Dear Cal and Forum Members,
I am composing this note off-line so that I will not be influenced, distracted or discouraged by anything else until I have said what I need to say.
I have come to regret the tone of the original post in this topic. Instead of humbly making a sincere request for information to assist me, I was 'cracking-wise' while making a sincere request for information to assist me. My regrets are based upon the following:
((1)) Eboka is regarded by some as their sacrament. Though I surely cannot now regard Eboka as one of my personal sacraments, never having partaken, I do indeed regard it as sacramental. Ibogaine, whether extracted from Eboka or synthesized, is to me also sacramental.
((2)) Real humor, given to promote closeness and joy, needs to based upon respect and consideration, i.e. compassion.
((3)) Real humor is an intimate, playful and friendly thing. Enemies joke at each other. Friends joke with each other. While being an excellent means of sharing information, the Internet does not readily communicate the 'fuzzy' things such as friendship, affection and emotions. It is likely that someone coming upon my post would not see it as friendly.
((4)) To the credit of you all, the friendship I have felt while participating in this forum opened the door for me to display the wacky, out-of-bounds side of my inner nature. What I failed to consider was anyone else out there seeing my post, shaking their head and thinking "That guy is seriously screwed up, I'm going to a site where I can find some sanity and good information." Not what you want, I presume.
((5)) I may have done more harm to my 'cause' than benefit.
In short, I failed to show both the Sacrament and my new 'Forum Friends' respect and consideration.
To explain, but not to justify, my outburst I submit the following: At this particular point in my life I believe that Eboka would be the perfect medicine, but I feel lost and confused, at times, about how to proceed. I realized that my buddy with the house in Mexico would welcome me and respect my intentions. I would not be doing anything illegal, not that that is particularly important at this point in my existence. But, and this is important, I would not have to ask anyone to do anything illegal on my behalf. Plus, I thought the plan had a chance of success.
It was definitely an eureka moment. Fortunately, I was not taking a bath at the time (and the weather was somewhat inclement) or I might have been arrested while running naked through the streets yellin' and hollerin' like a maniac. Instead, I sat down at my computer and started yellin' and hollerin' over the Internet, like a maniac.
I humbly present the following actions for your comments and/or approval:
((A)) Do nothing. Let it be and let things follow their course.
((B)) Obliterate the entire thing and pretend it never happened (off to the bit-bucket, you rascal). This would provide the benefit of instant relief for me.
(While not providing a cure, denial does have potent short-term anesthetic properties.)
((C)) Allow me to edit out everything in the original post that I find inappropriate and then pretend it never happened.
((D)) Add this note as a preamble and 'disclaimer' to the original post so that anyone seeing it won't be quite so offended or turned-off by what follows.
((E)) Follow your more informed advice. Please remember I'm pretty much a noob here, a stranger in a strange land, and I do not yet know what is possible or customary.
Cal and Forum Members, I now leave this for your consideration. This pretty much all I wanted to say here, except to wish you all the same things I wish for myself:
Peace, Love and a Little Self-Control,
Su Amigo,
Eon McKnight
