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Eboka Journals / 12 hours until flood [MERGED]
« on: June 11, 2013, 01:40:21 PM »
Took the last pain pill at about noon and will plan to start dosing at about midnight. The withdrawals should be pretty well kicked in by then. I have been up to about 200 mg per day of oxycodone and OxyContin. I have been micro-dosing for several weeks at 600 mg to 1200 mg RB per day using a schedule of five days on and then a break of two days. This began for the purpose of tapering, but my discipline was lacking.

I capped up the HCL last night. Three capsules of 400 mg each and one capsule of 300 mg, for a total of 1.5 g. At my weight (about 180 pounds) this equals approximately 18 mg/kg. I will take the 300 mg first as the test dose and spread the rest over the next 3-4 hours.

This is my fourth flood. Iboga has always worked for me to eliminate withdrawals, but I relied on it too much as a magic cure, rather than committing to do my part in making life changes. I think I have a better approach lined up this time. I am looking forward to getting the "spiritual awakening" which has always been lacking during my prior three floods. I will follow-up with AA/NA meetings where I have always found strong reinforcement and support.

I will post when able to give an update of how things go. Thanks for all your help and support.

Eboka Journals / Making plans to do flood on Tuesday
« on: June 07, 2013, 03:44:09 PM »
I have my schedule cleared so that I can do my flood on Tuesday and have at least seven days with no work obligations. The kids will be in Saturday and/or Sunday for Father's Day weekend, but I figure I'll be a least halfway functional by then.

I am working on plans to "get ready", and also plans for the changes that will be needed after doing the flood. There are a lot of good recommendations here regarding vitamins, supplements, lifestyle and attitude changes etc. for things to do before the flood and after the flood. I think at this point I have read almost all of the posts ever made here. My biggest worry is following through and doing "my part" to make the lifestyle changes and attitude change that I think are necessary to avoid another relapse. However, in addition to the worry, there's also the excitement and looking forward to a life not dependent on pain pills.

I plan to also quit smoking cigarettes at the same time. I have flooded three times previous, and each time the desire to smoke pretty much ceased, but I didn't take the hint that I should just quit.

I am very much appreciative of this website and everyone here. There is a lot of knowledge here and a lot of generosity in sharing that knowledge.

Eboka Journals / Microdose experience and planning for flood
« on: May 29, 2013, 04:58:30 PM »
As I have posted previously, I am planning to do a flood dose as soon as my order of HCL arrives. This is my fourth flood in an effort to get off the pain pills. I have been micro-dosing root bark for several weeks to taper down, ultimately without success. I have some HCL left over from my last flood and last night I did a microdose of about 100-150 mgs. I did that at about 11 PM. Because I was worried about being able to go to sleep I also took two gabapentin because I know it makes me sleep. At any rate, I woke up at 10 AM and to my surprise had no withdrawal symptoms. It had been 14 hours since my last pain pill and normally I would've been in the beginning of withdrawal. When I sat up I realized that I had overdone it with the microdose as my head was spinning some and I had that sound of crickets in my ears (others describe it as a buzzing sound). When I stood up to walk I realized I was wobbly. I didn't take any pain pills until 2 PM when the withdrawal started to set in. It's now about 4 PM and the dizziness is gone and I feel good. I'm wondering if this sounds odd to any of you – going to sleep so hard and for so long after a microdose like this? Also, has anyone heard of any interaction between gabapentin and iboga?

As for the planned flood, my biggest worry is the amount of recovery time that will be necessary. I have a window of four days that is open. When I did my last flood in February I felt pretty good after three days. At this point I have been back on the pain pills about two months, which is about the same as the February flood. However, I've read here and elsewhere about a lot of different experiences in recovery time. I suppose the only answer under these circumstances is that "time will tell". Does anyone have any insight they are willing to share? Some of you have already shared suggestions and I am not ignoring that. If I thought it was possible, I would probably seek out a kambo treatment in combination with the iboga. It just isn't possible under my circumstances.

I am very serious about getting off these pain pills. They just turn me into a zombie and ultimately sap all my energy and ambition. I appreciate this website more than I can really express. I have read a lot on the web and this is the most informative place that exists. Thanks to all.

Eboka Journals / Taper not working---planning 4th flood
« on: May 22, 2013, 11:35:17 PM »
Flooded Feb 10 then slipped back in to use after maybe a few weeks. Thought I would use RB and do quick taper. Seemed to work at first but now I'm back up to 100mg per day oxy. I just ordered 2g HCL thinking I will need to flood and that MDing or boosters aren't going to cut it. The flood in Feb went smoothly. The guilt and feeling of stupidity are eating at me. Does anyone think doing another flood after 3 months is a problem? First flood was about 5 years ago to get off suboxone. Second was Aug 2012 but didn't know contraindication with recent Adderall use at time(prescribed) and had real tough time bouncing back. Haven't used Adderall since then. Any insights are appreciated.

Eboka Journals / Dealing with PAWS--nootropics help
« on: March 04, 2013, 09:20:54 PM »
Blue tiger says PAWS is a broad category and to be specific. For me it's a total lack of motivation, feeling no joy, can't concentrate worth a damn, don't want to be around people or talk to anyone. Feels like fatigue and just want to lay down, but can't go to sleep either. I feel like I'm an empty shell. Some days I'll get a burst in the afternoon and do ok, but that is rare.

I got some Noopept but got a bad headache. I think maybe I dosed too high. I looked at the stack JohnnyB is trying. His results sound great. But do those results equate to relief from PAWS? Some benefits he describes, like better memory, would help, but what about motivation/mood? I think if I could get a little better mood and motivation going i think I could get into a routine and get away from dwelling on my ills.

Any ideas?

Eboka Talk / Blizzard hitting here--will the mail come through?
« on: February 21, 2013, 11:39:22 AM »
My Noopept is suppose to be here today but a blizzard is hitting here so I wonder if the mail jeep can get down the road. It's day 13 and I'm doing better each day. Yesterday was a big leap forward. My wife had gone by the grocery store and was telling me how the checkout cashier asked her "What, no liquor?". The cashier had never seen so much booze bought on a Wed afternoon. It was people stocking up for the forcasted blizzard. I started laughing my ass off hearing the story and so was my wife. Before I know it we are upstairs taking a roll in the hay. We are in our mid 50s and been married 33 years. Spontaneous sex hasn't been on the menu for a few years. The point I'm making is that the laughter came naturally and kicked in some other brain chemicals apparently. Yeah, I'd say I'm feeling better.

Diet & Recipes / I Want A New Drug {Huey Lewis & The News}
« on: February 17, 2013, 12:30:55 PM »
These lyrics have jingled through my head off and on for years, but now more than ever. But it's a search for proper vitamins/ supplements to aide mind and body and improve mood. I've been doing many of the recommendations seen here and elsewhere. The problem is there are so many suggestions that it gets to be too much. I've got a health store in my cabinet. Tyrosine, Rhodiola, Theanine, valerian root, kava kava, passion flower, magnesium, melatonin. I know that looking for happiness in a bottle of pills is a wasted venture all by itself. I'm doing the other things like a healthy diet, exercise, and keeping a positive attitude. I'm trying to venture into meditation and yoga although I'm skeptical. I've considered kambo but would only do it with an experience healer. Thinking about acupuncure but think the key is finding the right expert.

My question comes back to where I started. What is the best supplement/method for improving mood and energy? I'm looking to make it more simple. Is there any consensus here?

Eboka Journals / Feeling blah--thinking of doing booster
« on: February 13, 2013, 12:13:08 PM »
Flooded 5 days ago and got good result. Mistakenly tried a little kratom yesterday morning. No benefit at all. Then 6 hours later feeling worse. Managed to drag my ass out of bed this morning and go to mass (Ash Wednesday), ate a good breakfast and have managed one walk. Feel a little better but still blah and kind of jumpy at the same time. I'm thinking about whether a booster is the right move. I have HCL left with some capsuled at one 200mg and the other 300mg. Any thoughts? Thanks.

Eboka Journals / Day 4 - Have to go to work so took a little kratom
« on: February 12, 2013, 12:21:05 PM »
It's been 4 days and I took a walk and did some light exercises. Don't feel bad and do have energy, but have that "porcupine" feeling I think Calaquendi described. Feel guilty about the kratom. Just took it. Just looking for a feeling of motivation and some joy in doing job. I really like what i do, or at least in the past I did. Been doing it for 30 years. I guess we'll see how it goes.

General Discussion / Waiting time between last use and flood?
« on: February 08, 2013, 01:24:16 PM »
What is the minimum time to wait from last use until flood? I am using it to get off oxycodone (not the long acting owycontin). Would 8 hours be enough?

Eboka Talk / HCl arrived--planning to flood
« on: February 05, 2013, 03:40:14 PM »
My order of 2g of HCL came in mail today. Last few days have cut down on the oxys. Two days ago went 24 hours with nothing. Had read that nuerontin (gabapentin) attenuates withdrawal so took 900mg about 12 hours from last oxy dose. Made me a little dizzy feeling, but had no significant withdrawal symptoms. I was very suprised by this.

Plan to flood with 1g which is a very low dose flood. Doing this level on advise of Michelle at IW. Then use rest for boosters. I had originally planned to use 1250mg which would equal 15mg/kg. I have at least 3 days open for flood. Worried about how long til able to function at work after the flood. I'm totally open to advise or comments from you all. I follow this forum daily with great interest.

Eboka Talk / Mini flood for relapse
« on: January 30, 2013, 09:46:53 AM »
Ordered 2g of HCL to do a flood for a recent relapse (Dec) and had planned on a low dose flood of 15mg/kg based on some advice here and other research. Michelle at IW suggests doing a mini flood with 1g and use the rest for boosters. 1g would be about 12mg/kg based on my weight of 185. I believe Michelle knows her stuff but would appreciate hearing what you all think. Thanks.

Eboka Journals / Wanting to flood again – have questions
« on: January 26, 2013, 08:21:50 PM »
I've been back on the pain pills for over a month now and have grown quite distraught over this and just being tired and unmotivated all the time. I did a flood back in August and it knocked me down real hard for over one month. I had been taking Adderall 60 mg per day and quit the Adderall only one day before doing the flood. Since then, I have been told by people here that the Adderall was a big problem and the reason I got my ass knocked down so hard.

My plan is to use HCL 15 mg/kilogram. I know this is on the low-end but have read of knowledgeable providers using and having success with lower dosages. My main question is what can I expect as to how long after the flood it will be before I will be functional. By functional, I mean able to work. I have an office job that is mentally demanding, but not physically demanding. Any additional advice or insight will be appreciated. Thank you.

General Discussion / Microdosing questions
« on: January 07, 2013, 06:48:53 PM »
Been microdosing to taper and get the mood  elevation and energy boost it seems like 4-5 hours after taking. is that  normal?

Eboka Talk / Advice needed: Flood or booster for a relapse?
« on: December 07, 2012, 01:43:00 PM »
Did a flood in Aug and stayed clean til about 30 days ago. I need advice whether a booster would help or whether I need to flood again. I feel stupid for the relapse but want to really quit. I'm at about 50-60 mg /day now. When quit in Aug was at 240 mg/day. I have about 500mg of HCL and 1g of TA left. Thanks for any advice.

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