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Eboka Talk / Re: Iboga and therapy
« Last post by andreas1717 on June 29, 2018, 01:45:36 AM »
Hey Bluetiger!

Thanks for your response! I agree on going with my gut (of course that is always the way to go). About a month after the flood dose, I realized therapy was just a vital need for me. Id never spoken to anyone about my problems (crazy i know) so Iboga showed me that how this was a basic human need. So I think i need some therapy in this way, just an outlet to express my human emotions.. not necessarily a way to "solve a problem".

You are so right when you say heart health, that is exactly what it comes down to in my sessions! Ive been working on speaking from my heart in a safe environment, which helps me do so more in everyday life. In this way I think therapy is great. A funny observation is that I find myself wanting my therapist to contribute her thoughts and feelings. Iboga showed me the importance of community and sharing and i think this means a two way conversation when it comes to feelings. It feels slightly strange me just pouring my feelings on to her.

Thanks for the inspiring words! You are right, if we feel something isn't serving us anymore, its time to move on!

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Micro-Dosing / Re: Questions about other meds before microdosing
« Last post by OdysseyIII on June 29, 2018, 12:19:28 AM »
Thanks for hearing me out, y'all!

I was planning to start at 100mg for the first dose and see how I respond before increasing.

No, I'm not physically addicted to any one substance. I think I have an addictive mindset, convincing myself I can't sleep without valerian, melatonin and ambien.
And that I can't be social without a few drinks or phenibut or VERY rarely, a little white line.
And that I can't have sex without tongkat ali and sildenifil.
And that I can't release anxiety without a drink or kava.
And that I can't feel anything other than sadness without kratom, even if it's only for a few hours.   

To summarize, I just don't care anymore. About anything; parenting, sex, music, beauty, nature, vacations, food. The only reason I'm still around is because my tween daughter needs her dad. I won't give up. I'm hoping the iboga can help me correct all that. Seems like I've tried everything else, SSRIs, SNRIs, tricyclics, MAOIs, antipsychotics, benzos, CBD, lots of herbs, nootropics, etc (I've been at this a LONG time.)  I even had THREE series of ketamine infusions and got nothing out of them other than a few hours of legalized tripping.

None of my current "tools" have a very long half-life. Am I missing something about metabolization? ("Damn it, Jim! I'm a musician, not a doctor!") The half life of adderall (not XR) is ~10 hours and the last dose I took five days ago was only 7.5mg. I never took more than 30mg a day, which was rare, and always split in two.  This last week, I get sleepy mid-morning and late afternoon without it. Can't use caffeine because it causes more anxiety.
 
I guess my wording on the kava and kratom was a bit dramatic; I don't NEED them to function, it's just that without them I'm even more of a depressed and/or anxious mess. I've convinced myself that I can't get by without them.  (Sometimes I think I'm more addicted to the morning and afternoon process of toss n washing than I am to the chemicals themselves.) I'm only taking 8-10g of kratom a day (six days a week), MUCH lower than the folks on the r/quittingkratom subreddit. 

Also, I have ZERO spirituality so I'm worried that iboga won't work for me if I don't understand the sacredness of the plant. At least that's what I've read on a lot of iboga sites.

Other than all that, I'm pretty healthy. I go to the gym, get regular blood labs and checkups, I don't eat sugar or grains, drink plenty of water.  I don't have a reason for taking care of my body, mind you (well, maybe vanity), it's just another habit.

Thanks again for listening.

 
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Micro-Dosing / Re: Questions about other meds before microdosing
« Last post by RhythmSpring on June 28, 2018, 10:12:32 PM »
So yeah, BlueTiger and I are on the same page. Quit Kava and Kratom well before introducing iboga.

And do your research on the half-lives of your other meds.
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Micro-Dosing / Re: Questions about other meds before microdosing
« Last post by RhythmSpring on June 28, 2018, 10:09:37 PM »
You might be addicted if you need kava and kratom to function. It's not a bad thing, it's just a physical dependency.

If you want to get the most insight out of your iboga, you have to stop "functioning," whatever that is (don't die) going into the iboga space. It is possible that whatever you consider as functioning could be the wrong path (making your anxiety worse) for you. Iboga will help you figure that out.
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Micro-Dosing / Re: Questions about other meds before microdosing
« Last post by BlueTiger on June 28, 2018, 08:31:10 PM »
Welcome OdysseyIII

You are not addicted, but you sure are on a lot of items.  Better to wait two weeks with the amps, so maybe at least another week for you.  Kratom is tough, I flooded for Kratom and it does not really block anything.  The experience was one of the worst I have ever had..nothing like the previous floods for fast acting, like vicodin. 

MDing and a good heart you should be fine. 

If I am you, I would wait one more week and not take any Kratom. 
Kava is also very hard on the liver so I definitely would avoid it as well. 

And you may not be able to work while MDing.  This is the father we are talking about. 
At first it will likely be fine, however, if you do it daily then  the accumulation will inevitably take you beyond a tipping point.  If you ate a gram of RB a day, you'd likely feel something by day 3 or 4 (but tough to tell with varying biochemistry). 

Again, welcome and feel free to message me if you rather anytime.  Peace. 
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Micro-Dosing / Questions about other meds before microdosing
« Last post by OdysseyIII on June 28, 2018, 12:47:27 PM »
Hey all,

I'm getting ready to start macrodosing RB powder for depression and anxiety. Not addiction or PTSD, so I don't think I need a flood, even if I COULD afford the time off to do it with a provider.

Trying to be as safe as possible, I have a couple of questions before I start:

Do I really need to get an EKG and liver panel for microdosing?  I've never had heart or liver issues, I'm in excellent PHYSICAL health.

I quit Cymbalta (tapered down for a week from 30mg), Adderall (15mg) and ambien (0.125mg) four days ago, is that long enough of a dry-out period?

I'm still taking small amounts of kava and kratom (plain leaf) because otherwise, I wouldn't be able to function. I also cut alcohol back to 2 drinks a night (from 4-5), but won't have any the night(s) before.   Will any of those be a problem?  I've seen conflicting information.

I had phenibut today (only take it once a week), how long does that need to be out of the system?

Will I be able to work while microdosing?

Thanks in advance for any and all responses. 
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Eboka Talk / Re: Iboga and therapy
« Last post by BlueTiger on June 22, 2018, 08:34:56 AM »
Hey everyone,

I'm happy to have found this site where people can share their experiences with Iboga. It is a truly amazing plant that seems relatively unknown, in comparison to other plant medicines. I think this is due to the difficulty of the experience that puts people off, as well as the difficulty in describing the experience afterwards.

Anyway, I took part in an iboga ceremony 3 months ago and I'm integrating the experience. These months have been hard but theyve led me to a lot of changes i needed to make in my life. Its like I'm constantly discovering new blockages in my psyche and learning to grow through them. I'm very guided by the truth that I now know.

One of the things I realized is my need for therapy. I have always bottled up emotions and "dealt with things" in silence. I really isolated myself from other. During my iboga experience I was shown the need for community and sharing, something I think is central to a lot of african cultures. And also something we have largely lost touch with in the West, where individualism is prized over community. I realize now I need others, and they need me. We as humans require intimate and honest connection.

To the point of my post. I have started therapy because there are things i just need to get off my chest. I can't keep them inside anymore. What is your experience with counseling? Did you find therapy hindered your experience with Iboga at all, as in creating more problems by talking rather than letting go of the "problem"? How did you find therapy works with Iboga? Necessary? Unnecessary? What are your thoughts?

Thanks for reading and again, I'm happy to be a part of this  online community :)


Hello Andreas and Welcome aboard!  Thanks for sharing.

Here's my thought on this.  It's completely subjective.  What does your gut tell you?
Searching for these answers from outside of you is less true than following your instinct, when it comes to matters so personal, complex, and intimate.

I isolate too, so you are not alone in an active effort to go against the grain and design that sense of community in life. 
I think it ties into heart health.

If we know what we want then we just need to go get it.  No need to dwell in the past when today and tomorrow have so much more to offer.  I think I am hearing your doubt in therapy and I agree!  If you doubt it than choose something else! 

Again, welcome goodsir!   I'll leave you with a quote from one of my favorite books,

“The continuing struggle was once described in the following metaphor by a patient who had successfully completed a long course of psychotherapy: 'I came to therapy hoping to receive butter for the bread of life. Instead, at the end, I emerged with a pail of sour milk, a churn, and instructions on how to use them.' (138)”
? Sheldon B. Kopp, If You Meet the Buddha on the Road, Kill Him: The Pilgrimage Of Psychotherapy Patients
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Micro-Dosing / Re: Microdosing without previous flood for depression
« Last post by Justbe on June 15, 2018, 12:10:05 PM »
I continued one more week without any more day off and I was feeling pretty good. However after two weeks I had often a blurred vision and as I need to drive a car I couldn’t continue microdosing. As an antidepressant I would say that iboga helped and when I have a better opportunity I will do it again. For those interested I continued with 50 mg and 70 mg TA and had actually no negative emotions or aspects except the blurred vision and a little trippy feeling at the beginning
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Staying Clean / Re: Pranayama & meditation
« Last post by BlueTiger on June 09, 2018, 08:39:31 PM »
Man, this was my kind of topic.  Been talking about the power of chanting Sat Nam here for awhile, and it seemed to fall upon deaf ears.  Would love to revive it.. thanks for posting this even it was some time ago.   
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Staying Clean / Re: Desert Island Supplements
« Last post by BlueTiger on June 09, 2018, 08:35:19 PM »
As far as Magnesium, I get the Epsom Salts 8lb bag for $5 at Walmart.  I don't know if you absorb magnesium through your skin well, but it's great for my back tension.

My friend from NYC sells a magnesium stick that you can charge up in distilled water and get magnesium that way.  Infographics and Youtube DIY videos here:  http://www.healingwaterbottle.com/Tesla_Alkaline_Stick.php

skinny

It's for this reason that I wish I had a great tub to create some healing baths.  Right now I still deal the bullshit of low cost city living.  One day, in due time. 

One cool method, that's free, is changing your water to the fourth phase, which resembles a gel-like substance more bio-active form by stirring it or chilling it.  That's it.  It's closer to the type of water our mitochondria use.  Very heady stuff. 

I think the main takeaway is that hydration is an uphill battle, so best to find ways to get ahead if anti-aging is the goal. 
It's not just about how much water we drink, but the type of water and the electrical potential of our cells...their ability to hold an electrical charge. 

I am a big fan of having a good healthy electrolyte powder mix that is not too high in sugar.  This is one good way to stay hydrated.  There are many others.  I could do a thread on hydration alone.    Hope all is well Skinny!  Getting back to balance can be a lifelong battle, right?  Good to know we are not in it alone. 
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