a week here and there.

So now it is February again and we are down to the last of our TA. We realize that it is now or never, I love ibogaine but I don't want to always rely on it. We didn't have enough to flood so we have been taking micro doses.

Here is the crazy part. By total chance, no planning what so ever I quit opiates on 2/10, six days ago, and my wife on 2/14. The exact same days we did it last year.


Eboka Talk / Back to the old ways: time for another flood
« on: January 28, 2011, 09:06:38 AM »
So once again my wife and I have slid back into the depths of opiate addiction. Seems like we are good for about a month after flooding, then slowly we start chipping and by two months post flood we are back at it full time.

The thing is, life has been really good for us lately. We are making a transition with our business that seems very promising and we are very excited. We are talking very seriously about trying to conceive a child this spring. The future seems brighter than ever, but still be allow ourselves to be dragged down by the opiates.

Sometime in the next few days I'm going to lay down for a good strong flood dose, hopefully this time it will stick.

Eboka Talk / Eboka for eating disorders
« on: December 26, 2010, 01:09:36 PM »
My wife and I may soon be doing a treatment for a friend of hers who is struggling with an eating disorder. I seem to recall a post on here asking about the effectiveness of ibogaine on these sorts of problems.

Anyone have any personal experience or a direction they may be able to point me in to learn more about this specific use?

The Muse / Some member poetry
« on: November 07, 2010, 09:52:17 AM »
Here are a few I wrote after my first and second floods respectively.

last full moon of winter

Oh Demeter I've cried with you
When I was still just a young fool
On the edge of a precipice deep
I nodded sweetly off to sleep

In the dark of a moonless night
She feels her child, but no sight
Persephone bound in torture and rape
Mother can offer no escape

Escape for Mother can be attained
Relief from her Heart's greatest pain
Plucking a poppy from her crown
She hears a scream from beneath the ground

Can this be my Persephone hark?
Cries the great Mother in the dark
But their screams are too far to meet
And they must face the great defeat

She walks the path back to her hearth
And brews the tea which warms her Heart
The tea has steeped, she takes a sip
And eases the quivering of her lip

Greatest sadness a daughter lost
Miles below the glistening frost
But only from lost, one may claim
Can come the joy of found again

I am awakened from my sleep
And gaze down the precipice deep
The view makes my stomach bend
But it is good to be awake again

 The big 5

I seek a cup of flesh and bone
I seek my mother and my home
I wander the earth in search of these
Over the mountains and through the trees

To find a blade of the hardest steel
It swings like a gust when aimed to kill
And when the sword has found it's aim
I stand victorious, I lay my claim

Where is this coin of the purest gold?
That is for every man to hold
Most will dig a lifetime into the earth
Only to find they held it since birth

There is a stick that conjures flame
A budding rod by another name
And when this branch is in my hands
I shall burn brighter than any man

What lofty goals I have set
Of good and evil to forget
To rise into the aether high
My spirit shall fill the entire sky

General Discussion / taking ibogaine when not on opiates
« on: September 17, 2010, 11:15:32 PM »
So I think I am going to take a rather large booster tomorrow night, probably around 1.5g of the 70%TA that I have. I have never taken enough to approach flood levels while I was clean and am wondering if I should expect a somewhat different experience? I was guessing it would be alot smoother if I'm not fighting off withdrawls at the same time.

Need to get my self in the right mind set to heal my friend this coming week.

General Discussion / Iboga for alcoholism
« on: September 15, 2010, 12:37:05 PM »
So a good friend of mine has been struggling with alcohol for a very long time. He has always drank to excess, since he was a teenager(he's 27 now), but has only become physically dependent on it in the past year or so.

Earlier this spring we detoxed him at our house with ativan and poppy seed tea. It was pretty rough, obviously I couldn't feel what he was feeling, but it seemed much worse than any opiate detox I've ever went through. He got through it and stayed clean for 3 days.

We want to detox him again and once he is back up on his feet give him a flood dose. I understand it is advisable to wait a good long time after the detox before administering ibo. I assume this is because alcohol detox is so physically taxing and so is ibogaine, to do them at the same time would be very foolish.

What I would like to know is how long should we wait before giving the flood? The idea is really to just replace the booze with seeds, and then kick the seeds with the ibo. Although after only a week I doubt there would be much physical opiate dependence.

I understand alcohol detox is very dangerous stuff and is wisely delt with in a hospital. However he absolutely refuses to go that route and I still need to help him.

Eboka Journals / Reflections on my recent flood
« on: September 09, 2010, 03:40:53 PM »
   So it's been over a week and I've had some time to assimilate this whole experience and I must say it was very different from my first flood back in February.
    Even though I took 3.5g of 70% TA this time my first flood with only 1.5g of HCL was a more powerful experience. The trip it's self was way more intense this time, but it seems like the insights weren't quite as powerful. I chalk this up to the fact that before the first flood I hadn't been clean in 10 years, it was a dramatic change. This time I had only been using for a few months and not very heavily.
    I can honestly say I remember next to nothing about the trip. It started out so fast and after my first vision of the lion walking up and standing over me it all just started moving too fast. The vague details are this: I was in some sort of parallel universe or some sort of other world and I was having these strange social interactions with strange creatures, some people, some robots, some totally beyond description. That is about all I can say about it.
   As some of you may have read in my previous posts I got really sick this time too. I threw up at least 5 times, only once into a bucket. I had to get up to shit 6 or 7 times, but luckily made it every time. It was a punishing experience, just laid me out.
   The past week I have been feeling very good. I took a 1/3g booster a few days ago and haven't felt a need to take any more. I haven't really craved opiates, and if I have it was just a quickly passing thought.
   More so this time than the ibogaine giving me all kinds of insights, it just kind of reconnected me with the insights I was given last winter. My experience last winter was so fucking powerful and changed me so completely and totally I am not surprised that this one sort of paled in comparison.
   We have a goodly amount of TA this time so we will be able to do boosters for months if we want. I do think I'm going to do another flood too some time in the next few months. I really want to do a flood after I have been clean for some time, I think it will be very different and wonderful.

General Discussion / iboga and psilocybin
« on: September 05, 2010, 07:39:18 AM »
Anyone ever try it? I took a small booster this morning and I'm thinking about chomping down a few cubensis later this afternoon.

General Discussion / iboga and cannabis
« on: September 03, 2010, 10:07:01 AM »
I am wondering if anyone else here has smoked cannabis in the days following a treatment and noticed that it has little to no effect. I kind of remember even when micro dosing it seemed like it didn't have much effect, or an effect of a different character than normal.

I do think at very least it helps you sleep and relax a bit in the somewhat high strung days after. Last night I ate a goodly amount of canna-butter and I slept for at least 4 hours. Which is insane because after my first flood I didn't sleep for three days and even then for only an hour.

General Discussion / test doses
« on: September 01, 2010, 02:49:43 PM »
Do you guys think someone who has experienced ibogaine before still needs to take a test dose? I think my wife and I are going to anyway since our first time was HCL and this time is TA. I'm thinking with the extra alkaloids it would be smart to test.

General Discussion / tonight is the night
« on: September 01, 2010, 11:44:11 AM »
I should be departing around sundown. I'm going to start with 3.5g of (supposedly) 70% TA, with two more .5g caps at the ready if I feel I need to go deeper. I'll let yall know how it goes.

General Discussion / Second time around
« on: August 22, 2010, 02:05:47 PM »
So hopefully within a week or two my wife and I are going to have some TAE. Last February we took hcl to kick our suboxone habit and it worked very well. I took about 1.5g and she took about .75.

So this time is going to be a little bit different. We are not as severely addicted as before, and we have been taking poppy seed tea exclusively. I was wondering if we might be able to have the same flood effects from a smaller dose, and what an appropriate dose would be. I was thinking around 4 or 5gs for myself and around 3g for her.

I am hoping to use as little as possible for the floods so we can have more for micro-dosing over a long period of time.

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