My 2 month update
I’m on sort of a microdosing break, I’ll still take maybe 300mg once a week for a deepened meditation but that’s all. I haven’t taken any kratom, opiates or psychiatric meds and I feel “invested” in staying clean…there was one night about a month ago ( I think this was when the SSRI’s finally wore off ) when I felt dog sick for a couple of hours, every muscle ached and I was nauseous and throwing up and I knew a couple of TY3’s would’ve made it better but I didn’t because I didn’t want to have to reset that countdown clock.
I’m doing twice weekly yoga, daily meditations and I’m making new friends. I’ve pretty much turned off the TV except for 30 minutes of network news a day and my 7AM “My Name is Earl” reruns. My yoga studio has a spiritual bent and offers a lot of discussion groups and workshops. I’m going to take a Chakra workshop next month and I’m going to a retreat in Costa Rica with them in November.
I’ve come up with some new meditations to mix things up a little bit.
The DNA Meditation
Did you know if the all the DNA in your body was unfurled and stretched from end to end it would reach to Pluto and back?? This little tidbit gave me the inspiration for the DNA meditation. It’s a cool meditation because it’s freeform and you can do a 15 minute version or a version that lasts for hours. Some times I just do one of the 4 parts and give it more time, last night I spent about an hour with part 4.
Part One
Visualize the DNA in your body unraveling from your little finger and let it wrap itself around the earth like a ball of yarn. Broadcast yourself to the world and let the world know who you are. Absorb the earth as it absorbs you. Then focus in on parts of the world. Broadcast yourself to the oceans and become one with them.
You can keep going with this almost infinitely. Become one with the deserts of the Southwest US. Become one with the Caribbean beaches. Become one with the polar icecaps. Become one with the South American jungles. The African savannahs. The Norwegian fjords.
Then pull your DNA back in and reassemble yourself. Take a few minutes to absorb how you have changed the world and been forever changed by the world.
Part Two
Visualize the unraveling process again and wrap the world again. This time become one with the living creatures of the world. Comingle your DNA with theirs and become one with all – then, as before, narrow in on parts of the world. Become one with the people in the large cities and broadcast yourself to them. Become one with the animals of the forest and become one with them. Become one with the African tribal peoples. Become one with the animals of the jungles. Become one with the creatures of the oceans. Keep going as long as you can.
Then pull your DNA back in and reassemble yourself. Take some time to absorb how you have changed the creatures of world and been forever changed by them.
Part Three
Visualize yourself standing on top of this world that you have now become one with. Unravel your DNA in a straight line into space. Become one with each of the planets and broadcast yourself to them. Become one with the asteroid belt and the emptiness of space. Keep going as long as you can. End this section by becoming one with the sun, the engine of all life on earth.
Then pull your DNA back in and reassemble yourself. Take a few minutes to absorb how you have changed universe and been forever changed by the universe.
Part Four
Unravel yourself into the metaspace of universal consciousness and become one with all things and events past present and future. You can go really freeform on this section, broadcast yourself to and become one with events from your past, historical events and characters, your ancestors, every feeling ever felt, every laugh ever laughed, every tear ever shed.
Then pull your DNA back in and reassemble yourself. Take some time to absorb how you have changed the world and been forever changed by the world.
You basically just have to time this one out for yourself every time you do it, as you can tell you can do a limited 15 minute version or, if you are in the right headspace, this can last all evening and into the night.
It’s About Forgiveness
At one point while microdosing I got the Don Henley song “Heart of the Matter” stuck in my head and took it to heart, so to speak.
This lead to my “forgiveness” meditations, which consist of simply mentally replaying and rewriting events from your past and imagining changing the outcome by acting with compassion and forgiveness.
The inspiration for this one was , believe it or not, the movie Hamlet 2 which is a comedy. A high school teacher decides to produce a sequel to Hamlet but is faced with the problem of everyone dying at the end of the first play. The solution….time machine !!
So in this amusing sequel to Hamlet, Hamlet goes back in time, finds Jesus and then runs through his life and changes everything, knocking the poison out of Gertrude’s hand, forgiving his uncle, marrying Ophelia. Even though the movie is a comedy I found this “play within a play” deeply moving.
And in searching the whole wide world of the internet and You Tube, I haven’t been able to find this particular clip or I’d post it. I may have to buy the movie on NetFlix to refresh my memory since it’s been a while since I’ve seen it.