Wow, I am a new member here myself but reading your posts Angelique was very refreshing to me... refreshing and also... giving me a feeling of veneration for this substance, that I have honestly not contemplated in all of its magnitude yet, as well as a feeling in my chest that I don't know how to describe. Maybe it is fear that I do not let myself acknowledge consciously, for fear that it will get out of control if I let that happen... But I also feel that it shows me that there is much more prep work that I must do myself before I endeavour to walk on this path of healing. I really have no other words to offer, but I am very glad that I can read what you wrote. And I wish for you to live free within yourself.