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Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« on: October 19, 2009, 04:17:18 PM »
Hey all!! Wanting to have this posted here, this is reprinted from my vox post.

Hello dear list.

One week and one day later, I can write about this.
There is SO much to convey, to report, I won't be able to share it all.
Layers upon layers upon layers of experiences, that continue to this moment
in calm and profound ways. I did the right thing.

I began preparations a week before, cutting out meats, focusing on things
I wanted to change in my life, intentionally introspective and self aware
to the best of my ability. All this time, I had the feeling that Iboga was
aware of me. I'll say this once, then just let it go: I'm reporting some
things that won't jibe with consensus reality. Nevertheless, they are real.
Think what you will.

The day before I was going to take the TA, I ate only vegetables, and had
my last cigarette in the evening. I'd been sober off alcohol for about,
well, you guys remember *blush* 4 weeks? I spent time in the jacuzzi,
relaxing and focusing, praying and meditating. I invited Iboga in
intentionally during a meditation. Interestingly, I felt acceptance, and my
visualization was intense. Felt like it wasn't self generated at all, and
included splitting me open at the middle (solar plexus? xyphoid process to
pubis?). I sealed and sent my intention with the energy generated by
orgasm, then with some trepidation, went to bed.

The next morning at 9am, I took a test dose of TA extract. I tolerated
this well and took a flood dose carefuly calculated for my height, weight,
gender and length of sobriety. This did not take me where I needed to go,
and so over time, in 300-400mg increments, I made it up to over 3 grams of
extract. Apparently I was a hard nut to crack. Two other people I have
spoken with used the same product and found it very potent, so that wasn't
the issue. (Wish I had boosters, though!!! Damn!).

At around 3?4? in the afternoon, I looked in the mirror across from the
bed and saw some people peeking around the corner of it-from the inside- to
check if I was ready. I called for a giant mouthful of plain yogurt, I was
craving it like mad, lay down, and went on a journey. :)
I threw up only twice, shortly after that, quickly and painlessly. I
suffered no prolonged nausea and no dry heaves.
My BP was strong the entire time, not much fluctuation from my normal
100/70. My pulse stayed at an average 56 beats. I was so incredibly
relaxed. Of course there were visuals. So many visuals I could not possibly
tell you all of them, as time was very different as well. I can tell you it
began with an eye, that saw me. A sense of myself having waited, maybe as
if in a queue, and I was finally seen, addressed. It was my turn.
I was matter of factly and sometimes with humor shown many, many things
about myself, and about the world. Much of my thinking was realigned, and
many old wounds were cleaned out. I also know very strongly that I will
take this journey again, that Iboga has more for me, and I for Iboga,
though I realize how presumptuous that sounds. I did indeed communicate
with my dead elders, remember that was one of my early questions? I also
think that my 20 some odd year history with meditation and visualization
and traditional magics were a boon, as was having been fairly sober except
for marijuana and a couple days of recreational darvocet for some weeks.
I also did Not want to be disturbed during the experience, and maybe came
across as bitchy in conveying that (sorry, dear husband!lol). I cried a few
times during, but it seemed that as soon as the emotion made it to my
mouth, I was onto healing the next thing.

I came around the next morning full of light. Or maybe just so clean
inside that my light was visible. If I didn't have a witness, it would be
almost hard to believe that my skin actually glowed. Light from within, I
was luminous. I was enamored of my hands, so pretty and soft, though I
didn't look in a mirror for three days. I didn't think of it.
I again went to the jacuzzi. I was able to sit lotus without a thought in
my head, not a thought! for ten minutes. This is actually amazing, lol. I
was and am so calm. I did not want a cigarette, a drink, nothing. I was
free of all wants, really. A perfectly lovely place to be.

My ovarian cysts have shrunk to the point of being no longer palpable.
This is down from 9cm and visible when I lay on my back. I no longer need
surgery for the moment.  My surgery was scheduled for 9/14. :)

I then dined on a brilliant plate of fruits. In little teeny tiny bites,
lol. Everything tasted divine. Interestingly, for most of my life I have
disliked fruit. Now, I've been to three farmer's markets in one week
because I can't get enough. I proceeded that same day to read 'The Easy Way
to Quit Smoking' (thanks to the wonderful human here who brought that to my
attention) and finished it. I've wanted a cigarette a couple times since,
but mostly out of boredom and when it's a habit (afetr eating, etc) nothing
I can't acknowledge away. :) I am not finding alcohol to be an issue any
longer. I'm not even thinking about it.
I made roast chicken and braised squash on the next night, with a simple
risotto. I needed a splash of wine for the risotto. The rest of the bottle
is still sitting in my house. It is a non-issue.

I also must say that emotions bubbled up after, and still are, but not in
the same way. For the first few days they came like puke or diarrhea. Not
that it was gross, but definitely was a purge, and there was NO stopping
it!!! Lol, walking down the street, getting sad about not seeing my beloved
grandmother one last time before she passed. Looking desperately for an
alley or hidey hole, because, man, I'm going to sob! After each cry,
though, I just felt bigger inside. Wider, more expansive. I now fully
inhabit my skin.
I can breathe into my feet, my breathe moves in me.
Also, in the past I have been buffeted by other people's emotions, I pick
up on them like a sponge, often to my detriment and confusion. This is
amazingly under control now. I am less porous, less...vulnerable? Yeah, but
less porous seems more accurate. I have not lost the ability to connect,
but it's a choice, and I can see whose emotions are whose. This is such an
unexpected gift, but just one of many.
I also look much younger, according to husband and dear friends. My face
feels so relaxed. There is less pain on it, to be sure.
I also am confirmed in needing to escape this darned day job! (In time, in
time)
There is so much more, but this is a decent brief.

I see many things clearly now, and am confirmed in my thinking on many
others.
I know I will be working with Iboga in some capacity, I have no idea how,
but I am confident about it.
I did the right thing.
I'm happy to talk about any part of this with anyone, here or off-list.

My very heartfelt thanks to Iboga, the place it grew, the hands that
harvested, the entities that got it from there to me, my husband for
sitting with me and everyone who has contributed to the movement and this
list.
Particular thanks to the individuals who have taken the time to talk with
me privately, and opened their hearts to me, giving me the gifts of their
time and attention.
It is my hope to be able to give back at least as much as I have been
given.

I am a different woman, or maybe just more profoundly and completely the
woman I've always been. ;)

Love and rockets,
Tia
« Last Edit: October 19, 2009, 06:24:17 PM by Tia Serendipia »

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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #1 on: October 19, 2009, 05:34:27 PM »
Thank you for an excellent, honest report Tia. I was wondering when we'd have more 'testimonials'...

Everything you said, everything you experienced seems to me quintessentially iboga. The way you were emotionally 'raw' immediately after for a few days, I was impressed by this quality as well. I mean, here I am, a heavy-metal-head junkie - walking around sniffing flowers and balling like a schoolgirl. Amazing.

I think this touches on many important aspects of a session...pre, during and post. Thanks again for sharing!
" I am you and what I see is me..."

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« Reply #2 on: October 19, 2009, 08:34:22 PM »
Amazing to hear about the alcohol issue Bev.  That has been the most troublesome for me, so I do understand!  Peace!

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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #3 on: October 20, 2009, 02:43:27 AM »
Yes, Dear Tia,

A most wonderful post.  Happened to see it before and copied it to some friends.  Thought they might like to see where I'm planning to go...

Mucho Gratitude 2 You!

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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #4 on: October 20, 2009, 01:59:08 PM »
fallout:
Happy to report I'm still not drinking. I tried for two hard years, with tears and despair and sincerity, to quit.
I have had alcohol once since Iboga. I didn't blackout, didn't spend more than I had, didn't go off the deep end like I had in the past. It also didn't do for me what it once did, and I've not had the desire to pick it up again. When I think about it, I know it's not the right path, and I have a love for myself now, also an absence of disgust and shame, that makes it an easy choice. I can walk to the corner of my block any time day or night and get it, I just don't want to anymore. When I tried it, I was feeling spiteful and angry. It didn't help, and I knew it wouldn't ever again. I had to go through a little sadness at losing a 'friend', but I have worked through that and many other issues. (And I still am! Every day! lol)

Thanks for your comments, guys!

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« Reply #5 on: October 25, 2009, 02:31:36 PM »

Hello,

That was one of the most successful Ibo stories that I have every hears.  It seems that everything you did was positive.  You were on a somewhat special diet, meditated, Invited Lady Iboga into your heart.  Then you quite drinking but you also changed your life.  You quit smoking and I can not see your letter here but you seemed to change your thinking. You say your skin changed and you look younger.  That is quite possible if you limit your stress and it sound like you eliminated quite a bit of....baggage .... yea baggage they call it now and clutter.  You have probably found that your home life is much better and happier.  Of all the things to strive for - gold, silver, being famous, etc. I would go for the happiness.  And you can help others when able.  Regardless or where you go and what you do you would definitely make the world a better place.  You did great, keep it up.  Just think to be successful all you have to do is help one person - just
one person and make the world a better place.  See, so simple.

Much Love,

  - JIM

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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #6 on: October 25, 2009, 10:18:48 PM »
Nice to hear your heartfelt and entertaining response, Jim! 

I seemed to have missed this last post Tia....great to hear your doing so well! 

Peace!

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« Reply #7 on: October 31, 2009, 07:49:37 PM »
 ;D :D ::)

JIIIIM!!!!!!
HiHiHi!

Thank you so much for your words, and here I'll also publicly thank you for supporting me before and after Iboga. You are a loving, giving person and I am so very grateful to know you.

hugs and delight,
Tia

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« Reply #8 on: February 13, 2010, 03:40:54 AM »
fallout:
Happy to report I'm still not drinking. I tried for two hard years, with tears and despair and sincerity, to quit.
I have had alcohol once since Iboga. I didn't blackout, didn't spend more than I had, didn't go off the deep end like I had in the past. It also didn't do for me what it once did, and I've not had the desire to pick it up again. When I think about it, I know it's not the right path, and I have a love for myself now, also an absence of disgust and shame, that makes it an easy choice. I can walk to the corner of my block any time day or night and get it, I just don't want to anymore. When I tried it, I was feeling spiteful and angry. It didn't help, and I knew it wouldn't ever again. I had to go through a little sadness at losing a 'friend', but I have worked through that and many other issues. (And I still am! Every day! lol)

Thanks for your comments, guys!

Great to see you dealt with some stuff and are shinning bright' Bliss!




Warning' No drink alcohol after Iboga!

Alcohol floods the brain with natural endorphins knocking the Iboga alks off of the receptor sites'
It then proceeds to kill the height of Iboga so you miss much of the healing Iboga can bring'
It also hard-wires your NMDA receptors' you know the ones you just reset with Iboga alks' into learning through an alcohol haze and at a later date as of when the metabolites have diminished you shall go back to drinking alcohol!

Question?

If you got an issue with alcohol or any substance and you partake of Iboga alks to reset your brain pathways'
What are you doing drinking alcohol after initiation'

You just wasted 70% of what Iboga alks can do for you' and in my experience shall be back drinking or taking substances before very long'

Now I said this' you can go ahead and prove me in-correct'

But the object of partaking of initiation is to get a clean slate'

Why mess it all up with doing something you had little control over in the past' you done it now' as of when the metabolites diminish' drink shall raise it's ugly head on you again!

This no make any sense to me at all!

Blessings

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P.S. Why did you drink alcohol after Iboga ? As of when there is need for no thing' and alcohol is non-conducive to the Iboga experience'

In Africa they drink moderate amounts alcohol with Iboga' cos the alcohol kills Iboga and enables folks to get some needed sleep' Upon arising the next day they proceed to eat small bits of Iboga of which wipes out the alcohol'

No substances after Iboga for 6-7 weeks' by this time your NMDA receptor responces shall be rewired away from learning through substances'
I see it as just a waste of time partaking Iboga alks then continuing as you have always done'

Your future must differ from your past in order for your future to be different'

I know I go on' but I see this all the time' folks go a few days with Iboga then proceed to kill it with alcohol or another choice substance even before the brain has had chance toi recover from the reasons for partaking of initiation'

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« Reply #9 on: February 13, 2010, 09:11:27 AM »


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The next morning at 9am, I took a test dose of TA extract. I tolerated
this well and took a flood dose carefully calculated for my height, weight,
gender and length of sobriety. This did not take me where I needed to go,
and so over time, in 300-400mg increments, I made it up to over 3 grams of
extract.

Quick question!
Was this an extract you partook of or a pharmacutical PTA (purified total alkaloid)?

I would advice giving it 5-6 weeks and then take the same dose again'

Blessings and light'

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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #10 on: February 28, 2010, 04:17:21 PM »
Hey Nobu,
Well, you've got some vehemence there. For you, I will clarify. I took TA extract last July or August. I've since taken several forms of boosters. I feel fantastic, loving, strong, connected, introspective, alive and growing.
I have grown past alcoholism. It doesn't do what it once did, and is no longer attractive to me.
Also, I don't use Iboga to get high, I partake to stay connected. Iboga has a beautiful voice, and Iboga has an agenda. :)

I am in no danger of relapsing into alcoholism, because for me, it is cured.
Yes, I know what I am saying.

Thank you for your concern. May the universe return to you tenfold that which you give.

Love and muscles,
T

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« Reply #11 on: February 28, 2010, 04:53:15 PM »
So you say' but why drink alcohol after Iboga' it no makes sence'

I see this all the time' folks say they wish to walk with Iboga then proceed to smash it up with choice substances'

The likes of LSD and alcohol MDMA and "Heroin"

Why ? is my question' why destroy of what Iboga could give you'

Who takes the bark of the tree of knowledge to ge high !! NO ONE DOES!!

Glad you got some healing from  this amzing plant' it is good to see folks taking their own healing into their hands'

I have no vemenence' what I do have in knowledge (treated over 200 folks with a 42 % success rate) and concerns and questions of why folkks wish to take other substances after Iboga!

Seeing as it is no conducive to the Iboga experience'

Many blessings love and light!

May Iboga mirror show yourself to yourself in all your ugliness and beauty'

Power and light'

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« Reply #12 on: February 28, 2010, 05:09:25 PM »
Vehemence means saying something with a lot of strength and conviction.

My simple answer to why is that the situation presented itself and I wanted to learn. This I have done and I am pleased with the knowledge gained.
I am not disconnected from Iboga, Nobu, no matter how strenuously you feel that I am.
I am proud that you have shared Iboga with over two hundred people with a 42% success rate. Is this your success rate, or Iboga's success rate?

I too pray the mirror shows me all sides, I am always looking and learning from what I see.
Thank you, Nobu. I learn from you.

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« Reply #13 on: February 28, 2010, 05:10:05 PM »
P.S. I pulled you on you drinking alcohol after Iboga!

You can now get the where for all inside of yourself to prove me wrong for the rest of the time we know of each other'

Partaking of Iboga is an attempt at getting a clean slate' one of which you shall no get if you continue partaking of substances with or after Iboga therapy'

Quite simple really' I get this all the time' then folks tell me Iboga no worked' it shall no work if you continue as you have always done'

It be like the heroin addict that wishes to be clear of heroin but still use it ! They wish for both states of conciousness'

Great to see you have something to now work with'

Power to you'

Bliss!


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Re: Luminosity, my Iboga experience.
« Reply #14 on: February 28, 2010, 05:12:58 PM »
Shoot, one other thing. We all know that eating Iboga works just fine. But I shit you not, some people actually shoot it up and smoke it. Why do that? Bigger, better, faster, more. It's my opinion that to reach for that is also to turn away from what's really going on with one. That's what I meant by 'getting high' with iboga.