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General Discussion / Re: Is this normal?
« on: February 12, 2011, 09:54:16 PM »
Thanks for all the input! I'm composing a shopping list for tomorrow: Grapes, cucumber, melon, carrots, beets, kale...

Also, aside from my physiological state I'm concerned about my psychological state. Parts of the Iboga experience were very scary. Coming down and trying to go to sleep, I had a few panic attacks, the first I've had in a long time. I would fear that I had lost my consciousness/went crazy/became possessed, etc. I remember laying in bed for minutes being terrified and totally convinced that I was evil and there was nothing I could do about it. It left me with sort of a dead feeling, like a weight has been added to my chest rather than lifted from. It's like a mix between heavy responsibility and impending doom.

Is THIS normal? I just want to feel light and free...

I'm hoping I'm still in the dead/zombie-feeling phase of the experience and I'll wake up and I'll feel fine again, but I can't help but worry...

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General Discussion / Re: Is this normal?
« on: February 12, 2011, 07:02:39 PM »
Ugh. Because the time distortion is SO SO huge, I feel like weeks have passed since I took the iboga, so I feel like I SHOULD be eating by now. In fact, I already have eaten three apples, almond butter, some bread, some greens, tahini, and falafel against my actual desires, and I feel bad for doing so. I hope it did not interfere with the natural integration process. It feels like it did a little. Regret.

Word on the water/juice thing. I wish I had juice. In fact, one of the messages i got telepathically from the iboga experience was "fruit juice is good." I kid you not.

Ugh the time distortion is a little hard to get used to. I will though.

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General Discussion / Is this normal?
« on: February 12, 2011, 06:02:27 PM »
I'm a little concerned about this- I ingested 2.6 of iboga TA Wednesday night (I'm writing the report as we speak) and I just realized-- I have yet to experience any thirst since ingesting. Or hunger (which is less worrisome).

There is a feeling of hardness in my chest, my lips are very chapped, my throat and mouth is dry, so I'm sure I don't have enough water. My tongue hurts and and I can barely taste.

Ooh also, in my purging I don't think I purged everything- is it possible something got stuck in my esophagus? I know it's a silly question, but it's almost what it feelings like...

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Eboka Talk / Re: Iboga 101 - Spiritual Use: Preparations and Approaches
« on: February 08, 2011, 02:28:59 AM »
Thanks for everyone's input.
I did some introspection the other night when I was dealing with "I should fast, fasting is spiritual" and also "I'm hungry and skinny and I should eat." I realized there is no absolute, only the absolute of what I want at the deepest level. I decided to eat according to what I REALLY wanted, not what I thought I wanted to or what would satisfy things other than hunger, such as anxiety or boredom.

Realizing that my appetite is rather sluggish (due to not exercising for the past few months (due to arthritis)), I decided to eat lightly, when my stomach felt ready. So far my staples have been apples, avocados and coconut water. It is monday night, and I plan to flood wednesday night. Eek!

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Eboka Talk / Re: Iboga 101 - Spiritual Use: Preparations and Approaches
« on: February 06, 2011, 01:41:50 PM »
If I may, I'd like to ask about fasting.

Is it okay to fast about a week before an Iboga flood? Has anyone here done that before? Would it be too taxing on the body? Or would it make for a really clear, positive experience? Btw I am 21, weigh 118 pounds, and have fasted several times before for up to 10 days.

Or a 3 day fast perhaps?

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Introductions / Re: RhythmSpring Here. Hi!
« on: January 24, 2011, 12:03:16 AM »
As for Lyme Disease why not get a blood test to rule it in or out? 

I have had several lyme tests. Some are positive. Some are negative. All have a reputation for being innacurate. Lyme disease is one of the trickiest, most difficult to diagnose/treat diseases out there. I'm doing the best I can  ;)

As far as arthritis when you do a flood you often experience a 30 day pain free period.  Sometimes when there is no pain for 30 days your body gets retrained and you do not expect to feel the pain. 

Wow! Um, wow.

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Introductions / Re: RhythmSpring Here. Hi!
« on: January 23, 2011, 11:29:34 AM »
Whoa! That IS good news.

The bark... is this what you're talking about? http://www.shamanic-extracts.com/xcart/shamanic-ethnobotanicals/iboga/

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Introductions / RhythmSpring Here. Hi!
« on: January 23, 2011, 03:09:19 AM »
Hi Friendly Iboga-people!

My name's Dan, and I'm interested in Iboga for spiritual self-improvement purposes. I don't have any chemical dependency issues, but I certainly do have a rather large burden of addictions to the internet, food (emotional eating) and negative thought patterns. This last one is the main thing that's driven me to seek out Iboga. Sometimes I have incredibly intense periods of being extremely hard on myself.

An important fact about myself is that I have near-crippling rheumatoid arthritis and/or lyme disease. I am in a sea of fatigue that I've just gotten used to, I have a racing mind, and worst of all, severe pain and inflammation in all my major joints, including my jaw. The inflammation has not reached my fingers (or my toes), fortunately--I am a passionate hand drummer and pianist and composer.

Another important fact about me: I strongly believe my mental/emotional hindrances and woes are connected to my physical condition. Having tried many many things to abate my arthritis, I now look to Iboga as a possible cure. I'm not counting on it, don't get me wrong. But I know that it couldn't hurt.

With me I carry perfectionism, hopelessness, complete and utter frustration with authority, and bitterness. I've experienced harrowing moments of ultimate paranoia and desolation, and I wish to get the bottom of that. Especially now. I'm 21, at a clear crossroads in my life. The time is ripe (perhaps overdue) for a genuine coming-of-age experience.

I've experimented sparingly with some other psychedelics: Ayahuasca (once), DMT (~10 sub-breakthrough), Mushrooms (twice), Salvia (~25 times sub-breakthrough), Mescaline (3), Peyote (1.5 times), LSD (twice), LSA (once), MDMA (~7 times). These things have given much insight into myself, but with them I haven't dug as deeply as I intend to with Iboga.

I'm frustrated because I want to do this ASAP. There is an increasing sense of urgency in my life. But I am broke, and it looks like only a gram of Ibogaine costs 200 dollars. Inflated prices or what?

Love and Surrender,
RS

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