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Eboka Journals / Microdosing TA: The Universe is in Bondage
« on: June 24, 2014, 03:49:07 AM »
Microdosing on Iboga, wondering when I will start to feel it, I am bending over on a chair, tying my sneakers. I am looking down at the criss-cross pattern of my black shoelaces against the foamy black tongue of the sneaker, binding it down safely over my foot. The image initiates a cascade of thoughts opening me into a new awareness of the world, an awareness of the beautiful Bondage that is Form binding Spirit into reality.

That which binds our spirits into physical form and emotionally into the drama of our life, keeps us safe, and drives us forward toward the light. It holds us down into manifestation that is Real in every sense of the word. The darkness is not a vacuum in which we get lost, but a cocoon which transforms us. The mummification which we fear is not damnation, but safe and nurturing like a blanket holding a newborn baby's arms and legs against his body.

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I've been microdosing for the past 4 days--42mg Iboga TA once every 2 days.

Today was an "off" day, but as you know the effects of Iboga last for a long time. I took a mild maoi this morning, Rhodiola rosea. Normally this would be okay--it gives you good energy and motivation.

But today it was a redundant choice--Iboga already gives you good energy and motivation. I ended up getting a headache, uncomfortable heart palpitations, some muscle twitching, and at times blurry/fuzzy vision. And the headspace was weird. I felt like a hammer. It's hard to explain.

Anyway, some other weak maois you should avoid while taking Iboga: Passionflower, St. John's Wort... heck... just stay away from ANY mind-altering substance, no matter how subtle, while you're doing Iboga, and leave a 5 day window (at least) afterwards before you start taking anything.

Iboga likes to work alone. It covers all your bases anyway.

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The Muse / New Four Tet Music Video ... for UNICEF
« on: June 21, 2014, 12:43:45 PM »
So here I am microdosing Iboga, just as it kicks in, I come across this new video posted by Four Tet on Facebook:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lk7CFuZfAI&feature=youtu.be

It... yeah. I cried.

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Eboka Talk / The Eyes of this Bwiti Shaman
« on: May 16, 2014, 12:00:46 AM »
I just wanted to share this video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3s6xiDEqsjU

I saw it a few years ago, and I remember that the eyes of the Iboga shaman (the narrator) had struck me, left a deep impression on me.

For years afterwards, I tried to find the video again to see the eyes again, but I could not find it. Today I found it again, and the eyes again fascinate me.

They are so clear. They are so sure, yet they can bask in the unknown. They are so child-like, yet filled with responsibility fueled by Love. This is a person who is one person. The eyes beckon, and are pure. It's nothing extreme, just really well-balanced. His voice also reflects this clarity and balance. It doesn't call attention to itself. It serves the information it conveys.

I am gradually being called back to Iboga. This next time, I will make sure I am ready. Patience. Maybe in 6 months, maybe 2 years, maybe 5. I want to remember everything I've already known.

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General Discussion / Salvia or Iboga for Psychedelic Re-Grounding
« on: December 24, 2013, 12:44:25 PM »
I also posted this in the Salvia forum on the DMT Nexus, but I think it also could apply to Iboga, as another kappa-opioid agonist: https://www.dmt-nexus.me/forum/default.aspx?g=posts&m=511236&#post511236

In my experience, these substances take ones consciousness *down* into self-knowledge, rootedness, bare pragmatism, and physicality. As opposed to tryptamines, MDMA and other psychedelics, which *elevates* one into more ethereal, energetic realms of boundless love and perception.

The Yin and Yang analogy could work here; classical psychedelics are expansive and elevating, whereas Salvia and Iboga are contractive and grounding.

Anyway, my point is that I feel that these substances could help someone who has been feeling ungrounded from a psychedelic experience--someone who wishes to reconnect with their pragmatism and not be thinking in terms of spirituality all the time.

Why do I think this?

a) I once read a report of someone coming down instantly from meth-induced psychosis (or was it cocaine-induced?) after smoking a bowl of Salvia.

b) My personal experience is that I feel more grounded, perceptive, and serene after taking Salvia. During the experience, I am able to analyze my own spiritual-type thinking. It's as if these thoughts reach a climax and I see how they play out in my mind, usually in silly or weird ways. In the aftermath of the experience, I am able to see that those thought patterns were getting in the way of me living my life happily. They gradually slip away, like knots that have been untied.
 
c) Kappa-opioid agonism is correlated with reduction in OCD-like symptoms. And I believe that obsession with spiritual ideals (gratitude, unconditional love, being in-the-moment) could be a form of OCD. Of course these things are important, but sometimes people obsess.

Your thoughts?

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Eboka Talk / Tyramine-containing Foods and Ibogaine
« on: October 15, 2013, 06:29:21 PM »
So I was just recently microdosing with Iboga TA, and I happened to have some anchovies, which are high in tyramine. I had them twice, and both times, I became profoundly fatigued, emotional, and with worrisome pain and discomfort in my chest. Not something I want to repeat. I posit that it would be a good idea to avoid tyramine-containing foods while on Iboga, leaving a space of about a week separating the ingestion of the two.

http://www.puzzlepiece.org/ibogaine/literature/raymondhamet1940b.pdf

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Eboka Talk / Testosterone Theory of Iboga
« on: October 11, 2013, 10:06:22 AM »
I have a theory... that taking Iboga induces a rise in free testosterone in the body. Can anyone verify this? I'd like to see people testing their blood for testosterone before and after trips to see if there's any difference.

My reasoning? It just seems that the mental state following Iboga--that of clarity, groundedness, peace and self-esteem--is characteristic of a healthy level of testosterone; and one's mental state before Iboga--sort of the opposite of the abovementioned feelings, including addiction, which drive people to take Iboga--is characteristic of low testosterone.

Thoughts? Blood tests?

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The Muse / Drumming I did on my second flood
« on: October 09, 2013, 04:26:45 PM »
This is some drumming I did on my ashiko on the tail end of my accidental second flood on 1g TA. Any parts that aren't exactly in time are due to my arthritis. I hope you enjoy.

EDIT: Oh, the link would be helpful wouldn't it? haha... http://danielwininger.bandcamp.com/album/ashiko-improv-11-18-12

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Eboka Talk / Is Cannabis Contraindicated with Iboga in any way?
« on: October 09, 2013, 07:06:22 AM »
I intend to microdose with Iboga TA while doing edible medical marijuana. I feel like that's a lot of brain cell apoptosis. Has anyone done this and been mentally okay?

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Eboka Talk / Thinking about another Flood (Long Post)
« on: September 21, 2013, 11:56:08 PM »
Hi everyone--
It's time I checked in, especially since I am considering another flood.

I flooded in February 2011 for spiritual, health, and relationship reasons. I purged and my rheumatoid arthritis went away for a day or so, but came back. The whole experience blew my mind apart, and was very very intense. I gained a particular groundedness, though.
I boosted a week later, and microdosed a couple months after that.

Then, in January 2013, I took 1g of TA, basically alone. I thought I was microdosing, but I had taken the wrong pill. Regardless, it was a transformative, scary, but ultimately renewing experience. It had many qualities of a flood.

I had been abstaining from orgasm as a spiritual practice/for mental and emotional health for a couple months prior. I continued abstaining. My consciousness was becoming incredibly lucid, defined, grounded, and powerful.

Then, in April 2013, I drank Salvia tea for the first time. The afterglow was nothing like I had ever experienced. I felt incredibly balanced, awake, in love with the universe, completely 100% sure of my place and purpose in the universe. My life was far from perfect, but I had a clear vision of the future and the past. The best way I can describe the afterglow is that everything seemed incredibly real. Reality was Here. I had fully arrived into reality.

4 days later, I felt ripe for a mushroom trip, so I did that with a friend. It was the right decision. Incredible lucidity, love, hope, etc. By far the best mushroom trip to date.

4 days after that, I was becoming restless, though still quite happy. I felt like I had tapped into a reality, an energy that was far above what everyone else was used to. The tension between my clarity and the mental habits of others was rising. So that night, I decided to address this uneasiness by asking the Salvia tea for guidance again.

I found myself not really into the experience. It was uneventful and not very insightful. Regardless, I drank the whole cup, wishing to put my consciousness in an innocent-newborn like state.

Then a friend came into my room and talked about some sentimental spiritual thoughts she was having. I tried to be compassionate, but I ended up attempting to dismantle her attachments, akin to the spirit of the Salvia. She left the room, mostly unfazed.

The main effects wore off, and across my hall (I live in a college dorm), my neighbor and his extremely depressed, angry friend were drinking themselves into a punk-music-worshipping frenzy, shouting and banging furniture around, singing at the top of their lungs, carrying a lot of negative energy. The friend, let's call him C, was out of control.

Feeling somewhat serene and able to handle the situation, I knocked on the door. It opened and I began politely asking them to keep it down for my sake. As I was speaking, C was yelling at me, insulting me in many ways. I continued talking, and tried to reason with him. Hah!

He grabbed my hand, stuck a beer in it, shoved me out the door, about 3 feet backwards. I didn't respond, and he slammed the door, further pushing my body out of the room. I think this happened twice. We met a few minutes later in the hall. He was still insulting me, and I deflected his insults, trying to appeal to his good nature, i.e. insulting his propensity for insulting. I walked away.

What happened next is subtle, I think. I tried to cope with it, reminding myself that they were being assholes and it had nothing to do with me personally. I went in my room, waited out their mindless "partying," sat in front of my computer and ate about a half a pound of smoked salmon bits. Most certainly stress-eating. I closed the computer and went to bed.

As I went to bed I marveled at the fact that I had homocidal thoughts. I hated C. He was a jerk, and he knew it, but proceeded to make other people's lives miserable. I wanted him dead. I fantasized about stabbing him in the chest. Then I reminded myself that of course, I would never ever do such a thing, and that he would eventually, perhaps lifetimes from now, see the light. And with that thought, I drifted to sleep.

I woke the next morning, and something was different. The tapestry on my wall hung, lifeless. It stared at me blankly with patterns that could have been any pattern, I didn't give a shit.

I didn't give a shit.

About anything. Anyone. I thought of my mother, and I knew all the facts about our history, but I didn't feel connected to her, or anyone. The bright mind, piercing gaze, and full heart I had up until then had completely vanished. I did not feel excited about anything. I felt mentally stupid and emotionally retarded. I felt like I had become just another human animal. I couldn't cry--I was panicking.

Reality was no longer real to me. I operated my body like a puppet. I went through the motions of school as best I could, but it was extremely difficult to concentrate. Partially because I was terrified that I had done some permanent damage to my consciousness.

A week later, I cried in front of a girl friend who cared(s) much about me. It was quite therapeutic, and grounded me a little, but my mind still felt vacant. Very very vacant.

Weeks passed, then months, and I've felt the same. I keep waiting for a relief moment where my consciousness and reality click back together, but it hasn't happened yet. Sometimes it maybe happens, but then it fades quickly. My face has changed; when I look in the mirror, my eyes look dull, my face blank and sagging. I am 24.

Since then, I've only had one real trip: 4-aco-dmt. It was immensely positive, and changed my life for the better, I believe. That said, the way I relate to that life of mine remains disconnected as before.

Today, I have learned to smile, and I feel like I have created a pretty convincing facade, but I feel disconnected from it. I am acting out of fear most of the time. I am afraid. I would like to begin acting out of love again. Real love.

I microdosed 3 times before school started this Fall, and that was a spiritually productive week and a half. I'd like to think it has helped heal my sense of depersonalization/derealization (yes, I said it), but I'm not quite sure.


I would like to flood again. Perhaps not TA this time, maybe Ibogaine HCl. The TA was pretty rough on my body both floods. Would HCl be gentler? I would like to purge, still, definitely.

I am also planning on going to Peru for three months this January to work with a medicine woman to try to cure my rheumatoid arthritis. She uses ayahuasca very gently- starting small and working up, while administering various other herbs from the jungle in between sessions. I've spoken to a woman she healed from breast cancer.

I feel a strong affinity, loyalty toward Iboga. I listen to the Bwiti Files and they make me happy. Something tells me the Iboga should come BEFORE the ayahuasca, not after.


If you have any response to *any* of this, it will be much appreciated. I am still not sure what happened that night, or what is wrong with me, or really about anything. Thank you for reading.

<3 ?

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I posted the following on Bluelight.ru, but I feel it also belongs here, as it involves Iboga.

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I have made a few observations. One is that with classical psychedelics, the afterglow seems inherently tied up with tolerance, lasting for usually about a week after the trip. One way to determine how much tolerance you have from a previous trip is to ask yourself how much afterglow you are still feeling from it.

Second, I've discovered, at least for myself, that taking a kappa-opioid agonist, such as Salvia or Iboga, in the wake/afterglow of a tryptamine experience, is a recipe for a negative experience. One that will leave you feeling shitty. Real shitty.

On the other hand, taking a tryptamine or phenethylamine in the wake of a kappa opioid agonist experience, is a recipe for an immensely positive experience, with the best afterglow ever.

In my experience this is a repeatable experiment. I don't know what is happening neurochemically, but psychospiritually, I think it has to do with the fact that the afterglow involves reintegrating psychedelic openness into the ego, which Salvia and Iboga wantonly dismantle (in a more aggressive way than tryps/phens). On the other hand, after Salvia, one is left pretty open and receptive, with ones sense of identity not fully determined. This is an ideal mental space for work with tryps/phens.

Does anyone else share this observation? I mean, I've noticed that people who hate Salvia the most are people who tryp often...

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Eboka Talk / Ayahuasca after Iboga?
« on: August 24, 2013, 12:24:40 AM »
I've been microdosing Iboga for a short while now. I took 83mg Iboga TA 8 days ago, and then another 83mg 5 days ago. I've been processing the fuck out of my life.

How long do you think I should wait until I do Ayahuasca? I have been wanting to for a while.

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I've noticed that my sense of balance as well as body coordination is improved while microdosing. And before, it was starting to falter, due to I think my rheumatoid arthritis, but also possibly the side effects of the anti RA meds I've been on.

Could subthreshold Iboga be used to treat loss of balance in the elderly? My Grandma is having trouble with her balance, and the pharmaceutical meds she's taking isn't working.

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Eboka Talk / How much TA = 300mg rootbark?
« on: June 29, 2013, 07:58:58 AM »
Hi yall. I have 0.5g of TA. How would I break this up if I wanted to microdose with it?

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Eboka Talk / Iboga vs Ibogaine
« on: April 15, 2013, 11:01:36 PM »
Do you notice any qualitative differences between Iboga TA and Ibogaine HCl? If so, what are they?

I've only experienced Iboga TA, and it was quite intense and universal. People's reports of Ibogaine HCl seem possibly more personal, guided and cohesive. My Iboga TA experiences are always (well, the two of them were) disjointed and chaotic.

I'm wondering if Ibogaine HCl might provide a smoother or different experience than Iboga TA. Notice any difference between the two?
Thanks,
RS

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