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Jack Tripper
« on: October 02, 2013, 04:02:09 AM »
My very good friend, roommate and member here, Jack Tripper died last night, or this am.  I found his body, it was horrible.  He had been free of Methadone since Christmas, after being on it for many years.  He had a friend in town who he wanted to help as her Dr. was cutting off the Rx's after many years.. she gave him a taste.. he was also taking too many benzos and not thinking clearly. 

A plea to you all, if you have the chance to stay clean, stay that way.. a benzo bender along small time opiate bender could lead you back to where you were when you decided to quit.. your tolerance is down.  I am almost certain this was his first heroin use in years and he died...leaving a huge group of us to mourn..  Please, make decisions wisely... we all have been here before.. relapse has happened to most of us.. if you have taken Iboga and been clean for long periods of time and you get the sudden urge.. please be careful.  I am devestated.. finding his body was a nightmare I have not even realized fully yet.  Don't do this to the others in your life..  I have learned a HUGE lesson and just want to pass it on.
R.I.P in the spirit world, my friend. 

M ywallet got stolen on Friday.. I now have a new wallet.. I think he would be happy for me to have it.

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #1 on: October 02, 2013, 06:35:47 AM »
this is so tragic,and heart breaking.
i am so sorry lala....my heart,and prayers are with you guys.
i can only echo what you say.
it only takes going back one time...
so sorry.

rest in peace jack tripper.
raise your fears and cast them all away...

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« Reply #2 on: October 02, 2013, 07:50:37 AM »
Very sorry to hear this.  I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through right now. 

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #3 on: October 02, 2013, 08:23:39 AM »
JT, I love you brother.  I will miss you dearly. 

The Denver Eboka crew will certainly come together during times like these.  I just got off the phone with La, and it is the longest we have talked in months.  The next few days, we will continue to come together to comfort each other and pay our respects.

This is life. 






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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #4 on: October 02, 2013, 11:43:53 AM »
Really sorry to hear that Lalababa. 

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« Reply #5 on: October 02, 2013, 11:48:56 AM »
My heart and prayers go out to you lala - take care of yourself.

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #6 on: October 02, 2013, 04:18:36 PM »
Heartbreaking. Drug addiction is one of the most difficult paradigms that so many people have to deal with their entire lives. I am so sorry for your loss. 
I'm not in your trap, I'm in my own trap.

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #7 on: October 02, 2013, 08:29:37 PM »
R.I.P. Good friend. Still sad and shocked at this and will be thinking of you wherever you are. Your "Gypsy Healer Friend"

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #8 on: October 03, 2013, 02:28:07 AM »
There have been many tears...as the reality sinks in it begins to transform you without even being fully conscious of it. 

There are many beautiful faces I see...each approaching the porch with that same look in their eyes.  Death unites us and reminds of of our own fragility. 

It's been a sad day, and all the support of the forum is greatly appreciated. 

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #9 on: October 03, 2013, 03:08:24 AM »
Shit, no! I'm so sorry, Lala. I enjoyed what posts I have read of his... This breaks my heart, but surely not as much as it must yours.

Sending love.

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #10 on: October 03, 2013, 08:18:49 AM »
Lala, BT, Narina -

Very sorry for your loss; it is tragic and awful that this damn disease claimed the life another very good person, I am sure.

This shit is no joke, once we get clean (no matter by what means) we have to be watchful and on guard against this cunning, baffling and fatal monster known as addiction.  I have lost a dear one who went "back out" and it was sudden and unexpected, leaving us (his friends and fam) shocked and bewildered.  My heart goes out to you.

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #11 on: October 03, 2013, 08:38:55 PM »
Thank you all for the support.  I am so lucky to have many caring friends around me.  Jack Tripper introduced me to someone who could possibly become a love of a lifetime.. he flew in last night to be with me.  He was planning on moving back next spring but he may end up going  back to get his things and move in with me..and we were going to take this slow..he had known JT for over ten years..through good and bad.  He had visited for three weeks was gone one, now is back.  I am so thankful for the gift he left me.. he set us up and it was, IS, perfect.  He said I was crying in my sleep last night.  I don't remember the dream, thank goodness. 

I love you all.  I am happy to have you all here supporting me.  I am blessed.  His life was cut too short.  He was doing better than ever.  If he hadn't been taking a ton of benzos he wouldn't have gotten dope.  A lot of us feel guilty but I know we shouldn't.  The thought that we could have done something keeps popping up in my and some friends heads who had seen him recently, maybe we could have..Who knows.  I am glad out last conversation was not an argument.  I saw him riding away from our home and I told him "Goodbye, I Love You and will see you later."  He avoided me all night, I just left him alone.  I wish I hadn't.  Guilt is there with another friend who saw him earlier in the day and knew he was belligerent but failed to say anything...  my other roommate who also saw his body was home all day even knocking on his door but figured he was sleeping off a hangover.  We all feel guilt but we shouldn't.  His family and friends do blame the girl who was visiting here who gave him all the benzos and morphine,  I still don't know if blaming her is right.. but more than one person told hem to beware of her.  I loved him so much.  He was a wonderful person and was one of my closest friends and we were getting closer by the day.. he was finally excited about life and going somewhere with it..he fucked up.  This is so hard.  Thank you all.

Much Love,
lalababa
« Last Edit: October 06, 2013, 01:07:29 AM by lalababa »

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #12 on: October 03, 2013, 08:50:00 PM »
So sad to hear Lala, but the way you are living this challenge is truly an example of being serene in the midst of adversity and tragedy. 

I must admit and confess, I have a great deal of guilt for the way my conversations went with him and how that may have steered him away from us/this forum/and healing.  I was very harsh with him and not realizing the sense of urgency he was speaking to. 

Many lessons through this

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #13 on: October 03, 2013, 10:06:51 PM »
My heart is so sad for you and JT...  JT  R.I.P.. this is so incredibly sad. We can't stop what will be in this life. It just takes one bad decision sometimes..... I'm so so sorry LaLa

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Re: Jack Tripper
« Reply #14 on: October 03, 2013, 11:30:13 PM »
lala - the grace and dignity with which you're handling this is truly amazing. Isn't it strange how death cuts through all the bullshit and allows our true wisdom to come through? Yours is shining like a beacon.

Coulda,woulda,shoulda - hindsight is 20/20 as they say. No one should waste time blaming themselves (although I think the person who gave him the stuff should do a hell of a lot of soul searching). Ultimately we are all just responsible for ourselves and the decisions we make.

I once went through a phase where I would interact with my friends as if it was the last time I would see them - trying to embody the reality that we never know what the future holds and not taking them and life for granted. Needless to say, it didn't work - they just thought I was mental and I was frustrated by their response. It can work to a degree but both parties have to be on the same wavelength.

Having said that, I'm still working on trying to be kind to people more and telling them that I care about them rather than keeping it to myself which is my natural tendency. What they do with it is up to them.

I'm glad you've got good friends around you to go through this together.

Check out the link to the Lakota Indian Healing song that I posted in the muse - you guys might be surprised by the power of it.

love and big hugs,

entheo
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